13th Dec, is a special day. It's my dad's birthday.
today, 13thDec, i failed as a son, cause for the first time, someone had to talk to me personally to return the money, and i wasn't able to pluck out even 300 for my dad to solve his personal crisis.
last week, i failed myself as a lover, i made a wrong judgement, i thought i wasn;t gonna love my skinnife again, ended up, i did, but it was all too late as well
sometimes when i think about it, what for i need to earn so much money, now, i'm very likely getting a chronic disease straight at my gastric, i dunno how long will i live, but my health is really torturing me, regardless day or night.
things ain't going good for me in every aspect as well
with all these happening to me, should i cry, or just smile my way through?
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
1:08pm 29thNov
Things had changed. Wy changed for the extreme.
sigh, life sucks nowadays.
didn't know i had transformed so much, or was it due to the things surrounding me all the time.
how i wish this misery, which wasn't suppose to be my misery, would be gone.
Beer is my remedy, towards my sorrows.
sigh, life sucks nowadays.
didn't know i had transformed so much, or was it due to the things surrounding me all the time.
how i wish this misery, which wasn't suppose to be my misery, would be gone.
Beer is my remedy, towards my sorrows.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
4:11am 30thMay
oh, and its the end of the month again -.-
and at least i'm clearing most of my debts alr -.-
office days all the while and will probably end soon, lols
and i seriously dunno wads so interesting about my life now that i can blog about,
so its time to rest (:
adios \l/
and at least i'm clearing most of my debts alr -.-
office days all the while and will probably end soon, lols
and i seriously dunno wads so interesting about my life now that i can blog about,
so its time to rest (:
adios \l/
Sunday, May 9, 2010
1:33am 10th May
Alright, been a long time since i blogged.
having attachment nowadays @ Quantum Automation.
so far so good over there, at least nobody screws me up over, at least for now.
And so, life as a working class isn't that bad also, except for the dumb stress we face in office daily, -.- damned.
What goes around, comes around, and fuck you upside down
having attachment nowadays @ Quantum Automation.
so far so good over there, at least nobody screws me up over, at least for now.
And so, life as a working class isn't that bad also, except for the dumb stress we face in office daily, -.- damned.
What goes around, comes around, and fuck you upside down
Friday, April 9, 2010
2:59am 10thApr
ohwell.
my life's in a mess.
everything is so behind schedule, so far behind.
i've got no one to blame for wasting my holidays away,
but myself, for being foolish and lazy all the time.
dreading the way my life is now.
how i wish something would change, so that i can change,
for the better at least?. lols
making a time machine, or catch up to the impossible?
my life's in a mess.
everything is so behind schedule, so far behind.
i've got no one to blame for wasting my holidays away,
but myself, for being foolish and lazy all the time.
dreading the way my life is now.
how i wish something would change, so that i can change,
for the better at least?. lols
making a time machine, or catch up to the impossible?
Friday, April 2, 2010
4:03am 3rdApr
alright, have comes the first weekend of April -.-
alright, mum handed me $300, which means its time to do some self-control over money.
so maybe a good way will be keeping track of them here? (:
Transport - $10
Spools - $5
Food - $5
ok, $20 gone in one day.
niceone -.-
new challenge all the time, damn
alright, mum handed me $300, which means its time to do some self-control over money.
so maybe a good way will be keeping track of them here? (:
Transport - $10
Spools - $5
Food - $5
ok, $20 gone in one day.
niceone -.-
new challenge all the time, damn
Monday, March 29, 2010
3:25am 30thMar
feeling sick nw -.-
unknowingly, a quarter of 2010 passed, lols .
and knowingly myself, i had not accomplish anything yet, lols .
its alright, i'm only looking forward to Wed night (:
everything will change,
unknowingly, a quarter of 2010 passed, lols .
and knowingly myself, i had not accomplish anything yet, lols .
its alright, i'm only looking forward to Wed night (:
everything will change,
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
2:37am 25thMar
seriously dunno how to make this post seem right,
or maybe i should say, i dunno how to make this post seems i'm alright.
its ok, i found 2 new pals today.
they're called 'I' and 'myself' .
just came back from somewhere again.
seriously, i need a drink, alone.
me, myself and I
or maybe i should say, i dunno how to make this post seems i'm alright.
its ok, i found 2 new pals today.
they're called 'I' and 'myself' .
just came back from somewhere again.
seriously, i need a drink, alone.
me, myself and I
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
3:21am 24thMar
ohwell, normal days will carry on until the day supp paper results are out.
been chatting around msn and looking over facebook,
and the conclusion for the day is, i really wanna go the fucking museum, damn.
for once i think museum can be a cool place to hang out, lols
play hard to get by, should i play?
been chatting around msn and looking over facebook,
and the conclusion for the day is, i really wanna go the fucking museum, damn.
for once i think museum can be a cool place to hang out, lols
play hard to get by, should i play?
Sunday, March 21, 2010
4:08am 22ndMarch
had a very funny nightmare last night, lols .
yup, funny nightmare -.-
the moment i forced myself out of it, i woke up and started smiling to myself, lols .
ok, sounds fucking dumb, anyway the real nightmare will come in around 5hours time .
somehow i got the feeling, i'll get screwed again.
can i know everything, seriously.
yup, funny nightmare -.-
the moment i forced myself out of it, i woke up and started smiling to myself, lols .
ok, sounds fucking dumb, anyway the real nightmare will come in around 5hours time .
somehow i got the feeling, i'll get screwed again.
can i know everything, seriously.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
3:10am 21stMar
ohwell,
sometimes i wonder what am i doing nowadays .
everything seems so wrong, but what's really wrong?
time to off my tv and start sleeping (:
if this is life, then i surrender .
sometimes i wonder what am i doing nowadays .
everything seems so wrong, but what's really wrong?
time to off my tv and start sleeping (:
if this is life, then i surrender .
Monday, March 15, 2010
3:23am 16thMar
4days of pure torture has finally ended, lols .
and i guess i deserve some good rest (: not some stupid remedials , damn!
best day
and i guess i deserve some good rest (: not some stupid remedials , damn!
best day
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
2:54am 10thMarch
will be a busy week.
and also disappointing ones next week .
this holiday will be screwed from next week onwards, niceone .
when life is screwed, making and waiting for decisions just screw it deeper.
if only time stopped the moment i was born, lols
can a monk smoke?
and also disappointing ones next week .
this holiday will be screwed from next week onwards, niceone .
when life is screwed, making and waiting for decisions just screw it deeper.
if only time stopped the moment i was born, lols
can a monk smoke?
Monday, March 8, 2010
3:35am 9thMar
ohwell.
spent a nice day out today.
and found a good place to slack, anyway i'm tired -.-
bye !
don't know what i want
spent a nice day out today.
and found a good place to slack, anyway i'm tired -.-
bye !
don't know what i want
Sunday, March 7, 2010
4:02am 8thMar
damn, 2nd week of March alr.
ohwell, another pretty wasted weekend.
as expected, things don't go my way again.
doesn't matters anymore already.
god-damnit.
understand myself? or something else first?
ohwell, another pretty wasted weekend.
as expected, things don't go my way again.
doesn't matters anymore already.
god-damnit.
understand myself? or something else first?
Saturday, March 6, 2010
3:43am 7thMar
ohwell.
spent a pretty lame weekend doing nothing.
tmr should be the same alr , lols .
disappointments are so uncommon to me nowadays,
to the extent, when one appears, it really affects me .
maybe its a good thing that children cries all the time, though i seriously hate it.
cos when they reach a point of time, even when they're upset, they can't cry.
this is the world people !
spent a pretty lame weekend doing nothing.
tmr should be the same alr , lols .
disappointments are so uncommon to me nowadays,
to the extent, when one appears, it really affects me .
maybe its a good thing that children cries all the time, though i seriously hate it.
cos when they reach a point of time, even when they're upset, they can't cry.
this is the world people !
Thursday, March 4, 2010
4:30am 5thMar
ohwell.
i wonder why making choices can be so troublesome,
and i seriously dunno wads a right and wads a wrong choice.
think i should start meditating at home sometimes.
i wanna go barrage!
i wonder why making choices can be so troublesome,
and i seriously dunno wads a right and wads a wrong choice.
think i should start meditating at home sometimes.
i wanna go barrage!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
4:06am 1st Mar
the 517th post, (:
First day of March. Approaching the end of the first quarter.
Alright, spent a good night out,
despite missing some soccer actions. lols
been long since i can relate some of my matters to a person.
Life has always been like this. People come in and get out of your lives once in a while.
But, what matters is still now.
special
First day of March. Approaching the end of the first quarter.
Alright, spent a good night out,
despite missing some soccer actions. lols
been long since i can relate some of my matters to a person.
Life has always been like this. People come in and get out of your lives once in a while.
But, what matters is still now.
special
Friday, February 26, 2010
4:20am 27thFeb
this is my 6570th day on earth, lols
ohwell, not expecting any stuffs this year.
nothing much to add on also.
thanks for accompanying me on the 6569th, my confirm-chop fail exams and also some peeps.
(:
Day6254 and 6255 on earth was a much happier one, ohwell
ohwell, not expecting any stuffs this year.
nothing much to add on also.
thanks for accompanying me on the 6569th, my confirm-chop fail exams and also some peeps.
(:
Day6254 and 6255 on earth was a much happier one, ohwell
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
3:33am 25thJan
ohwell. 48hours more to my 19th .
but guess it'll be almost the same or probably lousier than last's .
gave myself a good present already and the present will be delivered a few weeks from now.
In school sitting for a few supp papers, lol
the bottomline is,
screw myself
but guess it'll be almost the same or probably lousier than last's .
gave myself a good present already and the present will be delivered a few weeks from now.
In school sitting for a few supp papers, lol
the bottomline is,
screw myself
Friday, February 19, 2010
3:44am 20thFeb
life's getting so dull everyday.
few more days to the first paper and some more days to the end (:
ohwell, life as per normal. Just that it seemed like i received a big red packet at my right eye -.-
couldn't find a use
few more days to the first paper and some more days to the end (:
ohwell, life as per normal. Just that it seemed like i received a big red packet at my right eye -.-
couldn't find a use
Saturday, February 13, 2010
3:44am 14thFeb
happy chinese new year people !
will be out of town for a few days,
so yea, cyas (:
new start
will be out of town for a few days,
so yea, cyas (:
new start
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
2:06am 10thFeb
alright, a few more days to CNY,
probably a bad start i guess .
spent more than $80 from my mum's pocket just to see doctor -.-
i guess thats why i'm not smoking this few days,
only finished a stick just nw, lols
now i'm starting to wonder, are these the withdrawal symptoms, zz .
troubles falling on my head.
probably a bad start i guess .
spent more than $80 from my mum's pocket just to see doctor -.-
i guess thats why i'm not smoking this few days,
only finished a stick just nw, lols
now i'm starting to wonder, are these the withdrawal symptoms, zz .
troubles falling on my head.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
4:06am 8thFeb
i wonder what's wrong with my body,
i can't even sleep even though i'm uber tired nw -.-
every sneeze or cough is a fucking torture , damned.
not my day, again
i can't even sleep even though i'm uber tired nw -.-
every sneeze or cough is a fucking torture , damned.
not my day, again
Friday, February 5, 2010
3:16am 6thFeb
ohwell.
thought of spending my weekends in a more appropriate way.
met some people on the way here and there.
but somehow everything on my mind is still the same .
that wierd feeling that's so cooped up in my mind .
and i guess i need more rest nowadays .
I'm sorry, truly
thought of spending my weekends in a more appropriate way.
met some people on the way here and there.
but somehow everything on my mind is still the same .
that wierd feeling that's so cooped up in my mind .
and i guess i need more rest nowadays .
I'm sorry, truly
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
2:56am 3rdFeb
ohwell, its already February.
soon, CNY will come and the torturing days followed by that.
days are getting busier and so is everything .
hopefully i can spend more time here.
speechless and helpless
soon, CNY will come and the torturing days followed by that.
days are getting busier and so is everything .
hopefully i can spend more time here.
speechless and helpless
Thursday, January 28, 2010
2:54am 29thJan
just finished a 1hr phone discussion with a possible new-partner.
sometimes, things are too good to be real for me .
now, it looks as if the cruise just lifted the anchor out of the seabed
but will the cruise even start moving at a slow pace, i seriously wonder, lols .
gambling with time
sometimes, things are too good to be real for me .
now, it looks as if the cruise just lifted the anchor out of the seabed
but will the cruise even start moving at a slow pace, i seriously wonder, lols .
gambling with time
Monday, January 25, 2010
1:05am 26thJan
life is a torture every now and then.
after the long weekend, i came to a conclusion of everything since the new chapter of my life had began.
everything is so different now, i just feel like shutting myself out of the world, but due to many considerations i can't do it.
in life there's many things to regret, and there's no excuses sometimes.
maybe i've yet to find one, but things have been miserable all the while .
from, my body to financial and from friends to family.
its a pretty hard time to get through, but since its not the first time for the finance and family department to screw up, so its ok.
somehow the part about my body is a torture.
when people question me 'why you always no money despite working?', its quite difficult to answer this simple question.
even though a simple answer will be, i know my body well, there's certain things i can do, and many that i cannot do from now on.
its not something that could be taken care of easily like a fix or some physio session.
one of my new year resolution would probably fail nw and that is to clear my debts by CNY,
sometimes, its not just about the effort shown, its the ability to show these effort.
let's just hope everything will be more successful in the coming chapter, and i'll sigh less than 20times a day when i think about my future.
done ranting
after the long weekend, i came to a conclusion of everything since the new chapter of my life had began.
everything is so different now, i just feel like shutting myself out of the world, but due to many considerations i can't do it.
in life there's many things to regret, and there's no excuses sometimes.
maybe i've yet to find one, but things have been miserable all the while .
from, my body to financial and from friends to family.
its a pretty hard time to get through, but since its not the first time for the finance and family department to screw up, so its ok.
somehow the part about my body is a torture.
when people question me 'why you always no money despite working?', its quite difficult to answer this simple question.
even though a simple answer will be, i know my body well, there's certain things i can do, and many that i cannot do from now on.
its not something that could be taken care of easily like a fix or some physio session.
one of my new year resolution would probably fail nw and that is to clear my debts by CNY,
sometimes, its not just about the effort shown, its the ability to show these effort.
let's just hope everything will be more successful in the coming chapter, and i'll sigh less than 20times a day when i think about my future.
done ranting
Monday, January 18, 2010
4:41am 19thJan
alright, consecutive 4nights, lols .
went for the 3rd therapy in the afternoon.
and its some pretty bad news to the family's wallet, lols .
the sinseh asked me to go for an x-ray, or i might even be required to do those stupid scans which cost around $800 , lols .
so, possible cause of backaches are:
slipped disc , or/and
nerve being pressed by 'dunno what bone'
and thus, causing the stupid numbness at the legs when i thought i was too fat .
human's body is so fascinating huh ?. lols .
ohwell, there goes my plans .
the torturing days.
went for the 3rd therapy in the afternoon.
and its some pretty bad news to the family's wallet, lols .
the sinseh asked me to go for an x-ray, or i might even be required to do those stupid scans which cost around $800 , lols .
so, possible cause of backaches are:
slipped disc , or/and
nerve being pressed by 'dunno what bone'
and thus, causing the stupid numbness at the legs when i thought i was too fat .
human's body is so fascinating huh ?. lols .
ohwell, there goes my plans .
the torturing days.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
5:30am 18thJan
my back is a fucking torture i swear, god damnit.
alright, going to school soon.
without any sleep for 3nights in a row (:
stranded
alright, going to school soon.
without any sleep for 3nights in a row (:
stranded
Saturday, January 16, 2010
5:24am 17thJan
life is often a drag.
disappointments and hurdles come side by side.
this post could have turned out to be an essay, but somehow i don't wish to continue.
humans are all the same.
after 2sleepless nights,
i wonder what has been through my mind.
for now, i wanna speak to a stranger .
disappointments and hurdles come side by side.
this post could have turned out to be an essay, but somehow i don't wish to continue.
humans are all the same.
after 2sleepless nights,
i wonder what has been through my mind.
for now, i wanna speak to a stranger .
Thursday, January 14, 2010
4:36am 15thJan
days getting boring .
maybe this is what they call aimless.
probably just received the key to success, but now i don't feel like looking for the keyhole, lols .
ohwell,
pain in the ass, really
maybe this is what they call aimless.
probably just received the key to success, but now i don't feel like looking for the keyhole, lols .
ohwell,
pain in the ass, really
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
12:48am 13thJan
ohwell,
days getting tough and me getting more frustrated each time each day.
sometimes, things are just hard to get over,
even if u need a person u talk to,
u dunno where and what to start with,
or to even start with, there's no time to explain .
a heave of sigh.
days getting tough and me getting more frustrated each time each day.
sometimes, things are just hard to get over,
even if u need a person u talk to,
u dunno where and what to start with,
or to even start with, there's no time to explain .
a heave of sigh.
Friday, January 8, 2010
3:33am 9thJan
In a wink, 1/3 of Jan is gone.
CNY in 1month time .
but nt really looking forward to it , hahas .
the main concern now is money,
and also time to do some soul-searching .
everything is changing around me ,
sometimes i dunno what i should do.
there's alot of people giving me different suggestions all the time.
but i just dunno what to say all the time .
In conclusion so far,
B for bullshits.
lady luck, i need your shine ..
CNY in 1month time .
but nt really looking forward to it , hahas .
the main concern now is money,
and also time to do some soul-searching .
everything is changing around me ,
sometimes i dunno what i should do.
there's alot of people giving me different suggestions all the time.
but i just dunno what to say all the time .
In conclusion so far,
B for bullshits.
lady luck, i need your shine ..
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
5:31am 2ndJan
alright, official first 2010 post in this blog, lols .
new year's resolution up.
and off i go .
make the wise choice.
new year's resolution up.
and off i go .
make the wise choice.
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