11:45pm 14thDec

and so , the time i woke up , was probably the time my aunt passed away .


10years ago , around this period of the year .

when i woke up , everyone i see gives a 'sad' expression .

i was like , wondering why ?. until i sat down beside my aunt .

and she said in chinese : 'wy , wai gong bu zai liao' ..

it meant , my grandad passed away .


weeks ago when we all knew of her disease .

i told my mum , maybe u wanna go visit ur sister 1 last time .

before u regret .

and she was mentioning about how busy she is helping my dad.

and i said , 'if u wan , maybe u can go on the 15th when my holiday starts . i'll just cover u for a few days .'

and yup , tmr's the 15th .


sometimes , things like this are just coincident.

when i heard she's willing to accept treatment .

i was thinking , perhaps i could still see her the very last time at CNY next month ?.


and ya .

when the news of her death arrived ,

i was thinking , i must go see her the very last time .

no matter how ugly she is , i just wanna look at her the last time .

but yea , since they said probably her face would be covered .

i see no point in going back too anyway .

sometimes , life is so unpredictable ,

for once when we all thought some 'bastard' finally died ,

the next thing we know , he's bringing my aunt along 7feet down under just weeks later .


maybe this was all planned for her .



when i used to thought the world is fine , with all sorts of normal people around,

but now , seeing what's around me ,

perhaps the world isn't right anymore.



the unexpected ; sad and pitiful