1:07am 1stMay

alright , its May alr -.-

4months past 2oo9 .

fast ehs ?. lol


alright , i left my laptop charger at the chalet -.-

thus i'm using my bro's com to post .

i seriously wonder how he use the keyboard , when almost all the keys lost their marking .


alright , for an instance , i felt like sharing with everyone an uber emo blog i just visited ,

but since its nothing pleasant , i shall not describe it .

and that proves business ppl , are wierdos .

at least for a small handful amount that i know ? .

alright , perhaps its time to end (:

this set of keyboard is a torture .




the ultimate.

2:28am 30thApril

alright , a very wrong time to blog cos i'm either supposed to be sleeping

or probably waiting for Manu and Arsenal's clash -.-


but i seriously feel like sleeping nw , just that those behind me are disturbing my sleep , very badly .


alright , maybe i shud wait for the match then . lols .




what is this?

2:07am 29thApr

alright , received a sms from singtel today .

it means another round of hunting .


and so , had a pretty long and tired day i guess ?.

10-6 . and so i fell asleep at ard 8plus ?.

and woke up 12am on the dot , zz .

probably i'd have the energy to watch the first half of Barcelona and Chelsea's clash .

or maybe the entire match ?.


alright , tmr's another long day .

and probably a bbq after that -.-

maybe i shouldn't think far ahead sometimes , it somehow kills me deep 'inside' .




why is it like this ?.

12:02am 28thApril

alright , looks like i had a long day today .

finally bought a pair of cheap school shoe -.-

so that i can attend those bloody labs that requires me to wear shoe everyday , for fear that the computor CRT monitor drops on my feet , or i'll get electricuted by some dangling wires -.-

fuck sia , need to wear school shoes cos its the cheapest of all -.-

nvm , i shall forgive that idiot who came up with shoes in lab .

i'll just hope that , i won't find myself looking strange in it .


alright , spent all of my money away today on books and some other activities , lol .


tmr will be another long day , persevere then .




i feel the shine , but not for long .

1:43am 27thApril

ohwell .

borrowed 3comics from the NLB today , and i hope it'll entertain me abit (:


alright , almost hit $40 when arsenal stopped at 2-0 .

if i wished it was 3-0 -.-

nvm, this is all luck .


and i guess tmr till friday will be very bad .

i've got no shoes yet .

and i hope my mother leaves the $20 on the table for me to buy notes tmr .



alright , time for a break .




the chance , the luck .

1:20am 26thApril

god damnit .

i wonder wads wrong with my luck today ,

i bet liverpool 3-0 , it came out 3-1 .

i bet man utd 2-0 , first half the result 0-2 .

i shud start tearing away those losing tickets now -.-


fuck sia , why cannot even let me win one , lols .

i'm heavily in debt due to the fucking hp bills which amount up to $250 .

i need to buy those fucking books and notes for Jap and all those crap which sum up to an estimated value of near $50 .

and i still owe my colleague $100 -.-

if i'm adding up the $70 insurance , the amount seems abit incredible for a poly student -.-


and when ppl mention , 'your pay haven't out meh?' .

i get that 500% sian-sation , seriously .

aiyo forget it la , i can't even afford a fucking shoe for those labs now .

and when i start to think abt it , it all boils down to one thing .

and i shall leave a clue to what it is as the ending note .

oja .




a stick kills someone in the long run , but somehow it kills me now .

1:49am 25thApril

alright , so soon , its the end of april again -.-


alright , chionged from 12-12 tonight , thus i'm fucking tired now -.-

thinking of those money for next week , its another hell of a torture rack .

its time i smoke lesser and pray next month's pay , will help tide over some crisis .


maybe i should try something that was mentioned to me last night , lols .




i owe someone too much .

1:37am 24thApr

alright , first thing first ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIHAO !

i know u'll see this (: enjoy !


alright , didn't post last night cos i had a lil' too much at the pub last night .

to the extent i took over merlion's job for a few minutes in the toilet .

just that wad came out of me were coke and not NEWater -.-

but lucky , i wasn't drunk and made it home alone , in a piece .


and so , had school today and slacked around with the others till around 11odd .

stock-ed up agn and i hope i won't visit geylang soon again .

i'm desperately trying my best to cut down , and i hopewill succeed .

alright , gotta wait for the downloads to be ready and prepare for 12hours of work tmr (:




wondering ,

12:23am 22ndApril

alright , had an average day .

woke up late at 9.30 when the lesson starts at 10 .

and when i finally reached that place , i was told that the tutor won't be around for the first week -.-

how nice -.-


visited Tampines1 today since the next lesson would be at 3 ?.

quite a nice place for shopping i guess .

hahas .


time to go sleep i guess ?.




the need to adapt.

12:28am 21stApril

alright , first of day school today .

was an average day i guess ?.

but compared to work , the time goes really slow .

i think i'm used to the life when i wake up at 11odd and start working till the moon appears in the mid sky .


and so , went pasir ris soon after lesson ended .

ate my late lunch ?.

and i'm starting to feel tired since i only had around 2hours of sleep only last night -.-


and i guess , soon my body would own me .




stay in control and don't lose it .

12:59am 20thApr

alright , i need to wake up in like 7hours time ?.

and i doubt i can actually sleep soon -.-


panda eyes on the first day of school i guess ?.

or maybe the first week , zz .


shit , i haven't note down my timetable , and now it seems to take forever for me to log in and check it .

TP web just suck , to the core .



and yup , wasted a day at home before heading out to cine .

met a friend for dinner and went home soon after that -.-

and thats how i spend my last weekend before holiday starts , zz


alright , its time i sit back and wait for the bloody TP thing to work .




formed the resolve .

1:43am 19thApr

alright , wasted 1/2 of my day away by just travelling and doing stuffs that are meant to be completed -.-

went bball at yishun area and finally worked my body out after facing those pretty strong peeps .

looks like i shud make an effort to go there every week , if possible , lols .


maybe i'm tired today ,

but the more i think about it ,

the more i feel like making some changes to my life , again .


i'm kinda tired alr , mentally .

its difficult to choose between , wad to remove out and wad to fill back in .

can certain things , just appear when u need them ?

and just get off ur mind as long as its not time for them ?

can everything not share a certain level of importance , and all balanced ?





i wanna runaway !

2:26am 18thApr

alright , ran out of ciggarettes agn today -.-

and i feel soooooooo tired today , for some reason which i dunno why also .


and so , 12-12 for today .

i've reached the finish line for this holidays .

and life after today will be different , again

hopefully i can get used to it though .

afterall , i led a totally different lifestyle for like , 2months ?.



first week will be tough i guess ?.

from sleeping times to bad habits i adopted during this holidays like , smoking when i just woke up ? -.-

ohwell , it all takes time ,

and guess wad , i cleanly forgotten abt my timetable , except the fact that i gt no school on friday -.- zz




Next chapter please (:

2:54am 17thApril

alright , had some proper rest today ,

and the last sprint tmr , 12-12 (:


alright , caught 17again today with someone .

at least it didn't make me yawn until i step out of the movie theatre -.-


played pool after that , and went home soon after .

soon school will start and i forgotten my timetable though i just saw it this morning .

alright then , time to hit the bed (:



no point crying over spilled milk .

3:03am 16thApril

alright , just finished a round of uber fun dota .



worked from 2-11 today since i overslept till 1plus -.-


tmr's another good off day for me to meet someone (:

and yea , time to rest i guess ?. lols






a good breaktime .

1:33am 14thApril

alright , so soon and its the 1/2 of April already , zz .

worked from 5-11 for today (:

not that bad , but i doubt the other days would be that ok -


alright , maybe its time to go sleep soon ,

12-11 for tmr -.- hell of a day .

till then .



the totally wrong perception of me .

1:11am 13thApril

ohwell ,

had a great day out with someone ,

watched handsome suit , and its quite funny .


ohwell ,

missed a few opportunities to get fast cash , zz

and this month's insurance will be another round of headache .

and mysteriously , after paying $80 on my phone bills today ,

i left with only $50 , when i still got $300 in it 2days ago , wierd .


nvm then , shall leave house earlier tmr to check my bank balance , damnit .

alright , time to knock myself out .



it's almost time .

2:14am 12thApr

alright , had a good rest today ,

but somehow it waesn't enuf -.-


the rain dampened my mood to go out today .

thus only went far east awhile to change the t-shirt someone bought for me , hahas .

thanks my dear someone !


alright ,

visited geylang soon after that to stock up for next week (:


alright , tmr's another day with someone .

and 1 last week before all the hectic schedules start agn -.-

which also means 1 last week to chiong so that i can clear up all sorts of debts .



nothing .

3:00am 11thApr

alright , chiong-ed 12-11 today .

tired , but gonna receive a well-deserved rest tmr (:

woots !


alright , time to spend time with someone tmr .

and maybe its time i go enjoy my coming weekends (:



what isit again?

1:46am 10thApr

and now , 1/2 of april already passed -.- , zz



alright , worked from 4-11 today .

and also the 3rd consecutive day working in the dining area -.-

nvm then , i guessed i'm used to mopping the floors and all this , lol .


alright , time to head for the bed ,

and the last round for this week , 12-11 .

ohwell ..



the feeling of losing something .

2:08am 9thApr

kinda tired now , bt i feel like watching Liverpool VS Chelsea , hahahas . =x

alright , gonna miss a friend's birthday buffet tmr since i'm working like 4-11 , and no one can like take over me -.-


worked from 12-11 again .

and at least , it's slightly better .

nvm then , in the very end , this is what u get when u need to work for the sake of money .

speaking of money , i guess its time i pay those darn hp bills -.-

and soon , the $2ooplus in my account will go back to the original state , some digits near to $0.00 -.-


nvm then , nw i just hope ,

i can hold my temper , not just at work , but all the time .




ohwell , its time i do something .

1:38am 8thApr

my work place is slowly pissing me off day by day .

and today , i lost my bloody temper agn =x .


i'm glad its only 2weeks more before school starts .

den i won't be working as much compared to nw ,



ohwell , i really hate it when my temper goes out of control .

cos it makes me do things which i hate the most usually ,

making one unable to think properly -.-


nvm then , once i had a good meal and a good bath , everything's fine agn , lols .


alright , another day to slog tmr , 12-11 agn .

i wonder what are those shift leaders thinking when they put those super dumb schedules up there daily -.-

alright , let's just hope , i'll be able to work happily more often .



actually , i guess it ain't that hard to reach my boiling point =x

1:21am 7thApr

alright .

another day of work , 5-11 for today .


sians , nothing much to blog abt also -.-

nothing much actually interests me nowadays .

so yea , shall continue this life until school reopens then .

probably 2weeks more ?. zz


alright , time to head out to the bed once my download finish like in 1hour time ?. zz




too tired and moody for anything .

2:48am 6thApr

alright . just came back nt long from those usual night meetings -.-


had a great day bballing i guess ?.

though it ain't that fun actually -.- zz



found out my packed schedule next week .

shud i be happy or disappointed ?.

i'm working like everyday from mon to fri , lols .

happy cos my pay would probably make ends meet next month ?.

sad cos i doubt i can soend enuf time with someone , hahas .


well , we shall see then -.-



can i let it go?

1:07am 5thApr

ohwell .

spent the whole day sleeping at home with someone .

until my mum and someone decides to use words and flood me .


alright , went town to chill awhile before going geylang .

was fucking happy cos i found sampoerna in geylang , like finally ?

so , bought 2 packs at a go and the next time for me to visit geylang could well be later next week (:

let's just hope i can finish my stuffs by tmr lo .

bt i doubt i can -.- zz


nothing much i can say then .

let's just hope everyone out there's fine (:



maybe or cannot be ?

1:54am 4thApril

12-12 is pure torture rack .

and not forgetting its ela's birthday today .

happy birthday ela !
hope u see this (:


alright , in short i'm just damn tired ,

mentally and physically .

lets just hope the weekends will go fine .

and everything runs smoothly .



is this a gamble or wad ?

12:51am 3rdApr

ohwell , spent a day with someone today .

caught the Shinjuku Incident ?. if i'm not wrong .

its uber nice man , lols .

this one sure won't waste money , lols .


sians sia , tmr 12-12 work .

u see the sun and the next thing u prolly see will be the moon -.-

nvm then , for the sake of money , zz .


tonight i'm trying to change my life abit .

hopefully my sleepless nights would end soon .




the undesired outcome .

1:58am 2ndApr

ohwell ,

had been sleepless nights for the past 1 week ?.

and probably some would know the reason why .


anyway , just chatted for quite awhile with the dajiejie again .

somehow , that conversation managed to help abit , for now ?. lols

dunno wad else more to write also la ,

i'm full of things up there but my fingers seemed to be tied up .



when ur greedy , everything comes to nothing .