12:50am 1stDec

out of nowhere , comes December -.-


and so , studying session wasn't that efficeint today , compared to SAT .

and i don't really understand Dfund anyway -.-


ohwell , 1 last weekend left then .



the day kinda sucked partly due to the lousy weather .

and maybe i was too tired -.-


i think , soon i'll not waste any more money on pub and all this .

at least for this week .

i dun feel right using money not of my own .

its time i remind myself things like this agn .


maybe its time i go (:


no.1 in the Hate-list !

12:18am 30thNov

lols , what a weekend spent -.- not very wisely . lols

k la , maybe it is , since term test will be less than 2weeks away .


ok , so a new place for studying will be Kallang (:

at least its convenient for me , except for the weather and some walking distance .


probably going back there to wrap up Dfund .

and maybe i shud consider maths also , maybe .



and so , financial crisis heading my way agn .

maybe , i'll start to restrict myself from having more than $15 in my wallet .


a result from last night ,

$2o plus in my wallet , 3hours later , $0


ok, no comments laa . lols


with the list of things i feel like buying , i need to save up , and probably start working -.-


DB deodorant , $11

BreatheRight , $9

a new handset , $200 atleast




for now at least -.-


and so , i'm gonna pity someone that needs to go thru the 18stagesOFhell since ytd and probably until next week , lols .




yawns * , maybe its time to go .



maybe i'm not suited for .

2:26am 29thNov

lols , just reached home not long ago .


ohwell , study time for tmr then (:

and probably that'll make my weekend . lol


and yup , had some exercise finally . lols


bball-ed in the afternoon , and went pub ,meanwhile pangseh-ed someone again, lol



lols , somehow i hurt someone's feelings on friday morning .

I'm sorry C.A.K ,

i dun mean it alright . ):


ohwell ,

i shud learn more about appreciation . lols


perhaps turning gay is one of those favourable choice of those being single for too long . random


somehow i just hate how things are going on now around me .

i've got nothing to say alr . zz


its not worth it , thats dumb .

12:34am 28thNov

and finally , its the end of the month , and the 2nd time i repost this -.-


ohwell , a short day i had i guess .


tmr will be fun , i hope .

i just hope it doesn't rains .


and yup , just returned home not long ago with those usual peeps .


miraculously , i passed maths . lol


after tmr , maybe its time to study .

time-table for termtests are out alr !

9th,10th and 11th .


2weeks break for me to maybe work ?.

or just slack around . lol

and soon i'll need to change a new phone ,

and hopefully i can bring someone along with me to the fireworks , but seriously not CAK . lols

nah , i dun mind going with friends .

its too late i guess .


time to go (:



thelaststand , your decision .

1:22am 27thNov

despite telling myself not to even give a damn about things around me , i can't seem to do so .

for once , i think the things happenning around me is getting ridiculous .

sometimes , maybe we shud really take a look at the price we paid for things we get back ,

is it worth that value ? , seriously .


ohwell , was enjoying myself at the pub agn . lols


and so , having this kind of life , i'm prepared to fail my term test .

lols ,


so , maybe i shud lead a not-so-happy life .


probably , given the rate of retarded-ness , i'd be affected as well soon .



ohwell , my surrounding sucks .

i'm full of complaints everyday , and i never get sick of complaining the same thing .

maybe its like the topic : Marketing .

that topic's big , to the extent there's actually a diploma for Marketing .

i'm trying to say , the reason why i dun get sick of complaining is , because the problem is always big and changes all the time , despite the problems falling under the same category .

morons !.


time to sleep (:


i hope my patience will grow ,

12:02am 26thNov

argh fuck ,

blogger sucks , and now i need to retype everything !


ohwell , in short .

i'm disappointed , or rather i regretted my decision

from what i'm seeing now and then


but nvm ,

its time for me to be more concerned about myself than someone else which i can't seem to bother at all usually .


yup , probably 2 more weekends before term test .

time to chiong , zz

probably too late la .


tmr sure kana fcuk by that maths tutor liao . lols

oh fuck , lucky blogger gt this autosave thing .

my internet just crashed agn -.- fuck

wads wrong with the connection man !


zzz , my internet just crashed AGAIN !


just let me finish this alright -.-



My Priority ; the FCMI(s)

12:06am 25thNov

sians laa ! .

of all times , one friend of mine came to sms abt see-ing my ex around . lols


maybe its a message telling me : serve you right for ditching someone who once appreciated ur existence , muahahahaha ! .


ok, thats dumb .


but yea , its 100% that someone won't go watch fireworks with me , for 2years in a row . ohwell


how i wish it'll be slightly different for this year , zz


omg , i just received a email good enuf for me to smile ((: .

finally , woots !


and yea , somehow it killed my idea of not being able to watch the fireworks with someone . ((:




and after tmr (: , i'll be even happier ,

cos it'll be the end of my CDS for the week ((:


alright then , perhaps its time for me to do a lil bit of stuffs before i sleep agn . lols


cyas peeps !



dumb and bitchy , yet so happy .

12:14am 24thNov

so fast , its nearing the end of Nov alr .


which means ,

its time to study ,

its time i start to plan wad to do for my 2weeks break ,




sian la , i'm uber sian nw , cos i rmb-ed that , i wanted someone to go watch fireworks with me this year .

and , its just 1month away TT .


somehow , leonard managed to break me some news which give me a (: for today .

thanks bro (:


and yup , i guess i'll need to wait until next year , or maybe years later before i can go watch fireworks with someone again. zz

sian1/2 lor .


ohwell , was sian to the extent , i installed gunbound in my laptop . lol



tmr's monday agn -.- and the day after it will suck , zz


nothing much to add on ,

for now i just wish that , someone will go fireworks with me this year .

someone which i had in mind of cos , lol



how i wish , those unwanted memories .

12:39am 23thNov

i'm feeling super duper sian since ytd night and for sure , nothing seems to help . lols


wasn't at home last night , missed last bus agn -.-

visited jazz pub agn . lols

with the usuals and doing the usual stuffs .

somehow i realised , my recent flu problem ain't caused by flu , but actually something else . lol



ohhwell , feeling kinda ~ now .

i dunno how to describe that feeling , but somehow , it sucks .

perhaps only one or two knew wads the cause of it , zz


sian la , now i've got the feeling like i just _e_lo_t_f_o_e .

ohwell , just when i feel like getting a change in my life , nvm then .


sians la , things like this just affects my mood ,

luckily someone else entertaining that DJJ . lol



sians . i've got no comments for my feelings nw . lols

and i dunno what else more to say .



and yea , reminds me of some idiots around me .

i wonder why , that person gotta be like ,

just when i'm trying my best to change my opinion of that bunch of idiots

another living soul watching tells me about the negative things agn , when i'm trying my best to close one eye .


and of cos , everything goes back to zero .

with those disappointing things i see around , ohwell .

soon , i'll just leave my hands off all this things that doesn't concern me and probably make myself someone happier ,

at least happier than i am nw , with the current bunch of e-diots .


i'm envious ; that helplessness

11:47pm 20thNov

seems that , thurs seems fine to me , for this week .


and yup , maths screwed .


after this week's training , its study time !


sian lo, my running nose ain't recovering .

and it was a torture during some lessons , when the room is uber cold -.- brainfreeze in short . lol



and yup , finally i'm feeling better for that long awaited feeling . lols

but i doubt it'll even work out , i'll see how things goes .


misunderstandings occurred on me for the day , but i managed to see through everything in awhile's time , and so , it made me know more about a person . lols


and so , was studying halfway , when i started doing my part-time online job again . lols
it was a great break , and probably i can study also meanwhile . lol


hopefully i've been a great help la Wandi ,

and maybe that DJJ also . lols



i hope , everything will be within my imagination

11:34pm 19thNov

i'm KO'd .


maybe too much FightNights and a hectic flu-ish week .


and yup , my flu hasn't recover , and i dunno how am i gonna do maths quiz tmr .


sians lor .

i can't even do maths properly now . lols



and so , the day was kinda short one , and a troublesome one ,

i got my atm card back , finally -.-


and so , tmr will be another troublesome day .

with all the dumb labs and so .


thats all for this boring post i guess ?. lol


ohya , not yet . lols


somehow , my feelings and thoughts for a particular matter changed again .

perhaps , it wasn't as complicated ?, but rather a simple thing that not many possesses .



my hopes were high , and its too late now .

8:55pm 18thNov

the flu virus seem to like me alot ,

and somehow it decided to walk back into me again .


yup , for once i thot i can concentrate on those quizzes from tonight onwards .


i'm screwed i guess ?. LOL


at least , the horrible monday and tuesday ended .



and so , today's kinda fine i guess .


except for the part we're marked late for that PSPS tutorial , shitty crap .



its time i buck up , and not let my things be affected .


thus i'll need a fine rest (: LOL


maybe after doing all my stuffs la . zz



how i wish , everything will be successful .

12:11am 18Nov

and so , another dreadful start to the week .


realised that , i've waste my weekends away .

its time to start studying for those uber-complicated things like Dfund and Air-con .


and i guess , its time to stop going saturday trainings .


at least for today , the usual monday blues were much suppressed ,

(:

at least ,i've updated my bankbook and put in the $20 which was part of operation S&S .


and i just rmb , i'm supposed to go shopping ytd ,

but lucky enuf , i'm borrowing a bag from zhihao to stand in awhile .

and probably a relieve to those heavy and inconvenient things i have with me all the time .


and also , its time i change to a proper sneaker also , so as to solve those sweatyfeet problems and all this .


well , i'll need to have a successful Operation S&S before i can get all this .


so ya , maybe christmas then . lol



if its meant to happen , it will

1:31am 17thNov

lols , just back from prata with another friend .


a good relaxation for me , after coming back from orchard and realise tmr's another dreadful start .



and yup , went around orchard today , with those usual clique .

somehow it made me rofl , whenever i'm with them . lols


perhaps this weekend ain't well-spent , missed training and wasted some money . zz


alright then , maybe i shud go collect my atm card early morning tmr . zz

sians lor , seeing situations around nw ,

it just disappoints me more and more .



forget it then , if its meant to be this way .



and someone will be taken over soon . lols

missed the tokcok session with that 'someone' agn , sians ~

no fate ,

1:05am 16thNov

and so , wasted another saturday .


missed the training also due to some very dumb reasons -.-

but ohwell , friday night was well-spent at the pub .

at least i didn't waste much of my time there .


and yup , stayed over at zhihao's place .

as i had no intention of going home alr . hahahas


sians la . sometimes when i think of how dumb a person can get .

i just feel like shaking my head ,

probably thats why my neck ain't feeling comfortable since last week


and i rmb saying 'this' last year too before my 'O's .

stupidity is overwhelming me !


and yup , grabbed a great opportunity today .

its up to me now if i cherish it or not .


alright , gtg i guess . lol



i'm aimless now

11:37pm 13thNov

and so , CCN day tmr .lols


hopefully we'll all see profit , hopefully . lols


kacang-puteh might be a good idea , but might not be a selling one .


and so , today kinda sucked , since the start of school ,

probably the worst thing that happened to me , was when i completed my CADS ,

somehow , i just went off awhile and that darn com went haywire ,

and just 1 click of un-do , i bid farewell to my 1hour plus effort ,


shud have expected it coming huh . lol

too bad then -



and so , another night not crapping with someone again , sians la .


hopefully , tmr will be a better day , and probably a luckier one for wandi (:



somehow , it affects me ,

but i'll still try my best to change my opinion .

1:49am 13thNov

and so , another day passed -.-


alright , a very slack-y wednesday for me at least (:


and so , decided to visit the pub with the rest of them ,

i guess , its time i find something to do at the pub . lol

if not , bad habits will start coming out again .


some new thoughts entered my head though , and i'm seriously thinking through .


perhaps , or probably , wad i had done is something wrong ,

sometimes , i just need to be more responsible .

and i'm becoming damn selfish by selling my personal thoughts or opinions to others .



thanks to the few that wakes me up about my own idea ,


and from now on , i should be more responsible in things i do or say .

and not think that , whatever i say or do , will not affect the others as its my own problem , not yours .





sians lor , failed to msn with someone agn la -.-


i hope its not too late , for me to set some examples .

10:57pm 11thNov

and so , finally the dreadful day ended , with the expected lousy endings of cos -.-


sians lor , lectures were as un-understandable as ever .

just visited that HeyGorgeous! website and laughed at some bhb ppl with that dajiejie . lols


saw 1 guy from my course one la . damn funny , 0votes . LOL


perhaps we shud stop laughing at ppl , but the 'chiobus' section kinda disappointing lahs , zz .

no comments for HeyGorgeous! anymore . lol


and yup , nothing much more to add alr i guess ?

hopefully , i'll get my contact lens tmr under my budget (: hopefully


and so , Operation S&S was a failure for today . zz

wasted much of my money on KFC meal . zz

time to go i guess (:

hoping that tmr will be a better day ,



rest well la you !

12:46am 11thNov

a special day i guess ? 11/11 . hahas


and yup , the day i dread the most to come for this week as well .


CDS tutorial will be killer for tmr i guess .

finding teammates in a class filled with the utmost impossible teammates , probably only that chiobu dajie reading this will understand -.-



and so , the day somehow sucked since the start ,

and luckily it lasted for like 1/3 of the day , i guess ?


soon after , the day became slightly better .


and that dajiejie , sick until cannot come online sia -.-

which probably forced me to watch the last episode of HotShot . lol

a dumb ending i guess -.-


but in short , not crapping with her just doesn't make my day .

but i rmb not crapping with her for like 4days in a row ? =x lol

hope she gets well soon yea !



probably its time i end this post ,

and not forgetting , the first day of Operation S&S was a huge success . (:

good start , but will it last ?. lol



i'll try my best to forgive everything ; everything u had done to my friend .

10:50pm 9thNov

and so , rotted another day away at home .

a good day for me to rest this restless soul of mine .

and a good day to cover up things that needs to be done by the week .




probably nothing much to elaborate abt how i spent my day at home right ?. lol

probably the only thing left undone is ,

finish downloading my animes and collecting my atm card .


operation scrimp and save will commence from tmr .

hopefully it'll be a success -.- at least enuf to cover up my $70/mth .


not forgetting that i'll be expecting a n81 by christmas -.-



or probably something around there ?


time to end this and start doing my things again i guess ?. hahas

its monday again , zz


perhaps , ?

2:34am 9thNov

lols , didn't blogged for days .


and so yea , the past few days had been some hateful one .


mainly due to some particular reasons that lies with a particular person la .

and nw , i'm trying to think why didn't i blog on thurs , but somehow i can't rmb , so forget it then -.-


went to some dumb bazaar that seriously turns me off .

perhaps , i can't have a girlfriends that goes shopping all the time , and very particular abt brands . zz




somehow , i managed to know more about others and maybe a lil more about myself thru certain incidents that involves 3 and affect over 10 .

some should get it .


its pretty dumb la , it actually lets me finish around 20 __g_ in 2 different days .


so , finally a physical workout for me today at training .

the attendance sucked , but well , i'm being tortured .

and i still believe , whatever that dun kills me , will only make me stronger (:



out of random-ness , i would like to give myself some space to start my little criticism about this new things i face in life .

especially since November comes


why must , everyone , or maybe some , put on a false front .

acting like as if its nothing , but tries to keep their cool and still ask .

why do stuffs , thats against people's will ?

why must , everything be so fake .?

i'd rather , every ugly things be shown to me , than seeing those ugly things with my own eyes , and seeing them at places i dun expect things like that to exist .

'what purpose or motive are u having in ur mind ?' , 'what are you going to do next ?'


these are probably what everyone's thinking .

at least for my case , its true .


and now i wonder , if there's such a need for things like this .

time changes things , and things changes over time .

its 2 different things .

i just hope , i'll not be forced to classify the things that i see now , as backstabbing .






and i miss you la ! . i'll talk to you asap k ?. hahas (:



uber-random

7:51pm 6thNov

everyone's down ,

soon it'll be me . lol


a big flu heading towards me now . lol


i guess , probably there goes the weekend .




school sucked as usual .

i think my perception since last night had changed again .


i'm not gonna say it here anyway , so

it's time i go off i guess (:


all this is so behind-the-scenes ,

1:43am 6thNov

ohwell ,

some brand new dramtic day i guess ?

no comments on the drama , and i just hope everything becomes normal again .


it hurts to see scenarios like that , seriously .

i know all of ur are reading this ,

i only wish to say ,

do whatever that pleases you , so long as you don't regret it .

yup , this applies to everyone , directly or indirectly



probably , i've just contradicted myself again .

i've regretted saying sorry for things i've done .


probably , if i didn't apologise , things would have been different , at the cost of me being the villian .


nothing much more for today .

hopefully everyone gets wad i'm driving to , hopefully .



fucking un-intelligent ; if only something gets it -

10:10pm 4thNov

and so , another horrible day passed -.-



was late again , but since it was the un-understandable lecture , i dun mind giving it a miss .


and yup , my hp's alarm clock failed me again -.-

probably , its time i find money to do my stuffs .


somehow i find money hard to save . lols

but i've come up with a new plan alr .

i shall call it :Plan Scrimp & Save . lol


reminds me of MOE .

seriously , i'll fail the subject horribly i guess -.- with those *normal* classmates of mine -.-

i doubt i'll be even willing to meet them up for group work or discussion -.- seriously .



somehow , i will need to choose my CDS properly the next semester .

zzz . i hate this to the core .



opinion changed , despite the lousy one i already had .

1:17am 4thNov

omg , i can finally blog after doing some last min slides

which really wasted my time as pauline covered them all when i was just ending one part , and she finished all alr -.-

damn zai lor -.-


and so , the day sucks .

lol . woke up late agn -.- and eventually missed that DFund lecture when i was only 15mins late , and the whole lecture hall was filled .

and i seriously had no intentions of sitting in front Arul .


and so , faced those horrible labs and tutorials .

soon its CADS again ! .

and somehow i'm sick of getting all those help alr .

i shall leave out my psp soon . seriously .


and yup , MOE lecture's boring but interesting .


tmr will yet be another long day , and thats all for my Life! .

Thanks for tuning in to Neon-Inc.BS.com ! Good Night ! (:


ok , a rather lame ending , nvm .

and so , dramatic things seem to happen around me all the time .

years ago it used to be me , and now its some other cases -.-


hopefully , no one and nobody will get affected .

and thats the very last thing i can wish for .


when things start to turn politics , u'll see all the true colours .


lols , missed my tokcok session with that DJJ laa -.- super sian


the monday blues.

10:42pm 2ndNov

and yup , rotted at home again due to the bad weather . lol


and yea , super bored la at home ,

feeling kinda sick also . zz


and yup , weekend coming to an end again -.-

just finished DFund tutorial just now .

and my conclusion is : arul will not help .


logic gates are just so chim , its beyond my current knowledge , lols


and yup , probably sem1.2 will be a killer ,

for me i guess ?. hahahas


even though Air-con and Hydraulics are all open book exams , understanding how the graph works alone is a headache -.-


and not talking abt CADS -.-


ohwell , i shall not remind myself of schoolwork anymore . lol


my aim now is to , save up .


seriously , i understand now why people wish for more days in a week .



and only until now , i've realised i'm insulting myself all along by telling others i had 2gf before .

from now on , it'll always be 1 .

an horrible insult to me , seriously .



what is this coming to?

3:09am 2ndNov

lols .

its Nov already !

and yup , 2ndNov is my younger bro's big day (:

Happy Birthday ! if u happen to chance upon this

and so , yaa

skipped training today .

seriously down with fatigue and i slept till late evening -.-


had quite some fun on Halloween's Eve in the pub .
had some great talks too

perhaps i shud visit there more often ? hahas




and so , took wandi's new bike to school .

with my precious laptop on my lap . lol

nice jerking experience i had . seriously .


but 1 bad thing probably will be that i can't afford to fall asleep on his bike -.-


and so , friday somehow sucked .




tmr's group meeting cancelled as well .

so probably i'll just stay at home and rot again cos i'm seriously broke nw

sians ,



and now , i'm still making some decisions though .

decisions that will make me give up my relaxing times and in exchange for horrible or boring times .

and the root of all problems , my dumb time-table .

ok , i shouldn't be complaining by now ./i can only adapt


worse comes to worse , i'll just sqeeze time , which i see it being possible .


sometimes , it just can't be shared no matter what.