5:06am 1stJan

1st post of year2010.


at the last day of 2009, i was kinda pissed with everything actually .

assuming my guesses are right, how could i be treated this way?.

ohwell, at the end of the day, the world isn't fair to begin with.

but i don't deserve this so fuck it .


alright, my day probably felt better at night when i get to chill out at Esplanade,

watching the fireworks like as if all the good and bad things for year 2010 is cruising towards me , hahahas .



for once, i'm carrying high hopes on 2010,

cause i really need them badly.


maybe i should include a 2010resolutions beside?. hahas .


this is so F***

1:40am 28thDec

alright,

got an easy job during the weekends out of nowhere.

at least it will keep me occupied for 1 week, lols .


and luck hasn't been shinig on my side yet so far.

damned .


guess what, school starts tmr, ohwell .



cause-&-effect

3:50am 21stDec

and now i'm pretty sure my bike license plan by 2010 is crashing down the drain, ohwells -.-



bloody waste of time at the Electronics fair even though i made alot of new friends

another new experience i guess , lol .



all i want for christmas is money, lols

1:42am 17thDec

alright, for once i thought i will have a good day spent alone .


well, people just have to spoil them for me .

i guess both of us had enough.


a full-stop starts with a dot.

3:41am 15thDec

alright, here comes the holidays .

and the only last chance for me to earn the money for my bike license , lols .


had a nice day, thankyou.



and there we go again.

2:01am 10thDec

and no doubt,

the days still suck .



what am i doing?

3:30am 2ndDec

alright,

skipped school today again,



days are starting to suck nowadays .

and i dunno why, lols .



un-descripable

3:35am 1stDec

ohwell, its the last month of the year (:

again -.-


there's nothing much i wanna say about in recent,

everything's still the same,

just that the word 'motherfucker' pops out of my mind more often thanks to the people i meet (:



i wanna show u a, double-digit.

3:57am 29thNov

alright, been a week since i last blogged .


had a terrible week but at least i didn't miss any class .

shall continue my good work next week , lols .

had a good day at Sentosa too.

hope i can play more beach soccer, hahahas .



the runs

2:28am 23rdNov

alright, i guess i was wrong when everything seems to have settled down.



and there's 0 motivation to anything now, lols .


The Grave

1.12pm, 21stnov

hihi neo.hahahas.
i'm so clever.(:


- gagas

3:12am 20thNov

alright,

a week is going to pass , so fast , lols .


and my wart is starting to get frozen with the dumb S-acid.



alright, looks like for now, most of the problems are settled .

and the only thing left is to settle everything .




what a joke .

1:52am 16thNov

alright, supposed to be working today.

ended up in hospital wasting a day away,

ohwells .



i have an imaginary 'piss me not' tag, understand people ?

2:59am 14thNov

days are getting more and more fucked up.


i need money to get the fucking pain-in-the-ass blister evolved wart and idiots that can return me my fucking money dun wanna do that,

and now my younger sis is in the fucking hospital and suspected to be TB,

if thats the case all of us would be under quarantine for 14days, and YAY! to the fucked up attendance of mine alr.


just when i thought there would be a good end to 2009,

it looks like the misery just started,


but i will sail it over like the dumb boat on top of this post.

thats why the boat's there since the start of this blog ,



ok, done ranting .


this is life.

12:29am 11thNov

ohwell,

went to see a doctor just nw .


a dumb blister evolved to a stupid wart -.-

and now i need to spend like $60 or removing it , damn .



the wrong time.

2:45am 10thNov

ohwell,

been long since i last blogged , hahas .


sians , and now i'm falling sick, lols.

tmr will be a good day i guess,?

and for once, i miss my mum cos i'm running out of clothes to wear, damn



i can't live alone, lols

1:17am 3rdNov

ohwell, here comes the 2nd last month of 2oo9 .


the day was nice ah,

watching movies, eating ice cream and some shopping .


but on the other hand, the day sucked big time because i'm in deep shit now ,

god damnit.


and probably this fucking accident will probably allow me to find another job, lols .



god-damn-it,

2:58am 2ndNov

alright, today's my younger brother's birthday, hahas


and i dun care -.-

alright, its monday again,

another hell of a week i guess, hahas .


hell .

1:31am 29thOct

school is a torture, indeed .


an indescribeable feeling is making me dread going to school ,

yawns .



i'm speeding at 5xxxx km/h towards the hell door .

2:10am 27thOct

ohwell,

money is the root of all evil.

money makes the world go round and sometimes ,

i think i need a 'I'm pissed' tag , lols


fcuk

1:19am 26thOct

i shall quit gambling soccer from now onwards due to the losing streaks this few weeks ,

i wonder should i start laughing or crying now , lols .


nvm, i shall just put on a few interesting matches -.-

and i realised something today ..


when a miracle happens at the wrong time, it spells d-i-s-a-s-t-e-r , zz

2:16am 22thOct

and with just a blink of an eye -.-

its approaching the end of month, again .


things are getting boring though its only the first week of school .

and money will only bring more problems, when u think money can help solve problems , lol .


had my contact lens ytd, though its kinda torturing, but i'm fine with it , lols .

at least i can jay-walk easier now ?.

and my next target will be my bike license alright .


maybe iPhone soon?. lols .


this is a new start .

1:41am 20thOct

alright, first day of school today.


nothing much to say due to the pressure that i suffer from.



i don't wanna blame you all the time, but you caused all the troubles yourself, and when its ur problem, it becomes mine as well, and probably thats what i call unneccessary stress .

2:50am 19thOct

ohwell, school starts in hours time , lols .


haven't even bought my fucking concession =.=

nothing much to blog abt i guess nowadays, lols .


its so obvious..

3:41am 17thOct

ohwell .

had a nice day for me to rest but it wasn't spent on resting -.-


i wonder wads wrong with my knee that it hurts like rheumatism acting , zz

and i seriously hope the time-table got some errors in it, lols .



everything will be new ,

2:45am 15thOct

a problem will lead to headaches .

many problems will lead to stress .

many stupid problems will lead to unneccessary stress .


please people, gimme a break ? can ?.

for now , i feel like reading a set of books named 'Series of Unfortunate Events' or something like this, lols .





relaxation - truckload of stress = mini-bus-load of stress , zz

2:29am 14thOct

ohwell, another day passed.


and prolly 5 more days before school reopens, TT

posts will only go shorter when u think of the things that you have, and u start sigh-ing, lols .

sigh-ed ..


hell of a day.

2:58am 13thOct

ohwell.

had a day off myself .


less than 1 week before holiday ends , damn sian .

wonder how am i going to adapt, lols .


time to play my psp again i guess , hahas .



nice day with you.

3:08am 12thOct

ohwell,

got my PSP fixed since its a free day full or diarrhoes ,

prolly too much crabs last night -.- damned .


and it seems like , the $800 subsidy will run dry before i know it .



no troubles please ! (:

4:13am 11thOct

ohwell, 1/2 of October gone , lols .


life has been good for a few days but going bad soon .

i wonder why sometimes, people can be so unpredictable and dumb, zz


running out of luck, patience and options .

2:59am 7thOct

ohwell,

had a day knocking on the doors of pasir ris, no transactions -.-


and a day full of troubles.

zz .



don't know what to say,

2:06am 2ndOct

when it comes to money, life sucks .

but when it comes to having fun, ohwell..


any wise ideas anyone?

2:02am 1stOct

childrens day will probably be the day when i feel totally another way compared to a schooling kid , zz

fuck.

3:58am 29thSep

i'm determined to get a bike license now (:



everything go smoothly please

2:06am 28thSep

alright, soon 2009 will come to and end in 3months time , hahas .

October is on the way,

and many other things too .


ohwell, the day was great and i think i should sleep soon, lols .



i want a bike license !

3:52am 27thSep

ohwell, a long time since i visited here again, hahas .


spent the day at home and went out to tampines at night .

life without money is sure stressful usually .

a good duration to train my endurance.

mental endurance i guess .




the rainy and hazy days

1:41am 24thSep

i'm fucking hungry !


alright, office work seriously sucks, lol.

ohwell, time to get some money for myself.





you make me go ROFL.

3:35am 21stSep

alright, gonne have another rest at home cos its HARI RAYA ! , lols .


enjoy peeps !

money doesn't seem raining down any sooner, lols .

endurance probably is the key,

and somehow i feel like quitting-smoking,

maybe we'll see how tmr, hahahahas .


the bygones will always be gone.

12:17am 17thSep

alright,

its the 460th post .

and i've come to realise, there's a fatal error.



i meddled into too many things that i shouldn't go into.

and now i'm stuck in a new maze i've not encountered before in my life.


perhaps the only way is to bulldoze everything in the maze now?.



the root, of a plant named evil..

was plucked out by me,

how i wish i can bury it deep down the ground again,

and let everything be bygones..

12:56am 16thSep

ohwell, had a long day at work & pub .

and time to go sleep i guess.


&&

happy birthday angeline CHIOBU !

i know you'll see this .




been there, done that


and for the intended ones:

time to stand up and walk another rocky path,

and always remember, to not look back anymore,

no matter how hard it is to not even look back.


time heals everything,

meanwhile just continue walking,

remember the fall, and remember the pain,

one day someone will understand your pain.


whereas for the one that avoids the path and choose the mountain route,

one shall suffer more,

but will soon grow strong,

since its no longer a similar path,

just walk the one you chose and wish each other the best.


for the two that picked different ways,

things that are lost won't come back again,

its up to you to find the new things while on your way,

and it will never be the same again,

just pray the things that you might find on the way be better than what you used to have,


if you believe

and there might be a small chance,

you will recover the things you lost again.

1:27am 13thSep

alright, had a fine day.

watched G-Force 3D, and prolly won't waste monry on 3d anymore , zz


ohwell, sometimes i hope things would sail easily according to my will .

why can't the world just revolve around me,

why can't i just drop things in life like how i dropped my PoA when i was still in secondary school .

probably this is a sneak preview of life?



plain luck, nothing much

12:33am 11thSep

alright, the 9th anniversary of the 911 incident, lols .

ok, no link .


ohwell, had a boring day at work.

and pub session soon after


even after so long, after trying my best to 100% understand non-smokers.

i dunno why, ppl still believe smokers are bad people.

personally, when i was younger, i believed smokers to be bad people too.

but i was wondering why did i think of it this way.

when i had a small conversation with a friend just nw, it seems like more or less ,many assumes people that smokes are bad eggs.

i wonder what led people to such thinking, but ohwell .

it will be difficult to change this fact because




its difficult to change the world, but less difficult to change yourself.

12:01am 7thSep

alright, had a bad day on the 456th post.


went simlim with ivan, and found myself getting scammed .

bought a dumb mp5 that will probably not be able to let me read my mangas,

and i can't even on, while charging, nice one .

time to fuck those china bastards tmr after work.


and so, its time to sleep since its gonna be another head start of the week.




fuck chinese scammers.

2:27am 5thSep

alright, the 2nd day working in a office.


definitely not used to it and kinda don't like environment like this.

but for the sake of consistant cash flow, i have to do it , lols .

was kinda enjoyable speaking to people that got all kinds of story when u called them,

and some even complained to me until i forgot i was supposed to do the fucking survey .

hope i'll grow to like the job ah, though i need to wear shoes and jeans like everyday, zz .


and so, a boring friday night.

just came back from meeting a friend .

friday nights are meant for fun times, but definitely not this friday and the following fridays coming along.

worse of all, my psp broke down, damn sad .

its a torture without my psp, and now i'm stuck with the laptop.

should i get a new psp? if it can't be fixed .


alright then, i hope tmr will be fine, at least even if i stay at home, i can watch epl all night long -.-


alright, and now some psychology issues,

i wonder why are humans, men and women created in such a way,

we feel great, lousy, fuck-ed up and probably everything else, i don't understand it.

i'm starting to see the good and bad things about feelings in living creature.

if this world exists as something without any feelings,

it would be full or greys only, probably it doesn't even matter if creatures even exist in the world .

however, if the full is filled with colors, we will be given a chance to live life to the fullest.

in this way, humans will be able to experience all sorts of different spices in life, like there'd be happy and sad occasions .

when one is happy, they give a smile, when one is sad, they just cry out.


personally, i think the world has got oo much colors.

wouldn't it be much better if there's only the 7colors of rainbow?.
red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet.
red for happy occasions, orange for joyous days, yellow for a good day, green for a peachful day, blue for the monday blues, indigo for the dullness at times and violet for the sad times.

probably that's only what i want about the world .

wouldn't it be better if people are just pure friendly, maybe peaceful?, probably more of worrywarts and maybe a small percentage being sad .



when i say this world has got too many colors, it means there's too many types of people in life.

from those that backstabs, those that comes to you with a purpose, those that always play around and probably many others which i can't really describe.

there's a chinese saying that, hundred types of people are fed with rice.

it explains, there're nice people around, fine people around and of course some with bad intentions in mind.

i guess thats all for now.


the more i type the hungrier i go =.=



this is life.

11:57pm 2ndSep

alright, found a job at last.

whether it will last long or just tmr only, its another question, lols .


alright, just had a big bowl of noodles.

for the whole night, i was thinking abt alot of things, while i was busy playing my Warriors Orochi.


shall not disclose it now i guess, lols .

lets just hope tmr will be a good day (:



does compeitition exist to make things better?.

1:10am 2ndSep

alright, soon i'll receive some letters that will say i'm owning this and that again.


i need a job man !

i hate the bills .



there goes the money!

3:40am 1stSep

alright, its september alr.


4more months to the the 10th birthday of the 21st century, lols .

it doesn't matter anyway-.-


what matters now is to just get a job and start earning my money before evey debt starts knocking on the door.

meanswhile its time to rest, ok .



money generator?

3:51am 31stAug

alright, the official end of August, lols .


having bodyache now, guess i drank too much just nw, lols .




alright, time to go off, someone's supposed to pass me something soon (:



i need a job soooon.

2:36am 28thAug

alright, the 450th post in this blog , lols .


the day was fine .

went out with classmates to watch Orphan,

a pretty nice show actually, but abit too draggy, lols .


tmr onwards will be torturing, mentally.

i wonder how can i enjoy my holidays when i gt $0 with me nw , lols .

and probably dun even need to consider hand-roll ciggs -.-


ohwell, let's just hope money will take over the rain every night.



good luck

4:21am 26thAug

soon enough, its the end of august again.


a long time since i remembered to blog , lols .

no wonder coming online seems so boring nowadays.


i wonder how am i gonna pay all the debts i had since ages ago until nw .

i hope money starts raining above me nw, only above me

because if it rained on everyone else, there will be a great inflation to everything .

ok, i'm nuts , ohwell .



time to find a job and start working soon (:

1 post more to 450 .



the LOL

7:19am 21thAug

alright, been long since i post.


the days were busy lately,

and within 2hours time,

i'm accelerating towards the mouth of all hell, lols .




tolerance.

1:37am 16thAug

alright, almost 1/2 of August passed.


time really flies, esp times when its stressful, happy, pissed and more.

maybe, time really flies when things get worse, ohwell.




wake up!

3:00am 14thAug

had a day of relaxation .

played bball after so long,


but tmr onwards will be hell of study,

so yea, prolly its the end of all fun -.-



you don't deserve this actually,

2:13am 13thAug

alright, approaching mid-August .


days are getting stressful not just because of money and schoolwork.

when certain situations come, people just don't seem to understand,

or maybe i'm the one that don't understand .


however, i hope a small break time for me to finish some undealt matters would do,

just some time ..



i don't understand, why i brought this upon myself.

2:45am 11thAug

ohwell, the 444th post of this post.



444 isn't a great number according to chinese customs.

and it really proved so , lols , somehow .



spent the day out with pizzas and UP .

UP's kinda boring at the start actually,

first time an animated movie can actually let me sleep-.- lols .


overall the day was good until later at night .



there goes another stepping stone.

1:39am 10thAug

this man is deprived of sleep and 10litres full of stress,

probably overflowing,


probably i should go thailand and get 2 5-litres bottle for only $4 to store my stress .

info from a caucasian customer i met when promoting some dumb chocolates-.-


bad riddance.

1:39am 9thAug

Singapore's Birthday again -.-

and prolly i'll be working madly like just nw .


and, its time i go sleep (:

to store up for the next round of torture rack , z .



wasting time on the wrong things.

4:10am 7thAug

alright, someone's birthday today .

happy birthday dumbshit (:


alright , a fucking busy day ahead i guess .



time to grab some sleep then .



ohwell, too bad~

1:55am 5thAug

alright , the day sucked ,

and it will suck until the day school officially ends in around 2weeks time .


2 more weeks of reckoning ,

endless of suffering within my wallet =x .



something new?

2:14am 4thAug

nothing much to say tonight .

happy birthday to my younger sis !

hopefully one day they'll find my blog ,

and know that this older brother here is not someone that cold to her always .


it seems kinda hard for me to express my feelings since young ,

perhaps thats just not something i'll be good at till the day i lie 7feet under , lol .




the last.

2:18am 3rdAug

sigh.


things are always cocking up at the wrong moments .

i dun understand how can life be like this .

many situations often leave one in a uncomfortable spot .



its probably me, that forces others and myself in a difficult spot all the times .

when you found a good one, it doesn't mean things will turn for the better .


i should have came to this conclusion long ago,

its like, by giving ManCity the best players in the world,

it won't turn them into a world class team immediately.

i guess everything will be fine ..





driving all the nuts out of me .

4:00am 31stJuly

alright, the official end of july (:

and thus 5 more months to 2010?. lols .

i'm thinking too much , hahahas .



and i'm damnit into 20thCenturyBoys , damn nice.


alright , a break for me nw i guess , lols


trying my best,

2:11am 30thJuly

alright, its really the end of july now .


the day was fine, since i rewarded myself with more sleeping time (:

and went back earlier after jap to give myself another rest (:


and i guess thats all for the day , lols .

i'm near to making the perfect ciggarette for myself , yea .



maybe i will?

1:18am 29thJuly

i guess its the only night i can sleep properly,

thus i shall end this short and sweet (: , like this .


and yea, tmr's another hell of a torture rack, so will the weekends be.

i hope there'll be new hamsters soon (:



the devil sins

2:10am 28thJuly

its only monday,

but it feels like a very taxing one .

looks like this week will be a hell of a torture, i guess?.


soon i'll deprieve of sleep, actually i am now.



over and under

2:47am 27thJuly

its the last weekend of July alr,

and we're heading towards August in a fucking fast speed -.-

maybe when ur pocket is empty,

time moves faster due to the reduced weight, zz


alright , the day was fine since i slept away half of it,

went town at night to met some idiot and some friends .

had a small slacking session, compared to days ago.

and now i'm here going to sleep soon,

i'm deprived of sleep now ,



i need a fucking time machine!

1:07am 26thJuly

lols , i guess i haven't been sleeping properly for nights ,

tonight will be no exception , zz

another not so lonely night.

1:13am 23rdJuly

alright,

a slightly better and quieter day for me .

or rather a cold one throughout ,

didn't realise i was actually having a cold since this morning ,

for once i thought it'll be that cold if the eclipse happens ,

even when i decided to warm myself up by playing bball awhile ,

i was still feeling cold -.- lols ,


alright,tmr's another day of wallet crying session, ohwell.



the right decision,

9:59pm 21stJuly

Can everything in this world not piss me off at the wrong times ?


i seriously dunno wad can i post today, i'm full of vulgarities nw in my mind .

Why must everything including this fucking blog piss me off?.


why can't you just not piss me off at the right times ?.

why can't you stop being the cause of my fucking distractions ?.

why can't you just give me a break?.


why can't you just be a little bit more stronger and have more faith in yourself ?.

why do you need to piss me off with tears ?

why can't you just let me have a chance to enjoy my life now when my stress level has finally drop?.
WHY ?.


what's your problem?. what's my fucking problem?.

It's hitting my limits so much, i can feel my blood boil above my head constantly now.

why must you do all this craps of all the times ?

why must you be so fucking sensitive?.

why can't you just be different from all the others ?

why can't you just let me prepare everything peacefully with my mind clear for your birthday?.

why are you unintentionally screwing up things for me almost all the time ?.

the reason i don't say out the last line all this time because i cared for your feelings .

but this time i seriously can't be bothered anymore .

why do i have to report everything ?

the way you said you don't wanna let me feel that your controlling me is very contradicting.

I'm an animal that needs more breathing space compared to my similar kinds .

i like to be alone

i don't need a companion

but why can't you just grant me that ?

keeping my phone in my bag or away from me is my habit

lying down at the sofa , playing my psp while falling asleep is something i really enjoy doing at home .

I'm not an open book to be read by people, i don't blame you for not knowing this .

To the people around me, when they complained how fuckedup their life is ,

I'd just give them the easiest but also the most difficult suggestion,

for BGR, just breakup if your not happy anymore,

for jobs, it's no pint working anymore if you're not happy

for persuing happiness, just do it and not regret.



I'm the one who can say all this easily but not able to do it efficiently ,

though I used to be someone able to do this .

because of you, I've decided to pull out more time .

because of you, I've tried my best to give up things for the sake of you.

because of you, I've tried my best to stretch my limit .

until now , I'm starting to doubt if it's worth it or not .


all along,

I hated my gf to cry , because it shows that I'm not doing good enough,

I'm someone that actually lacks confident in many things,

however, I'm always confident in sometime.

I might not be able to let you enjoy good things all the time ,

but I know I can make the moments spent together happy ones.

I'm very sure of it .


but now, I'm starting to feel, its dragging me .

I just wanna enjoy my life,

and my definition for this is easy,

its ok if i don't have a strong financial ability,

its ok if my general happiness is moderately low all the time ,

but i want to give you the best times all the time when you're with me .

and the life I'm wishing for in future is actually,

leading a stable life ,

with an average income, probably with a small and useless bike

live in a small house, so small that, it'll be just nice to fill up everything I need,

enjoying my life smoking and drinking once a week, be it at pub or just coffeeshops,

and of course doing something I really like ,


I had never spoke of such stuffs before , to anyone .

It has been a long time since I felt like saying all these, a very long time .



sometimes, it would be nice to just cry out when I'm feeling down,

but somehow I can't seem to do this anymore .



I no longer feel that pissed anymore ,

but I know a need a break ,

short or long,

I don't know,

but I need sometime on my own for now .



my journey

12:54am 20thJuly

in a wink of an eye,

there goes 2/3 of July , lol .


work was boring as usual ,

and i hope some money gets banked in soon , ohmy .


August will be a terrible month,

esp given my financial status now ,

11more days to go before that dreadful month, god-damnit.



craps of the universe.

2:44am 19thJuly

alright,

ir definitely is boring to give out balloons the whole day -.-

straining me mentally and thus physically,

though its only 5hours -.-


ohwell ,another round to continue tmr ,



i wonder which stage have i reached?.

2:18am 18thJuly

alright ,

apent a day rotting after a long night at pub , lol


today's hell of a day for consulting sessions .

a very long time since i had time for such stuffs , lol .

ohwell , managed to help some of them , and tried to help some of them .


and i'm sleepy alr , lols .

time to go off i guess .


my memory's failing me.

2:12am 16thJuly

alright , trying my best to study BLDGSAA,

but when i look at the notes ,

i wondered how i manage to copy so much and not understanding them at all -.-

maybe sleeping will be a good option now ?. lols


plans foiled thans to unexpected events ,

1:20am 15thJuly

alright , school was as boring as usual .

projects piling up like all the dead corpse that can be recovered in a disaster .

and the week will definitely suck from now onwards , ohwell .



a bad feeling.

1:00am 14thJuly

time to sleep, and slog my ass off soon (:

money money money

1:05am 13thJuly

ohwell , here comes the rainy days again.

and i haven't prepared well enuf for times like this to be coming .


spent a great day with someone ,

watched IceAge3 (: .

damn funny , a good show to make u laugh after a horrible week, lols .

and yea, here comes another torturous week .

good luck everyone -.-



to make it or break it, lies in you.

1:10am 12thJuly

Thurday night was fun at pub for arland's farewell (:

Friday was horrible cos i had nothing to do and no money ,

but went Arnold with someone to have a big chicken feast (:


alright , today sucked too ,

met up to do jap's roleplay project with jap classmates (:

glad they're nice peeps .

and went to do some shopping and a small visiting after that at night .

and i'm really tired now , yawns .



where should i proceed next?

2:21am 9thJuly

alright, another long day tmr i guess ,

the hectic days are coming again thanks to projects and everything else that has got relations to school (:


and now , my weekends would be screwed , thanks .



things that cannot kill you will only make you stronger

12:16am 8thJuly

ok, i'm tired .


just stfu everyone .

a minute will do .



deprieved of quiet moments.

12:04am 6thJuly

alright ,

a rainy day, which makes me more sick .



but i'm happy too , at least i get to fall asleep early ,

i hope i'll sleep really soon man -.-


spent the night out with the usuals .

and i guess its time to sleep since i can't concentrate any longer , seriously .



give up when u need to, and come back again soon.

1.38am 5thJuly

alright , the day sucks .

caped at home until dunno wad time .

felt like going out but decided not to .



mood was totally spoilt later on .

and i don't wish to comment abt it anymore .




can my money just come back and all troubles gone?.

2:06am 3rdJuly

argh , crap day .

school was fine ,

but everything in the world that revolves around me seems to be going on a stormy sea.


fucked up things happenening all around .

the last source for money gone .

people needs to piss me off real bad when i'm at the worst mood ever .

and of cos there's more to the storm,

just that those mentioned are slightly more important events.





i think ur bull-shitting, seriously.

2ndJuly 3:01am

alright , the start of a month, again.


we're approaching the 2nd half of 2009,

its like the start of a second half in a soccer match?.lols

alright then ,

the day was fine ,

lessons going well and having fun,

knew some group members and had a bad haircut .


alright then, shall have fun tmr .



out of nowhere.

2:49am 1stJuly

alright .

the day sucked because ,

i'm supposed to go school at 10am when i woke up at 2pm (:

how nice a morning when my attendance can get me into trouble already , zz


alright , its time to sleep soon,

tmr's a fucking long dayyy -.-

ohwell.



no intentions of entertaining you (:

2:44am 30thJun

alright, its the end of the month alr -.-


yup, soon it'll be another year and here comes everything again , hahas .


a good start for a new week i guess ,

school kinda bored me and horrible results might allow me to trtake subjects next sem , lol

yup, its time to watch some soccer match nw (:


alright , have fun .



a simple life

3:50am 29thJun

ohwell , a 4-day losing streak ,

unbelievable, like how USA can lead brazil by 2 by first half -.-


god-damnit , everything seems to not go smoothly anymore .

and when u start losing, u start getting ridiculous over stuffs easily .

well, who doesn't wanna win?

ohwell , tmr's the last chance i guess .


maybe they're right that, when u get angry,

wealth won't come in,

but i wonder how can i control my temper when everything that i need is not with me .

ohwell, maybe this losing streak's a warning to my downturn of luck,

and a pretty big one .





brain is a creation too great to be used

27thJun 4:04am

ohwell , looks like its another bloody losing night , zz .

lost 3-in-a-row alr , lols .

thanks to those uber surprising games ,

a good way to console myself would be , i'm not the only one who lost , lol.


alright , the day was kinda boring since i've camped at home the whole day .

with the losing streaks yea , u all know it -.-


ohwell , i guess i'm relying too much on this .

its time i wake up and not get obsessed with soccer betting too much ,

ohwell , time to find a new job .



a too painful wake-up call.

3:20am 25thJun

alright , looks like tonight's gonna crash and burn alr , lols .

ohwell, had some sort of feelings alr , so yea .

and so fast, its already nearing the end of June , lols .

and thus more problems yet to be solved .


alright , maybe its time to take a lil break , lol .



money is the root of all evil.

4:35am 24thJun

i shud be sleeping by now actually -.-

but i'm here for around 4more minutes before i can sleep in peace (:

4mins more to collect some winning tickets (:


alright , time to go prepare myself for a 2hour sleep i guess (:



not meant for enjoyment.

12:29am 22ndJun

alright ,

there goes the end of holidays ,

and there goes all the fun times , lol .


alright , i'm getting so bored and tired nowadays .

i seriously dun feel like working anymore -.-

ok la , maybe not work at the same old place any longer .

economic's bad , times are changing ,

so does everything .


maybe i'll know where to go after i reach the 3forked road (:



finding something to make a living .

5:25am 21stJun

alright , a bad day .

cos i bought some losing tickets ,

and my hamster passed away -.-



yea , went ktv the other with someone and had fun there too .

though its not very fun for my wallet , lol .

enjoyed alot on that day , probably the best day out of the 2weeks ,



yup , and some dumbshit's sitting beside me now .

not sleeping at this hour cos its time i twist back my body clock ,

i can't afford to be late for any more tutorials this term , seriously .



alright then ,

probably its not the best time for luck to be knocking on my doors ,



rocky

4:09am 19thJun

camper of the day ! (:

time to go sleep (:

3:55am 16thJun

alright , its alreayd 1/2 of June ,

the year is breezing fast towards the mid ,

and i guess the windy times of the year had just reached , hahas.


working was fine , since i was kinda sick of that dunno wha-the-fuck thing was behind my teeth and causing toothaches and allll sorts of crap to me when i start eating -.- damn .

had been there for days and probably the only thing i can drink is plain water and warm tea , lols .


alright then , last day of work for me this week tmr as i was scheduled to work 2days only ,

maybe when i feel like , i'll do some school stuffs , lols .
and i seriously wanna change my hamster cage since months ago -.-



hoping for great days ahead (:

1:49am 15thJun

alright ,

spent half the day rotting at home , lols .

i managed to keep awake from last night till this afternoon ,

and my intentions to switch my body clock back to the normal status (:

i hope it'll work , hahahas .


went out soon after to do some shopping ,

managed to get a shirt from Fourskin and yup ,

my budget allows me to spend a lil' bit more before all hell breaks loose .


so long ' .




spare me some trust please.

4:40am 14thJun

ohwell , a great day i had i guess . hahahas .


failed to catch Ghost Of Girlfriend Past and caught The Land Of Lost instead , lols .

fucking funny , and off i shud go to sleep nw , no psp tonight , zz




ohhwell

4:19am 13thJun

alright , camped at home the whole day agn , lols .


went out to isolate myself from the noisy environment i'm having at home , lols .

and nw i just hope i can sleep at night , zz




trust.

3:18am 12thJun

alright , 1/3 of june gone agn . lol


spent the day at home rotting in front of my laptop (:



met someone at night to go for dinner and a bit of shopping ,

added 2 new pants in my tiny drawer (:

went to some nice cafe near haji lane called the BluJazz .

nice place for relaxing and having dinner .

not really worth the money , for my case . lols



ohwell , tmr's another day to relax then i guess .

need to start planning for next week too , lols .


so yea , cyas peeps !



a happy day (:

3:17am 10thJun

alright , its the 400th post in this blog here , lols .

and so , the day was fine ?. i guess .

time passed pretty slow when working , but the day was kinda great somehow , hahas

and for once, i feel like clearing my m1 debt since i just got my pay ,

in the meantime , i wanna invest on GSS also leh , lols .

GSS more worth it i guess ?. hahas .

and yea , tmr's the last day of all hectic stuffs .

time to do some relaxation after tmr (:



i wanna go Sentosa ! , i wanna go shopping ! , i wanna go SLEEP ! , i wanna go clear my debts ! , i wanna go KBOX ! and many things else . (:



become and opportunist.

2:47am 9thJun

ohwell , had a great start to the holidays -.-

a pretty lame start rather . zz


yea , slept and woke up .

reported for work on time and blah blah blah -.-

so bored over there man ,



tmr and wed will be another round of boring days .

i wonder what are holidays for nowadays ,

and surprising news when i reach home , gives me a feeling , the rainy days will come soon , lols .

ohwell , maybe someday i'll wake up , trying to overturn what fate might be planning on me .




the good or bad times .

3:38am 8thJun

alright , here comes the end of the week .

spent my time at home today and went for M.vsA.

fucking funny , lols .


time to take a chill pill i guess ?. during this 2weeks break .

but once i start thinking abt money , it seems like singapore just went thru some inflation , the price of a chill pill grows tenholds .


ohwell , this week i can still afford the chill pill by just working 3days (:

and i seriously feel like going sentosa with some bunch of friends soon .

suntan-ing is good , and i miss it (:



sooner or later ,

4:29am 7thJun

alright , spent the day jogging cos i gt a fucking ball hogger in my team when i decided to bball with some ex-teammates .

i was playing bball for nothing cos when i just keep running , the ball just doesn't come to me .

ohwell , since its over then forget it .


alright , tmr will be a better day i guess ?.

next week will be an uber boring week ,

cos i need to go back to that miserable place to work , damn.




what the hell can i do?

3:46am 4thJun

alright , 4th day of June incoming ,

and a day off for me too , after having 3papers .


the last one would be on friday ,

and there goes the torturing holidays , zz


ohwell , maybe its still early ,

guess what , its only days away -.- days where u can count with ur fingers , ohmy .



up to something

2:26am 2ndJun

alright , kinda screwed up the fucking first paper , and its obviously the bad sign -.-

looks like soon i'll mark my debut on failing the first paper in my poly life (: hahahas .


alright , will be busy struggling with everything i got for the next few days .

and holiday plans are definitely drags .

screw everything , seriously .



learning to appreciate someone.

3:18am 31stMay

ok , been long since i last posted -.-

cos i forgot to actually , zz .


alright , been busy the past few days.

exams around the corner from next week onwards.

and dota is failing me badly -.-

sometimes i just feel like screwing Singnet and their so-o-good Mio , zz .

alright , enuf whining , time for psp (: .

cyas people, good luck to all (: .




the end of all.

3:37am 27thMay

alright ,

1matter down , and the rest to go -.-

tmr's hell of a day .

pray for the twist of fate . lol




king of kings, giant of giants

2:58am 26thMay

and so soon, its already the end of may.

the last week of this term before the term test starts .


a hectic week it'll be , and its a good time to do some time-management training .

all the best to everyone and myself then , hahas .




on pursuit

4:24am 24thMay

alright , the weekend's ending fast .

thanks to those dumb assignments and projects -.-

time to do some house camping then (:


till then .



trying my best to appreciate

1:51am 22thMay

alright , the luck streak continues .

and thus , work sucks .

nothing much to comment about also .


and probably , everything will go away soon .




the awakened , but still half asleep .

2:18am 21thMay

alright , its 2/3 of May already .

and it looks like all troubles start to sink in again .

i wonder what's wrong with people nowadays that likes to disturb my family .

after keeping a fucking low-profile for so long -.-

some idiots need to fucking disturb my life .

and here comes all this childish things again .


somehow i'm too tired for all this craps ,

maybe when ur still in secondary school , all these would have been quite thrilling .

but nw , its such a torture for me -.-

when ur fucking tired of school stuffs and work ,

u need to handle those bunch of little gangsters that creates trouble for ur family .


things get a few times worse when the bunch of things u did , came to nothing .

this is just so out of control .




forcing out the devil in me .

2:08am 20thMay

alright -.-

had a pretty screwed up day , especially after i reached home .

things doesn't go pleasant for me nowadays .

and maybe , its time i do something about it .

and so , let's just pray tmr will be a good day .


never expected this to come .

1:49am 19thMay

alright .

it seems like this week will be a very busy one .

many things that needs to be cleared by end of this week -.-

and i dunno anything about any single one of them , zz

ohwell , time to buck up i guess .




have an early night .

3:37am 18thMay

alright -.- i need to wake up in 3hours time

and i'm still here .

overall the weekends were great (:

esp the times spent with someone , hahas .


alright , and off i go now , cyas !




the good and the bad .

2:12am 17thMay

alright ,

had an average day spent at home i guess ?. lols

went to get a new haircut but i think my good luck has all been sniped away -.-



maybe it goes out to the long run ?. hahs

yup , visited BotakJones at Orchard also for dinner .

not bad , just that maybe with aircon it'll be much better , hahahas .


alright , time to rest for today i guess .



and it all goes on .


to add on ,
its not better to not know anything that's going on around you .

shall save the ranting for now .

3:56am 16thMay

alright , its already 1/2 May alr -.-

and days are like whizzing here and there .


and i dun understand why am i still here typing when i'm dead beat after a busy day at work -.-

ohwell , cyas peeps !




my way !

2:54am 15thMay

alright , had a pretty screwed day .

missed some lecture that had a test in it -.-

and i see 10% flying off .


and yea , worked from 6-11 just nw ,

hunger spoils my mood , usually .

and maybe its time to sleep ?. lols .

sleep is never enuf for me since monday -.-

when i had only 3-4 hours of sleep a night .

and i got fucking pissed when someone told me , 'u everyday study so relax , come here work so tired.'

not many ppl understands how stressful is life when u work and study at the same time , seriously .


ohwell , maybe that differentiates the dumb and the smart ?.



a need to relax .

3:14am 13thMay

alright , i shud be sleeping now -.-

just figured out how to play with some photos converter so i can read my manga peacefully in my psp .

and yea , my eyes are getting smaller , cyas dudes !




wake up soon !

2:29am 12thMay

alright , downloading some pics converter so i can brouse thru those naruto manga easily in my psp (:

and so , an average start to the week ,

missed morning's tutorial @ 9am when i woke up at 8.55am (:

good job WY ! .


alright , something must be done to that god-damned alarm clock then ?. lols


ohwell , shall leave everything next time .

entertainment comes first (:


so , cays peeps (: .




the game , life .

2:47am 11thMay

alright , 1/3 of May gone , and my pay hasn't arrive yet (:

soon ppl can stop calling me and i shall go MIA thanks to those outstanding hp bills .


alright , this weekend definitely suck .

since i lost it all -.- nice one .

and some dumb incidents which allowed my name to be used in a bad way .


alright , a new week will soon come , and all troubles will go . (:




sometimes , i'm glad i've got you .

4:07am 10thMay

ohwell .

many things happened today , and seemed like my name was being used this time .

and for things that i've said , i turned to be a bad guy now .


can't be bothered anymore since that spastic crap has no one to depend to now ,

and the only thing she can do is just tarnish my name even further .




alright , missed the family meeting because i was sleeping happily in the afteroon (:

and went out awhile to do some re-stocking and enjoy some soccer games .

thus its time for me to sleep -.- i'm half-dead .




leave me out of all these craps please , i don't wanna go back to the days , again .

2:16am 8thMay

alright , i'm dead big time .

they're gonna fucking drag everyone's pay until earliest next week -.-

i might consider fucking those office ppl tmr over the phone , and i seriously hope they terminate me .


alright , continued with this post after a cigg and some conversation on msn -.-

fuck sia , lost $20 this week alr and still hold my fucking pay .

ohwell .

and school was fine today , since i missed both lectures -.-

thanks to that entertaining but fucked up Barcelona and Chelsea game , which put me in a 2game losing streak -.-





time to recover

1:08am 7thMay

alright -.- had a pretty long day .

like any other wednesday , i need to wait 4hours before my lesson starts agn .

and it'll be good if i find something constructive to do in that 4hours , sadly i failed to do so . lols


lost my $10 budget thanks to man utd's ruthless aggression against arsenal last night -.-

and let's just hope barcelona will do their job tonight ,

ohwell .




i wanna relax .

1:55am 6thMay

alright , how i hope .

a person just need 2hours of rest a day , sadly , it won't happen -.-


alright , spent the day in school bballing after all the lessons .

damn sian , lost to those miserable TPgirl's team -.- wtf .

fuck sia , didn't expect myself to de-prove so much , and it seriously suck .


ohwell , maybe its time to buck up ? .



looks like i'm greedy again .

2:39am 5thMay

alright , the first week of May just started (:



and so -.- school's as boring as usual .

and i seriously got no idea what to blog now , since everyday seems to be so dull .

ohwell , time to go off i guess ?.




i can't afford to get greedy .

1:17am 3rdMay

alright , spent 1/2 the weekend rotting around -.- .

and so , nothing much to blog abt then .


except that i got my laptop charger back thanks to someone (:


and so , perhaps its time to go relax , and i just setup a facebook account , hahas .



the big devil in me

1:40am 2ndMay

alright , chiong-ed from 12-12 as usual -.-

an it seriously suck without my laptop .

after sending iris the chalet photos , i'm going off man .

wad a drag .




what to do .

1:07am 1stMay

alright , its May alr -.-

4months past 2oo9 .

fast ehs ?. lol


alright , i left my laptop charger at the chalet -.-

thus i'm using my bro's com to post .

i seriously wonder how he use the keyboard , when almost all the keys lost their marking .


alright , for an instance , i felt like sharing with everyone an uber emo blog i just visited ,

but since its nothing pleasant , i shall not describe it .

and that proves business ppl , are wierdos .

at least for a small handful amount that i know ? .

alright , perhaps its time to end (:

this set of keyboard is a torture .




the ultimate.

2:28am 30thApril

alright , a very wrong time to blog cos i'm either supposed to be sleeping

or probably waiting for Manu and Arsenal's clash -.-


but i seriously feel like sleeping nw , just that those behind me are disturbing my sleep , very badly .


alright , maybe i shud wait for the match then . lols .




what is this?

2:07am 29thApr

alright , received a sms from singtel today .

it means another round of hunting .


and so , had a pretty long and tired day i guess ?.

10-6 . and so i fell asleep at ard 8plus ?.

and woke up 12am on the dot , zz .

probably i'd have the energy to watch the first half of Barcelona and Chelsea's clash .

or maybe the entire match ?.


alright , tmr's another long day .

and probably a bbq after that -.-

maybe i shouldn't think far ahead sometimes , it somehow kills me deep 'inside' .




why is it like this ?.

12:02am 28thApril

alright , looks like i had a long day today .

finally bought a pair of cheap school shoe -.-

so that i can attend those bloody labs that requires me to wear shoe everyday , for fear that the computor CRT monitor drops on my feet , or i'll get electricuted by some dangling wires -.-

fuck sia , need to wear school shoes cos its the cheapest of all -.-

nvm , i shall forgive that idiot who came up with shoes in lab .

i'll just hope that , i won't find myself looking strange in it .


alright , spent all of my money away today on books and some other activities , lol .


tmr will be another long day , persevere then .




i feel the shine , but not for long .

1:43am 27thApril

ohwell .

borrowed 3comics from the NLB today , and i hope it'll entertain me abit (:


alright , almost hit $40 when arsenal stopped at 2-0 .

if i wished it was 3-0 -.-

nvm, this is all luck .


and i guess tmr till friday will be very bad .

i've got no shoes yet .

and i hope my mother leaves the $20 on the table for me to buy notes tmr .



alright , time for a break .




the chance , the luck .

1:20am 26thApril

god damnit .

i wonder wads wrong with my luck today ,

i bet liverpool 3-0 , it came out 3-1 .

i bet man utd 2-0 , first half the result 0-2 .

i shud start tearing away those losing tickets now -.-


fuck sia , why cannot even let me win one , lols .

i'm heavily in debt due to the fucking hp bills which amount up to $250 .

i need to buy those fucking books and notes for Jap and all those crap which sum up to an estimated value of near $50 .

and i still owe my colleague $100 -.-

if i'm adding up the $70 insurance , the amount seems abit incredible for a poly student -.-


and when ppl mention , 'your pay haven't out meh?' .

i get that 500% sian-sation , seriously .

aiyo forget it la , i can't even afford a fucking shoe for those labs now .

and when i start to think abt it , it all boils down to one thing .

and i shall leave a clue to what it is as the ending note .

oja .




a stick kills someone in the long run , but somehow it kills me now .

1:49am 25thApril

alright , so soon , its the end of april again -.-


alright , chionged from 12-12 tonight , thus i'm fucking tired now -.-

thinking of those money for next week , its another hell of a torture rack .

its time i smoke lesser and pray next month's pay , will help tide over some crisis .


maybe i should try something that was mentioned to me last night , lols .




i owe someone too much .

1:37am 24thApr

alright , first thing first ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIHAO !

i know u'll see this (: enjoy !


alright , didn't post last night cos i had a lil' too much at the pub last night .

to the extent i took over merlion's job for a few minutes in the toilet .

just that wad came out of me were coke and not NEWater -.-

but lucky , i wasn't drunk and made it home alone , in a piece .


and so , had school today and slacked around with the others till around 11odd .

stock-ed up agn and i hope i won't visit geylang soon again .

i'm desperately trying my best to cut down , and i hopewill succeed .

alright , gotta wait for the downloads to be ready and prepare for 12hours of work tmr (:




wondering ,

12:23am 22ndApril

alright , had an average day .

woke up late at 9.30 when the lesson starts at 10 .

and when i finally reached that place , i was told that the tutor won't be around for the first week -.-

how nice -.-


visited Tampines1 today since the next lesson would be at 3 ?.

quite a nice place for shopping i guess .

hahas .


time to go sleep i guess ?.




the need to adapt.

12:28am 21stApril

alright , first of day school today .

was an average day i guess ?.

but compared to work , the time goes really slow .

i think i'm used to the life when i wake up at 11odd and start working till the moon appears in the mid sky .


and so , went pasir ris soon after lesson ended .

ate my late lunch ?.

and i'm starting to feel tired since i only had around 2hours of sleep only last night -.-


and i guess , soon my body would own me .




stay in control and don't lose it .

12:59am 20thApr

alright , i need to wake up in like 7hours time ?.

and i doubt i can actually sleep soon -.-


panda eyes on the first day of school i guess ?.

or maybe the first week , zz .


shit , i haven't note down my timetable , and now it seems to take forever for me to log in and check it .

TP web just suck , to the core .



and yup , wasted a day at home before heading out to cine .

met a friend for dinner and went home soon after that -.-

and thats how i spend my last weekend before holiday starts , zz


alright , its time i sit back and wait for the bloody TP thing to work .




formed the resolve .

1:43am 19thApr

alright , wasted 1/2 of my day away by just travelling and doing stuffs that are meant to be completed -.-

went bball at yishun area and finally worked my body out after facing those pretty strong peeps .

looks like i shud make an effort to go there every week , if possible , lols .


maybe i'm tired today ,

but the more i think about it ,

the more i feel like making some changes to my life , again .


i'm kinda tired alr , mentally .

its difficult to choose between , wad to remove out and wad to fill back in .

can certain things , just appear when u need them ?

and just get off ur mind as long as its not time for them ?

can everything not share a certain level of importance , and all balanced ?





i wanna runaway !

2:26am 18thApr

alright , ran out of ciggarettes agn today -.-

and i feel soooooooo tired today , for some reason which i dunno why also .


and so , 12-12 for today .

i've reached the finish line for this holidays .

and life after today will be different , again

hopefully i can get used to it though .

afterall , i led a totally different lifestyle for like , 2months ?.



first week will be tough i guess ?.

from sleeping times to bad habits i adopted during this holidays like , smoking when i just woke up ? -.-

ohwell , it all takes time ,

and guess wad , i cleanly forgotten abt my timetable , except the fact that i gt no school on friday -.- zz




Next chapter please (:

2:54am 17thApril

alright , had some proper rest today ,

and the last sprint tmr , 12-12 (:


alright , caught 17again today with someone .

at least it didn't make me yawn until i step out of the movie theatre -.-


played pool after that , and went home soon after .

soon school will start and i forgotten my timetable though i just saw it this morning .

alright then , time to hit the bed (:



no point crying over spilled milk .

3:03am 16thApril

alright , just finished a round of uber fun dota .



worked from 2-11 today since i overslept till 1plus -.-


tmr's another good off day for me to meet someone (:

and yea , time to rest i guess ?. lols






a good breaktime .

1:33am 14thApril

alright , so soon and its the 1/2 of April already , zz .

worked from 5-11 for today (:

not that bad , but i doubt the other days would be that ok -


alright , maybe its time to go sleep soon ,

12-11 for tmr -.- hell of a day .

till then .



the totally wrong perception of me .

1:11am 13thApril

ohwell ,

had a great day out with someone ,

watched handsome suit , and its quite funny .


ohwell ,

missed a few opportunities to get fast cash , zz

and this month's insurance will be another round of headache .

and mysteriously , after paying $80 on my phone bills today ,

i left with only $50 , when i still got $300 in it 2days ago , wierd .


nvm then , shall leave house earlier tmr to check my bank balance , damnit .

alright , time to knock myself out .



it's almost time .

2:14am 12thApr

alright , had a good rest today ,

but somehow it waesn't enuf -.-


the rain dampened my mood to go out today .

thus only went far east awhile to change the t-shirt someone bought for me , hahas .

thanks my dear someone !


alright ,

visited geylang soon after that to stock up for next week (:


alright , tmr's another day with someone .

and 1 last week before all the hectic schedules start agn -.-

which also means 1 last week to chiong so that i can clear up all sorts of debts .



nothing .

3:00am 11thApr

alright , chiong-ed 12-11 today .

tired , but gonna receive a well-deserved rest tmr (:

woots !


alright , time to spend time with someone tmr .

and maybe its time i go enjoy my coming weekends (:



what isit again?

1:46am 10thApr

and now , 1/2 of april already passed -.- , zz



alright , worked from 4-11 today .

and also the 3rd consecutive day working in the dining area -.-

nvm then , i guessed i'm used to mopping the floors and all this , lol .


alright , time to head for the bed ,

and the last round for this week , 12-11 .

ohwell ..



the feeling of losing something .

2:08am 9thApr

kinda tired now , bt i feel like watching Liverpool VS Chelsea , hahahas . =x

alright , gonna miss a friend's birthday buffet tmr since i'm working like 4-11 , and no one can like take over me -.-


worked from 12-11 again .

and at least , it's slightly better .

nvm then , in the very end , this is what u get when u need to work for the sake of money .

speaking of money , i guess its time i pay those darn hp bills -.-

and soon , the $2ooplus in my account will go back to the original state , some digits near to $0.00 -.-


nvm then , nw i just hope ,

i can hold my temper , not just at work , but all the time .




ohwell , its time i do something .

1:38am 8thApr

my work place is slowly pissing me off day by day .

and today , i lost my bloody temper agn =x .


i'm glad its only 2weeks more before school starts .

den i won't be working as much compared to nw ,



ohwell , i really hate it when my temper goes out of control .

cos it makes me do things which i hate the most usually ,

making one unable to think properly -.-


nvm then , once i had a good meal and a good bath , everything's fine agn , lols .


alright , another day to slog tmr , 12-11 agn .

i wonder what are those shift leaders thinking when they put those super dumb schedules up there daily -.-

alright , let's just hope , i'll be able to work happily more often .



actually , i guess it ain't that hard to reach my boiling point =x

1:21am 7thApr

alright .

another day of work , 5-11 for today .


sians , nothing much to blog abt also -.-

nothing much actually interests me nowadays .

so yea , shall continue this life until school reopens then .

probably 2weeks more ?. zz


alright , time to head out to the bed once my download finish like in 1hour time ?. zz




too tired and moody for anything .

2:48am 6thApr

alright . just came back nt long from those usual night meetings -.-


had a great day bballing i guess ?.

though it ain't that fun actually -.- zz



found out my packed schedule next week .

shud i be happy or disappointed ?.

i'm working like everyday from mon to fri , lols .

happy cos my pay would probably make ends meet next month ?.

sad cos i doubt i can soend enuf time with someone , hahas .


well , we shall see then -.-



can i let it go?

1:07am 5thApr

ohwell .

spent the whole day sleeping at home with someone .

until my mum and someone decides to use words and flood me .


alright , went town to chill awhile before going geylang .

was fucking happy cos i found sampoerna in geylang , like finally ?

so , bought 2 packs at a go and the next time for me to visit geylang could well be later next week (:

let's just hope i can finish my stuffs by tmr lo .

bt i doubt i can -.- zz


nothing much i can say then .

let's just hope everyone out there's fine (:



maybe or cannot be ?

1:54am 4thApril

12-12 is pure torture rack .

and not forgetting its ela's birthday today .

happy birthday ela !
hope u see this (:


alright , in short i'm just damn tired ,

mentally and physically .

lets just hope the weekends will go fine .

and everything runs smoothly .



is this a gamble or wad ?

12:51am 3rdApr

ohwell , spent a day with someone today .

caught the Shinjuku Incident ?. if i'm not wrong .

its uber nice man , lols .

this one sure won't waste money , lols .


sians sia , tmr 12-12 work .

u see the sun and the next thing u prolly see will be the moon -.-

nvm then , for the sake of money , zz .


tonight i'm trying to change my life abit .

hopefully my sleepless nights would end soon .




the undesired outcome .

1:58am 2ndApr

ohwell ,

had been sleepless nights for the past 1 week ?.

and probably some would know the reason why .


anyway , just chatted for quite awhile with the dajiejie again .

somehow , that conversation managed to help abit , for now ?. lols

dunno wad else more to write also la ,

i'm full of things up there but my fingers seemed to be tied up .



when ur greedy , everything comes to nothing .

3:24am 1stApr

alright , its april's fool , hahas

and also the start of the 4th month in 'o9.


alright , went to get a haircut today .

shortened the wrong parts i guess?. lol



finally met up with someone after like 4days ?. lols

and went to work soon after that .

work was fine i guess ?. zz


ohwell , now i'm at a split road again .

i feel like carving a way out myself since i can see a light path coming out of it .

i can see the taboos now, for real

1:19am 31stMar

ok , spent a long day busy working -.- , 12-11 .

fucking sian ,

sleepless nights are just gonna torture my body so much ,

for a feel instance , i felt like sleeping while waiting for orders to come .

ohwell , tmr and wed wouldn't be any better though i'm working from 6-11 .

friday would well be another round of torture since its 12-12 , and not forgetting those endless crowds .


just gt free enough to go thru those past posts ,

time really flies eh ?

ohwell , this is probably life .

or maybe its just my life ?.



if its my life , dramatic stuffs are part of it .

and its gonna happen so so so soon man , -.-


i need a talk ,

2:52am 30thMar

officially the end of march -.-


alright , the weather killed my bball plans , zz

thus , slept at home until later at night before i went to do some visiting , lols .

and as usual , despite not working , my life is still classified! 'nolife' . (:


ohwell , failed to meet someone today , nvm then .

though i really miss her , lols .



where's the bottom of my heart ?

2:44am 29thMar

and here comes the end of march , zz

ohwell , sat night is definitely a torture rack when it comes to working .



nvm then , tmr will be slightly easier ,

need to go earn some fast cash and shall go bball at yishun area after that .

been long since i last bball , i'm fucking rusty nw , zz

ok , maybe just damn fat nw -.-


will be long before i see my skinnife agn , ohwell .


if anyone rmb me saying i wanted to quit smoking ,

i guess i was really bull-shitting , lols

i seem to smoke more and more , hahahas .


alright , gtg somewhere for awhile -.-



wads the next step ?

3:07am 28thMar

ohwell , worked for the whole day .

thus , nothing much to blog abt since its only work and smoke and eat and really nothing else -.-


sometimes , maybe leading a life that is so dull suits me.

and i'm starting to like it , lols .

a life where one works almost everyday -.-

and a life when u see so many dumb ppl in this world ,

when u look at them , u just can't be bothered to take a second look at them -.-


nvm , at least someone appreciated my services when i was working today , hahahas .

alright , i'm a nice person i guess .

ok , maybe sometimes ?. hahas



awaiting for a someone to teach me the way of life .

1:05am 27thMarch

alright , i'm alr 18 for exactly 1month nw , lols .

sians , here comes the end of the month then , again -.-


alright , spent the day out with someone again , watched the MallCop, lol

kinda funny laa , but doesn't seem to change the mood i've been having since the day i'm cash-tight ,


ohwell , maybe i should turn in soon .



exercise self-control ,

1:46am 26thMar

alright , i'm facing another round of financial problems , again .

ohwell , tmr's gonna be a headache then , nothing much to add on actually -.-


worked from the late afternoon till 11pm just nw -.-

damn sian ,

the new crews are forcing those managers to take dumb actions -.-

making that workplace a less happy environmanet to work in , zz

dumbshits .



starts to feel that , i should stop smoking .

4:11am 25thMarch

and so , a long 4hours chat with those old pals .

been a long time since we last met up too , ohwell .


everyone's growing older , and thus everyone's life is changing ,

but i hope , there'll be a day , when we just go back to those old days .




missing those days .

1:15am 24thMar

and yea ,

spent the day with part of the Outlawz in Kbox today (:

been long since the last time , hahahs .

and thus ,its another impact to my wallet =x


ohwell , working tmr again .

i seriously thinks the schedule sucks , big time

i can't work with those peeps i can get along with ,

and i think all those days that they put me for closing ,

they're gonna screw me big time .

fuck .


nvm then , its gonna be another week , and its nearing the end of March , again .




what had i done?

2:36am 23rdMar

ohwell , frustration devil got me again tonight , lols .


went out with ivan today and slacked around soon after meeting someone .

drank abit of alcohol and smoking some ciggs makes the night a better one ,

at least a break from everything , lols .


went to double check my uber wierd schedule time , and i seriously think it sucks .

damned .


nothing much to add-on i guess ?.



finding the cause of all problems .

1:10am 22ndMar

ohwell .

came to many thoughts today when i spent my time slacking at home the whole afternoon and night .


when my sister took out 2 lighters just nw ,

and being told that those lighter used to be a friend of my dad whom passed away few years back .

that uncle was definitely someone that , somehow gives me an example of how someone's life could be .

and yea , somehow was reminded of the way how he led his life ,

from his glorious moments , to his downfall and everything till he lies 7feet under the earth .


and i start to get the answer , the causes of all those piss-ed off feelings and the way i handle them .

probably , the main answer will be that , i'm not happy .

as in , i'm really not happy with the life i'm leading now .

i think , i'm a contented and good-tempered person .

but i dun understand why am i always venting anger on ppl , lols .

or maybe its when i can't express myself out to someone , then i won't feel like communicating with that someone , and thus , i end up being frustrated with the things that particular someone asks .

in short , perhaps the cause of those frustrations is created when the intended message doesn't get to that particular someone .

for now it seems quite true to me ,

and the level of frustration could also be directly affected by the importance of that message?



sometimes messages like this can't be delivered through words , but something else much more complicated than it , i guess ?


maybe its the cause of other problems also ?. i don't know ,

i dun have a guide on What Kind Of Person WY Actually Is ,

thus , i can't explain everything also , lols .




its not meant to be like this , and i'm sorry .

2:15am 21stMar

alright , spent a day at someone's house because that someone's sick -.-

somehow it didn't seem to turn out nice for her , lols .



anyway ,

yup , after that visited geylang awhile for my weekly activity .

u know wad laa -.-

ok , life's getting abit dramatic again .

and i realise , perhaps my goodboy image had been spoiled alr since the day i decided to pick up smoking .

ohwell , if its my life , i lead it the way i want .

but if my life is linked directly with another person ,

it'll affect the peron much more than it'll affect me , i guess ?

maybe its time for me to grow up and abandon the thinking that has been with me all along,

ignoring what others see of me and leading the life i really want .



i doubt i can do it actually , lols

12:47am 20thMar

and so fast , only 1/3 of march is left -.-

sometimes , times seems to go only faster and faster .


worked from 12-11 today , and it kinda sucked , lols .

the rest of the week would be slightly better i guess ?

damn sian , my wireless doesn't seem good .


ohwell , maybe its wad wandi says , its the worklidays , not the holidays =x


someone's sick -



its just some random running thoughts .

12:23am 19thMar

ohwell ,

another day spent working , lols .

and also another boring day , probably it'll continue tmr as well .


i wonder wad am i thinking now sometimes , seriously .

maybe i shud just pray for the next guider to come and guide me along this path of life .


and i hope someone gets well soon ,



feeling very sorry now .

12:49am 18thMar

ohwell , feeling very strange now , in a negative way .

lost the lighter my dearest someone gave it to me .


i've got nothing to say now of course , i dunno whats the feeling .

in short its just wierd .


for an instance , i was thinking , if it was a curse like last time or not ?.

but as always, there's always both sides to a thing u can see .

maybe , the lighter is a bond between me and you .

and now the bond is formed , the lighter goes to someone else who needs it , i guess?


ohwell , no point brooding more abt it also .

maybe its a wake up call , i should smoke lesser .

enough story for today i guess ? .


i've let you down , and i can only pray i can carry u up again

2:52am 17thMar

alright , just finished 2 dota games today (:

and yup , worked from 3-11 today , fucking sian at dining .

and i shall not rant anymore abt work -.-


after typing singnet a complaint letter days , the reply hasn't seem to come yet .

today's speed is quite ok i guess ?. lol


damn sian , shall go continue playing my ProEvo soccer , lols



perhaps , this is what we call fate .

1:43am 16thMarch

alright , wasted a day at home today (:

but eventually , used up the money that i was given this morning , lol .



went to the stall in the morning as usual .

and ordered pizzas for dinner , hahas .


and went sengkang again to meet someone after her work , hahahas .

and from tmr onwards till thurs , i'll be slogging like a dog again , lol .

except for tues ? . zz

and i can't possibly find those part-time flyer job for just 1day ?. wtf

alright then , we'll see as it goes .


what a drag `.



your the first ever to enter this blacklist , mark my words .

12:40am 15thMar

fuck mio ! .

causing me to leave around 5games in a night ? -.- zz


ohwell , spent the morning helping my parents at their stall ,

and a good chance to earn some quick cash (: hahas .


damn sian laa today .

went down to PS and wrote down my schedule ,

and went sengkang to find someone at her workplace -.-

ppl make-up until quite nice lehs , hahas

wad a day -.- a tiring one ,

a bad addition will be man utd losing to liverpool again -.- damn .

causing me to lose my $5 to singapore pools , lol

hiyo , this just sucks lor .


this is definitely dragging me,

12:46am 14thMar

alright , its approaching mid-March alr -.-

and i haven't done anything much , sians


slacked at home the whole day , and seems to forgot abt someone's existence , i'm sorry , hahas .


damn sian lor this few days ,

money doesn't seem to be coming from the skies , thus its time to start working -.-

damn-ed .

alright , gtg then .


what it takes to be there

12:17am 13thMar

alright , found out my results ytd (:

i'm just glad there's no supp papers for me to go back .


alright , visited the temple and IT fair today .

this IT fair has gt nt much difference , compared to those previous ones ? . lols

maybe because i've got no money laa , thats why .

watched my long awaited SuspectX also .

but i fell asleep throughout half the show -.-

not bad , its quite nice ?. lol

but nt very smart lahs , hahas .


alright , its time i do some planning .

in days to come , letters for my insurance and over-dued hp bills will come again .

ohwell , one of my hamsters are going to visit hell soon , by next morning i guess?.

i hope it dies by tonight , lesser torture for that skinny radical .

ohwell , this is life i guess .

u live , u survive and u die .



time to work hard ,

11:46pm 11thMarch

alright , spent a night over at ECP to celebrate Feremy's birthday.

happy 19th friend ! (:


and yea , went back home this morning only , lols .

everyone was tired alr i guess ?. hahas


alright , chiong-ed home and sleep cos some Singnet ppl's coming my hse in the afternoon ,

and yet , i was expecting wad MioTV can impress me , that person missed out the MioTV on the checklist -.-

In conclusion , there's no MioTV .In further conclusion , no Italian league to watch , and the final conclusion , no weekend soccer joy at home -.- damned !

and this fucking Mio wireless broadband dun seem to impress me much though .

my connection doesn't go way much faster ?.

and idiots who say my com sucks , u sucks even more . (:


the last chance before you hit the list (: cherish it .

12:48am 10thMar

lols , worked for a day like dog .

and managed to borrow $50 (:

but i'll prolly say byebye to it after the end of tmr ):


ohwell , nothing much to talk abt also for today's post .

tmr will be fun i hope ?. lols

and there goes the rest of the week -


what's wrong?

12:08am 9thMar

alright , rotted another day at home .

without money ,

u can't do anything .



true enough , slacked at home with someone today .

and i think its the first time i wasted away my weekends in 2009 .


ohwell , tues is and will , be a big headache for now .

fuck laaaaa , i hate borrowing money , god-damnit ! .


by now i should have realised , ranting doesn't make my life slightly better .

ok , thats lame .

walao ehs , some saviour come and fucking save me la god-damnit .



alright , time to look for targets to borrow money from them :( .


it ain't getting better , so do everything .

1:09am 8thMar

alright .

spent a day going at home ,

went PS before that and realised , i'm now really financially tight ,


i can't even withdraw $20 nw .

and just when i desperately need a daily paying job ,

none of those flyer distributors seems to have any vacancy anymore .

and nw tues will be a drag , damned .


i dun really know wad can i do nw .

the second worse case scenario might start to happen tmr night onwards .

ohwell .


save the troubles please !

1:52am 7thMarch

ok , spent a day rotting at home ?. LOL

someone visited my house again .

and i realised my zippo has ran out of gas alr -.- damn .


alright , bball-ed at amk area in the evening time ,

been long since i last played bball with those st gab peeps .

and so , kinda had fun ehs .

a short break from the reality and the fact that my wallet is freaking empty ,


trying my luck tmr on a few flyer distribution jobs .

i seriously need a job that gives me daily wage € , and this time its for real .

when u feel the pressure coming up ,

the desperate feeling comes as well .


and thinking of every thing that makes me lose more and more money , sian -.-


somehow , i kinda enjoy a struggled lifestyle .

but it ain't good afterall , especially to those close to me like someone .


i need cash !



i've treated you badly ,i'm sorry

12:16am 6thMarch

alright .

spent a day job-hunting targeting tampines new shopping malls .

and realised they are mass-hiring over 1000peeps ,

for constructing the whole building i guess ?. LOL

the building wasn't even ready yet -.- no comments ,


visited sim lim square and marina square soon after .

and yea , the bad economy proves that everywhere is not hiring ,

and maybe i shud just jolly well stay faithful to CJ -.-


ohwell ,

its time i visit geylang again , soon .

and i seriously need a flyer distributor job or wad to give me a daily or weekly income .

next week will be a hell of torture racks man .

hp bills due and my insurance , god-damnit.


if only a solution could be found .

1:30am 5thMarch

wahs damn sian today .

slightly much better today because i tried to rush everything out asap , lols


alright , tmr will be an off day for me .

but still busy busy also -.-

meeting feremy and derek at tampines area at ard 12 ,

and i wanna go out with someone ,

and i feel like meeting my old colleagues also at afternoon .

damn sian , i dunno wad to do nw , lols .


i miss someone

11:47pm 3rdMarch

argh fuck .

spent a rough 10hours at the dumb store again .

this time cashier , i cannot stop opening my mouth for ard 2hours during the dinner crowd .

fuck sia .

this job not meant for human one leh , zz

and i seriously dun feel like going tmr alr ,


ohwell ..


argh fuck again , money issues is driving me nuts and now i need to cancel my own happy celebrations with my friends because i'm left with $6 , how great ha .

damn sian , before school ends everyone say here gt job there gt job .

now when nothing to do liao not a single fucking soul comes and offer u a job ,cb .

fuck money !


because of money , everyone gets to enjoy except me , damn!

12:50am 3rdMarch

ohwell .

carl's junior sucks .

had a tiring day there -.-

despite its only 8hours .

stupid new staffs and probably my choice going back there is wrong -.-

another 2days of torture there for this week i guess , lols

tmr will be another torture i guess , though its 12-8 .

and wed would be the second round , 12-11 .

i'll just go later on wed , probably at 3 ? lols .

fuck sia , i can't believe after a few idiots left , a few more idiots took over their position -.-

and nw the whole part-time crew all smokers -.-

GG-ed .



god-damnit . i shud consider finding another job soon .

i can't work with a bunch of smokers for nuts , despite being one myself -.-

1 or 2 is fine .

imagine all 6-8 of them -.-

argh fuck .

i want to get a fucking new job !



money issues seriously sucks .

its killing me day by day .

thurs will be another torture my my wallet , and here comes the Great Depression again . :(


i hope the next 2days will not make me smoke more, seriously

12:06am 2ndMarch

alright , got introduced to networking again .

this time it managed to convince me , like 60% ?. lols

and yea ,

i might consider buying those products for my family , keyword is consider .

ohwell .


met up with someone again after that networking thingy .

and yea , went home quite soon after without doing much .

gave someone a huge shock also just nw , i'm sorry :(
tmr will be a long day working i guess .

and this process will continue for 3days , hahas

and yea , 1 more option to consider .


money is the root of all problems.

2:11am 1stMarch

and there goes the 2nd month of 2009 .

and the 2nd day of 18th-hood .


alright , spent a great day on my birthday with someone .

watched the pink panther and walked here and there .

the most surprising part was the present from that someone .

the best present ever i can ever receive , from the past 18years ,i swear .

and probably the 18th birthday was the best ever as well .

thanks guys if ur reading this .

for a split-second , i was kinda touched actually , hahas .


and yea , someone visited my house agn today .

and we went out agn -.-

was kinda bored due to the rain and financially-restrained .

lost my great chance to turnover my financial crisis .

and the only way nw will be slogging like a dog i guess . ohwell .


i wanna listen to someone

2:06am 27thFeb

happy birthday to this happy blogger here !


probably the best birthday i ever had in this 18years alr .

dine at a good friend's home and with everyone and its good enough .

although i had been praying there's no cake all this while -.-

cos it'll be the most embarassing part of all -.-

but yea , still happy la !

been long since i last received presents or eaten my own birthday cake alr .



somehow the day sucked , so i shall not mention it during this happy occasion of mine .

received a t-shirt and wallet also .

appreciated , really !


tmr will be a even greater day i hope .


the 18th will be dearly remembered , really

thanks everybody !

1:03am 26thFeb

argh , gt damn pissed with some idiot that's falling sick and dunwan go sleep .

making this upset blogger here no mood to study .


sians la , dfund sucks to the core .

because i can't absorb anything nw , zz


sians la , damn dulan lor this whole day .

and all this fucking bone aches start to come in .

tonight no need sleep early liao , lols .


spent the day in school studying without much positive results .

and this fucking slow internet speed .. -.-

alright then , time to end this i guess .



that fucking pissed feeling

2:22am 25thFeb

alright .

the day was kinda wasted , bt nvm .

got scammed to pasir ris agn today , lols

bt nvm la , someday i'll scam someone to boonkeng soon also , hahas .


alright , nw convincing ivan to take part in that 3on3 next month .

probably my birthday wish would be enough training time for the team and ivan being the 3rd player (:

see that ivan ?. lol


studied Dfund for quite awhile ,

and i guess i'm finally absorbing some stuffs .

i hope i dun forget them by tmr , lols .


alright , maybe i shud go study abit more then .



time to train up

12:00am 24thFeb

ohwell .

double combo , double trouble .

both papers were killers , to me at least -.-

i doubt i can pass maths , but ohwell , its over alr at least .

one last final paper to go .



alright ,

another thing to worry abt will be .

stay at the same old place or a new environment .

i need to slog like a dog this holidays .

hopefully i won't meet any supp papers .


damn .

not forgetting other activities with the others also -.-


perhaps the only time i can really relax will be the date when Mas Salamat broke out of that dumb jail 1year ago -.-


someone tell me what to do la , provided your words can convince me -.-

and please do not try and preach me over things that i do when i think its fine and u think its not , i don't give a damn

1:22am 23rdFeb

ohwell .

just when i thought today might be my doomsday .

somehow it didn't seem to be so .

gt some help from the usuals .

and nw it made me 10% more confident nw , lols


and yea , its time i go sleep soon .

good luck dudes ! (:


the wrong step.

2:02am 22ndFeb

lols , wad a nice timing , 202,222 .

alright , spent a day studying agn .

but somehow it ain't very fruitful .

soon after that went geylang to watch soccer for awhile .

then home sweet home .


ok , pretty lame .

that depicts how no life study week can be -.-

sians lor !


almost made someone cry today also , lols

i'm sorry ok

tmr will be another lame day i guess .

ohwell .


i want to know if i'm doing the right things

1:03am 21stFeb

alright .

somehow screw-ed up my first paper -.-


nvm , its over .

i shall not brood over it .

blame it on my lazy-ness .


alright ,

slacked awhile at ard pasir ris after my paper .

wanted to study abit ,

but somehow failed ?. lols

nvm , tmr will be another day .

hopefully it will be a fruitful day ?.


ohwell , gtg i guess .


determination is the key

1:02am 20thFeb

lols ,

i'm having my first paper in less than 13hours time ?. LOL

alright ,

i ain't confident ,

and nothing seems to go inside my head ?.


study session with much more peeps today .

slightly less constructive .

but yea . i hope i'm getting on track .

i can roughly estimate how huge the drop in my GPA will be .

if i can get even a 2.7 this time .

i'll be happy .

its difficult to not look at how others are improving and scoring .

but no matter what an eyesore it is to see ppl scoring much better than me ,

given my current's slacky state , i deserve it -.-


bad habits are killing me .

and probably the root of all the problems i'm having .

but again , what's the use of identifying the problem when i will not do anything abt it -.- zz


ohwell .



i dun need any luck for tmr's paper .

i've probably finished using my luck .


receiving it within 168hours (:

12:02am 19thFeb

alright .

spent a day relaxing .

although its not right to relax at this crucial moment , but yea , forget it la .

FACOM in like 1more day left ?.

maths will be killers for sure .

and nw i'm starting to feel , i wasted too much time on Dfund .

damned !


watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Burton? if i'm not wrong ?.

i think its a nice show , and pretty time-killing also .

sians la .

before the movie , tried to luck to get some soft toy for someone , and lucky enough , i just need-ed the first and the last chance , hahas .

the last $1 coin i had in my pocket (:


tmr will be a rushy day i guess .



i'll do badly this time round for sure .

11:23pm 17thFeb

and yup ,

another day spent studying with someone agn .

anyway that's not the issue abt tonight's post -.-

after being crippled one leg , another arm was chopped off today , its my financial status i'm talking abt here.

this month's hp bill goes up till $170 .

and i gt a feeling , soon i'll consider dropping my another line .

in addition , $70 insurance . =x

making it a nice value of $240 .

assuming the expenses for the remaining few days will be ard $70 ,

it makes the value even nicer (: $310 .

and also not forgetting next month's insurance .

another $70 , which adds up to $380 .

assuming , i spend as little as possible during march , i'll use at least $40 a week .

which make it (4 X $40 = $160) by end of march ,

and not forgetting abt another set of hp bills .

assuming its just $80 , not forgeting i'll tend to overuse .

in gross total , it'll be around $380+$160+$80=$620 .

its abit difficult to tell myself , do not worry .

even if i'm willing to slog like some dogs ,

yea , maybe i shud just stop thinking abt this nw , lols .

how could things like this happen to me !? .

even ytd's $80 red packet from my aunt can't save me nw -.-


god-damnit .

true enough , trouble comes in a package .

i wonder what's next , -.-



struggling is fun ,