2:11am 1stMarch

and there goes the 2nd month of 2009 .

and the 2nd day of 18th-hood .


alright , spent a great day on my birthday with someone .

watched the pink panther and walked here and there .

the most surprising part was the present from that someone .

the best present ever i can ever receive , from the past 18years ,i swear .

and probably the 18th birthday was the best ever as well .

thanks guys if ur reading this .

for a split-second , i was kinda touched actually , hahas .


and yea , someone visited my house agn today .

and we went out agn -.-

was kinda bored due to the rain and financially-restrained .

lost my great chance to turnover my financial crisis .

and the only way nw will be slogging like a dog i guess . ohwell .


i wanna listen to someone

2:06am 27thFeb

happy birthday to this happy blogger here !


probably the best birthday i ever had in this 18years alr .

dine at a good friend's home and with everyone and its good enough .

although i had been praying there's no cake all this while -.-

cos it'll be the most embarassing part of all -.-

but yea , still happy la !

been long since i last received presents or eaten my own birthday cake alr .



somehow the day sucked , so i shall not mention it during this happy occasion of mine .

received a t-shirt and wallet also .

appreciated , really !


tmr will be a even greater day i hope .


the 18th will be dearly remembered , really

thanks everybody !

1:03am 26thFeb

argh , gt damn pissed with some idiot that's falling sick and dunwan go sleep .

making this upset blogger here no mood to study .


sians la , dfund sucks to the core .

because i can't absorb anything nw , zz


sians la , damn dulan lor this whole day .

and all this fucking bone aches start to come in .

tonight no need sleep early liao , lols .


spent the day in school studying without much positive results .

and this fucking slow internet speed .. -.-

alright then , time to end this i guess .



that fucking pissed feeling

2:22am 25thFeb

alright .

the day was kinda wasted , bt nvm .

got scammed to pasir ris agn today , lols

bt nvm la , someday i'll scam someone to boonkeng soon also , hahas .


alright , nw convincing ivan to take part in that 3on3 next month .

probably my birthday wish would be enough training time for the team and ivan being the 3rd player (:

see that ivan ?. lol


studied Dfund for quite awhile ,

and i guess i'm finally absorbing some stuffs .

i hope i dun forget them by tmr , lols .


alright , maybe i shud go study abit more then .



time to train up

12:00am 24thFeb

ohwell .

double combo , double trouble .

both papers were killers , to me at least -.-

i doubt i can pass maths , but ohwell , its over alr at least .

one last final paper to go .



alright ,

another thing to worry abt will be .

stay at the same old place or a new environment .

i need to slog like a dog this holidays .

hopefully i won't meet any supp papers .


damn .

not forgetting other activities with the others also -.-


perhaps the only time i can really relax will be the date when Mas Salamat broke out of that dumb jail 1year ago -.-


someone tell me what to do la , provided your words can convince me -.-

and please do not try and preach me over things that i do when i think its fine and u think its not , i don't give a damn

1:22am 23rdFeb

ohwell .

just when i thought today might be my doomsday .

somehow it didn't seem to be so .

gt some help from the usuals .

and nw it made me 10% more confident nw , lols


and yea , its time i go sleep soon .

good luck dudes ! (:


the wrong step.

2:02am 22ndFeb

lols , wad a nice timing , 202,222 .

alright , spent a day studying agn .

but somehow it ain't very fruitful .

soon after that went geylang to watch soccer for awhile .

then home sweet home .


ok , pretty lame .

that depicts how no life study week can be -.-

sians lor !


almost made someone cry today also , lols

i'm sorry ok

tmr will be another lame day i guess .

ohwell .


i want to know if i'm doing the right things

1:03am 21stFeb

alright .

somehow screw-ed up my first paper -.-


nvm , its over .

i shall not brood over it .

blame it on my lazy-ness .


alright ,

slacked awhile at ard pasir ris after my paper .

wanted to study abit ,

but somehow failed ?. lols

nvm , tmr will be another day .

hopefully it will be a fruitful day ?.


ohwell , gtg i guess .


determination is the key

1:02am 20thFeb

lols ,

i'm having my first paper in less than 13hours time ?. LOL

alright ,

i ain't confident ,

and nothing seems to go inside my head ?.


study session with much more peeps today .

slightly less constructive .

but yea . i hope i'm getting on track .

i can roughly estimate how huge the drop in my GPA will be .

if i can get even a 2.7 this time .

i'll be happy .

its difficult to not look at how others are improving and scoring .

but no matter what an eyesore it is to see ppl scoring much better than me ,

given my current's slacky state , i deserve it -.-


bad habits are killing me .

and probably the root of all the problems i'm having .

but again , what's the use of identifying the problem when i will not do anything abt it -.- zz


ohwell .



i dun need any luck for tmr's paper .

i've probably finished using my luck .


receiving it within 168hours (:

12:02am 19thFeb

alright .

spent a day relaxing .

although its not right to relax at this crucial moment , but yea , forget it la .

FACOM in like 1more day left ?.

maths will be killers for sure .

and nw i'm starting to feel , i wasted too much time on Dfund .

damned !


watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Burton? if i'm not wrong ?.

i think its a nice show , and pretty time-killing also .

sians la .

before the movie , tried to luck to get some soft toy for someone , and lucky enough , i just need-ed the first and the last chance , hahas .

the last $1 coin i had in my pocket (:


tmr will be a rushy day i guess .



i'll do badly this time round for sure .

11:23pm 17thFeb

and yup ,

another day spent studying with someone agn .

anyway that's not the issue abt tonight's post -.-

after being crippled one leg , another arm was chopped off today , its my financial status i'm talking abt here.

this month's hp bill goes up till $170 .

and i gt a feeling , soon i'll consider dropping my another line .

in addition , $70 insurance . =x

making it a nice value of $240 .

assuming the expenses for the remaining few days will be ard $70 ,

it makes the value even nicer (: $310 .

and also not forgetting next month's insurance .

another $70 , which adds up to $380 .

assuming , i spend as little as possible during march , i'll use at least $40 a week .

which make it (4 X $40 = $160) by end of march ,

and not forgetting abt another set of hp bills .

assuming its just $80 , not forgeting i'll tend to overuse .

in gross total , it'll be around $380+$160+$80=$620 .

its abit difficult to tell myself , do not worry .

even if i'm willing to slog like some dogs ,

yea , maybe i shud just stop thinking abt this nw , lols .

how could things like this happen to me !? .

even ytd's $80 red packet from my aunt can't save me nw -.-


god-damnit .

true enough , trouble comes in a package .

i wonder what's next , -.-



struggling is fun ,

10:35pm 16thFeb

ohwell , the 301st post in this blog (:

out of the 300 times since 2007 , i guess i ranted quite alot here ,

and the 301st post doesn't escape the part abt my rantings ! .


yup , study session was fine , and much better than ytd of cos .

however i gt a strong feeling , the hide-and-seek game with my mum seems to come to an end .

true enough , my hideout gt ransacked when i reached home . -.-

Damned.


from today onwards , i'm living life of a true 18 nw ,much earlier than when i expected though -.-

i get to pay my bills myself .

which adds up to the fucking $70 insurance a month , making it 2 times heavier nw -.-

$140 a month , at least ,

not forgetting those plusplus here and there -.-


argh , 'god-damnit' is something i can chant nw .

no offence dudes (:


nvm , maybe this is what we call life .

when ur doing something thats not meant to be done , and ur the only one thinking its right .

u can only either give up and live in the life which u think its not right , or fight for the life u want , and end up getting those punishments given to you .

maybe i'm stupid enough fight for it , and now the punishment i'll receive will kill my wallet , lols

if only my resolution for other stuffs would be that strong -.-


ohwell .


the living torture , there goes everything again .

11:19pm 15thFeb

spent a great Valentine's Day this year with someone (:

even though its not a pretty good one to my dearest wallet , hahahas


alright , reached home at ard 4 last night ?.

went geylang after orchard with the usuals .

and couldn't sleep due to my aching arm -.-

i wonder wads wrong this time . zz


and yup , was late agn when i met someone to study earlier today .

sorry lahs =x


wasn't quite constructive as the mood for studying wasn't there yet , zz

and the next paper is just like days away -.-

zz , tmr will be a big headache .

probably not going pulau ubin with the rest alr ,

since everything in my body dun seem to be going well .


and maybe its time i go now (:


a bloody torture

12:33am 14thFeb

had a bad morning with wandi knocking on my windows -.-

but thank god , he's kind enough to knock on my windows , if not i'll prolly retake CADS next sem ,

so , Thankyou WANKIDAL !


and also , Happy Valentine's Day to my DAJIEJIE (:

alright , went haji lane after a short rest at home with someone .

met up with the usuals and went got Sheesha the first time ,

somehow i think it sucks -.-


tmr will be another day of torture i guess , not physically nor emotionally , bt a torture to my wallet , hahahas .


gtg for nw i guess , hahahas


a special day

11:30pm 12thFeb

alright , last day of school tmr (:

and best enough , 1hour of test and i'm done (:


had CADS today .

hopefully i'll pass ? .

and yea , no time to study for the next 2days .

and maybe its time i work hard .


alright , nothing much to add on also i guess ?. hahas




its time for a change (:

11:55pm 11thFeb

alright ,

wasted a day around today .

met someone else again at night for dinner , hahas


and yup , the day will be short .

so will it be tmr and the day after .

going school for tests only -.-


wasted around $8 today .

and i regretted .

shall not disclose wad i wasted that $8 on -.- damn .


so , maybe its time to do something constructive since the coming paper will be like only 1week away -.- zz


buck up !

11:46pm 10thFeb

and yup , its alr the 10th -.-

which means around 10days more before the first paper -.-


MOE is finally done .

and yup , CADS will be the next headache -.-


tmr shud be a short day .

maybe it's time to start planning .


pissed someone off also today cos i was late again , hahas

sorry laa , i know ur reading this ok (:


if this is how it is , then let it be .

11:17pm 9thFeb

a moody day i guess ?. hahas


alright , today kinda sucked .

Dfund's still un-understandable like usual .

and the lab test somehow sucked -.-

not forgetting autocad which kinda sucked as well -.-

so today sucks . lols


tmr will be worse i guess .

when it comes to presenting , i can only say .

let's get it over and done with . (:


well-despised .

11:35pm 8thFeb

alright , studied at kallang kfc agn today -.-

with someone else yea , hahas


and yea , the weather seems bad today , thus nowhere to go after that study session also -.- zz .

and yup , this coming week will be a drag , esp for tmr and tues -.-

tmr's lab test will kill me , lols

but i think i'll kill myself first , hahas


MOE's presentation on tues night -.-

and yea , 1 last week before study week , zz



do something right pls .

12:44am 8thFeb

ok , a great night i had with the usuals at my house .


spent the day studying at kallang kfc ?. lols

and yea , studied for awhile only la ,

before i lose concentration .


alright , my stomach's upset nw , and it upsets me as well -.-

gtg soon i guess , hahas



a need to find a resolution .

1:52am 7thFeb

ok , need to make this a fast one .

i'm kinda tired alr -.-


alright , had a pretty long day -.-

from waiting to hiding to surprising , hahahas


and yea ,

tmr will be studying sessions with the usuals .

and back to my home after 7?. hahas


maybe i shud end it nw , (:

in short , i had a great day despite some little disappointments . hahas


the power to affect me

12:42am 6thFeb

ohwell .

had a tiring day in school .

went bugis awhile after that , and thats all for today ?. lol


tmr will be another long day .

Aircon project due tmr -.-

and MOE project next week , zz


days ahead after tmr will be quite draggy i guess ?.

maybe until 26thFeb -.- long way to go .


alright , i'm tired alr (:


and grats to wandi .

for shaking off that $500 fine , lols


i want to form a resolve

12:14am 5thFeb

happy birthday leonard a.k.a CAK ! (:

alright , my great friend's birthday since 14mins ago , and that adds up to the list of ppl who can officially get me ciggarettes , though i can get them myself alr if i want -.-


alright .

maths test was screwed.


and yup , spent time with the usuals around tampines area .

met someone for dinner after that with zhihao , and yea .

it marks the end of today (:



making the right decision , and not regret .

11:08m 3rdFeb

and sooo ,

a bloody long day i had .

and it actually explains my weariness -.-


nothing much to include in recent post , lols .

and it explains why the posts getting shorter and shorter day by day .

ok , i'm really tired nw ,



this is so dumb.

12:37am 3rdFeb

alright .

a terrible start to the week ,

having utmost '0' for today's Dfund quiz .

its time to buck up !


alright , the day went slightly better soon after awhile .

alright , nothing much to add for the day also .


this time , i failed terribly as a middle-man .

both parties ain't going well .

and maybe i did my best alr ?. zz

sians la .. maybe things will change soon .


it's not worth it dumbass -.-

12:49am 2ndFeb

and yep , 14more post to the 300th post in this blog for utmost 2years .



had a great day studying and looking for answers in the maths book -.- lols

soon after , went town area with someone again .

and caught 'Love Matters' .

but somehow that show sucked -.-

funny it may be , but the story like quite sian lor until the mid-show . zz


but yea , afterall today quite fun la , hahas .


tmr will be a long day i guess ?. hahas

and the Great Depression has begun officially .


if stupidity kills a relationship , then something just killed all of your