3:24am 1stApr

alright , its april's fool , hahas

and also the start of the 4th month in 'o9.


alright , went to get a haircut today .

shortened the wrong parts i guess?. lol



finally met up with someone after like 4days ?. lols

and went to work soon after that .

work was fine i guess ?. zz


ohwell , now i'm at a split road again .

i feel like carving a way out myself since i can see a light path coming out of it .

i can see the taboos now, for real

1:19am 31stMar

ok , spent a long day busy working -.- , 12-11 .

fucking sian ,

sleepless nights are just gonna torture my body so much ,

for a feel instance , i felt like sleeping while waiting for orders to come .

ohwell , tmr and wed wouldn't be any better though i'm working from 6-11 .

friday would well be another round of torture since its 12-12 , and not forgetting those endless crowds .


just gt free enough to go thru those past posts ,

time really flies eh ?

ohwell , this is probably life .

or maybe its just my life ?.



if its my life , dramatic stuffs are part of it .

and its gonna happen so so so soon man , -.-


i need a talk ,

2:52am 30thMar

officially the end of march -.-


alright , the weather killed my bball plans , zz

thus , slept at home until later at night before i went to do some visiting , lols .

and as usual , despite not working , my life is still classified! 'nolife' . (:


ohwell , failed to meet someone today , nvm then .

though i really miss her , lols .



where's the bottom of my heart ?

2:44am 29thMar

and here comes the end of march , zz

ohwell , sat night is definitely a torture rack when it comes to working .



nvm then , tmr will be slightly easier ,

need to go earn some fast cash and shall go bball at yishun area after that .

been long since i last bball , i'm fucking rusty nw , zz

ok , maybe just damn fat nw -.-


will be long before i see my skinnife agn , ohwell .


if anyone rmb me saying i wanted to quit smoking ,

i guess i was really bull-shitting , lols

i seem to smoke more and more , hahahas .


alright , gtg somewhere for awhile -.-



wads the next step ?

3:07am 28thMar

ohwell , worked for the whole day .

thus , nothing much to blog abt since its only work and smoke and eat and really nothing else -.-


sometimes , maybe leading a life that is so dull suits me.

and i'm starting to like it , lols .

a life where one works almost everyday -.-

and a life when u see so many dumb ppl in this world ,

when u look at them , u just can't be bothered to take a second look at them -.-


nvm , at least someone appreciated my services when i was working today , hahahas .

alright , i'm a nice person i guess .

ok , maybe sometimes ?. hahas



awaiting for a someone to teach me the way of life .

1:05am 27thMarch

alright , i'm alr 18 for exactly 1month nw , lols .

sians , here comes the end of the month then , again -.-


alright , spent the day out with someone again , watched the MallCop, lol

kinda funny laa , but doesn't seem to change the mood i've been having since the day i'm cash-tight ,


ohwell , maybe i should turn in soon .



exercise self-control ,

1:46am 26thMar

alright , i'm facing another round of financial problems , again .

ohwell , tmr's gonna be a headache then , nothing much to add on actually -.-


worked from the late afternoon till 11pm just nw -.-

damn sian ,

the new crews are forcing those managers to take dumb actions -.-

making that workplace a less happy environmanet to work in , zz

dumbshits .



starts to feel that , i should stop smoking .

4:11am 25thMarch

and so , a long 4hours chat with those old pals .

been a long time since we last met up too , ohwell .


everyone's growing older , and thus everyone's life is changing ,

but i hope , there'll be a day , when we just go back to those old days .




missing those days .

1:15am 24thMar

and yea ,

spent the day with part of the Outlawz in Kbox today (:

been long since the last time , hahahs .

and thus ,its another impact to my wallet =x


ohwell , working tmr again .

i seriously thinks the schedule sucks , big time

i can't work with those peeps i can get along with ,

and i think all those days that they put me for closing ,

they're gonna screw me big time .

fuck .


nvm then , its gonna be another week , and its nearing the end of March , again .




what had i done?

2:36am 23rdMar

ohwell , frustration devil got me again tonight , lols .


went out with ivan today and slacked around soon after meeting someone .

drank abit of alcohol and smoking some ciggs makes the night a better one ,

at least a break from everything , lols .


went to double check my uber wierd schedule time , and i seriously think it sucks .

damned .


nothing much to add-on i guess ?.



finding the cause of all problems .

1:10am 22ndMar

ohwell .

came to many thoughts today when i spent my time slacking at home the whole afternoon and night .


when my sister took out 2 lighters just nw ,

and being told that those lighter used to be a friend of my dad whom passed away few years back .

that uncle was definitely someone that , somehow gives me an example of how someone's life could be .

and yea , somehow was reminded of the way how he led his life ,

from his glorious moments , to his downfall and everything till he lies 7feet under the earth .


and i start to get the answer , the causes of all those piss-ed off feelings and the way i handle them .

probably , the main answer will be that , i'm not happy .

as in , i'm really not happy with the life i'm leading now .

i think , i'm a contented and good-tempered person .

but i dun understand why am i always venting anger on ppl , lols .

or maybe its when i can't express myself out to someone , then i won't feel like communicating with that someone , and thus , i end up being frustrated with the things that particular someone asks .

in short , perhaps the cause of those frustrations is created when the intended message doesn't get to that particular someone .

for now it seems quite true to me ,

and the level of frustration could also be directly affected by the importance of that message?



sometimes messages like this can't be delivered through words , but something else much more complicated than it , i guess ?


maybe its the cause of other problems also ?. i don't know ,

i dun have a guide on What Kind Of Person WY Actually Is ,

thus , i can't explain everything also , lols .




its not meant to be like this , and i'm sorry .

2:15am 21stMar

alright , spent a day at someone's house because that someone's sick -.-

somehow it didn't seem to turn out nice for her , lols .



anyway ,

yup , after that visited geylang awhile for my weekly activity .

u know wad laa -.-

ok , life's getting abit dramatic again .

and i realise , perhaps my goodboy image had been spoiled alr since the day i decided to pick up smoking .

ohwell , if its my life , i lead it the way i want .

but if my life is linked directly with another person ,

it'll affect the peron much more than it'll affect me , i guess ?

maybe its time for me to grow up and abandon the thinking that has been with me all along,

ignoring what others see of me and leading the life i really want .



i doubt i can do it actually , lols

12:47am 20thMar

and so fast , only 1/3 of march is left -.-

sometimes , times seems to go only faster and faster .


worked from 12-11 today , and it kinda sucked , lols .

the rest of the week would be slightly better i guess ?

damn sian , my wireless doesn't seem good .


ohwell , maybe its wad wandi says , its the worklidays , not the holidays =x


someone's sick -



its just some random running thoughts .

12:23am 19thMar

ohwell ,

another day spent working , lols .

and also another boring day , probably it'll continue tmr as well .


i wonder wad am i thinking now sometimes , seriously .

maybe i shud just pray for the next guider to come and guide me along this path of life .


and i hope someone gets well soon ,



feeling very sorry now .

12:49am 18thMar

ohwell , feeling very strange now , in a negative way .

lost the lighter my dearest someone gave it to me .


i've got nothing to say now of course , i dunno whats the feeling .

in short its just wierd .


for an instance , i was thinking , if it was a curse like last time or not ?.

but as always, there's always both sides to a thing u can see .

maybe , the lighter is a bond between me and you .

and now the bond is formed , the lighter goes to someone else who needs it , i guess?


ohwell , no point brooding more abt it also .

maybe its a wake up call , i should smoke lesser .

enough story for today i guess ? .


i've let you down , and i can only pray i can carry u up again

2:52am 17thMar

alright , just finished 2 dota games today (:

and yup , worked from 3-11 today , fucking sian at dining .

and i shall not rant anymore abt work -.-


after typing singnet a complaint letter days , the reply hasn't seem to come yet .

today's speed is quite ok i guess ?. lol


damn sian , shall go continue playing my ProEvo soccer , lols



perhaps , this is what we call fate .

1:43am 16thMarch

alright , wasted a day at home today (:

but eventually , used up the money that i was given this morning , lol .



went to the stall in the morning as usual .

and ordered pizzas for dinner , hahas .


and went sengkang again to meet someone after her work , hahahas .

and from tmr onwards till thurs , i'll be slogging like a dog again , lol .

except for tues ? . zz

and i can't possibly find those part-time flyer job for just 1day ?. wtf

alright then , we'll see as it goes .


what a drag `.



your the first ever to enter this blacklist , mark my words .

12:40am 15thMar

fuck mio ! .

causing me to leave around 5games in a night ? -.- zz


ohwell , spent the morning helping my parents at their stall ,

and a good chance to earn some quick cash (: hahas .


damn sian laa today .

went down to PS and wrote down my schedule ,

and went sengkang to find someone at her workplace -.-

ppl make-up until quite nice lehs , hahas

wad a day -.- a tiring one ,

a bad addition will be man utd losing to liverpool again -.- damn .

causing me to lose my $5 to singapore pools , lol

hiyo , this just sucks lor .


this is definitely dragging me,

12:46am 14thMar

alright , its approaching mid-March alr -.-

and i haven't done anything much , sians


slacked at home the whole day , and seems to forgot abt someone's existence , i'm sorry , hahas .


damn sian lor this few days ,

money doesn't seem to be coming from the skies , thus its time to start working -.-

damn-ed .

alright , gtg then .


what it takes to be there

12:17am 13thMar

alright , found out my results ytd (:

i'm just glad there's no supp papers for me to go back .


alright , visited the temple and IT fair today .

this IT fair has gt nt much difference , compared to those previous ones ? . lols

maybe because i've got no money laa , thats why .

watched my long awaited SuspectX also .

but i fell asleep throughout half the show -.-

not bad , its quite nice ?. lol

but nt very smart lahs , hahas .


alright , its time i do some planning .

in days to come , letters for my insurance and over-dued hp bills will come again .

ohwell , one of my hamsters are going to visit hell soon , by next morning i guess?.

i hope it dies by tonight , lesser torture for that skinny radical .

ohwell , this is life i guess .

u live , u survive and u die .



time to work hard ,

11:46pm 11thMarch

alright , spent a night over at ECP to celebrate Feremy's birthday.

happy 19th friend ! (:


and yea , went back home this morning only , lols .

everyone was tired alr i guess ?. hahas


alright , chiong-ed home and sleep cos some Singnet ppl's coming my hse in the afternoon ,

and yet , i was expecting wad MioTV can impress me , that person missed out the MioTV on the checklist -.-

In conclusion , there's no MioTV .In further conclusion , no Italian league to watch , and the final conclusion , no weekend soccer joy at home -.- damned !

and this fucking Mio wireless broadband dun seem to impress me much though .

my connection doesn't go way much faster ?.

and idiots who say my com sucks , u sucks even more . (:


the last chance before you hit the list (: cherish it .

12:48am 10thMar

lols , worked for a day like dog .

and managed to borrow $50 (:

but i'll prolly say byebye to it after the end of tmr ):


ohwell , nothing much to talk abt also for today's post .

tmr will be fun i hope ?. lols

and there goes the rest of the week -


what's wrong?

12:08am 9thMar

alright , rotted another day at home .

without money ,

u can't do anything .



true enough , slacked at home with someone today .

and i think its the first time i wasted away my weekends in 2009 .


ohwell , tues is and will , be a big headache for now .

fuck laaaaa , i hate borrowing money , god-damnit ! .


by now i should have realised , ranting doesn't make my life slightly better .

ok , thats lame .

walao ehs , some saviour come and fucking save me la god-damnit .



alright , time to look for targets to borrow money from them :( .


it ain't getting better , so do everything .

1:09am 8thMar

alright .

spent a day going at home ,

went PS before that and realised , i'm now really financially tight ,


i can't even withdraw $20 nw .

and just when i desperately need a daily paying job ,

none of those flyer distributors seems to have any vacancy anymore .

and nw tues will be a drag , damned .


i dun really know wad can i do nw .

the second worse case scenario might start to happen tmr night onwards .

ohwell .


save the troubles please !

1:52am 7thMarch

ok , spent a day rotting at home ?. LOL

someone visited my house again .

and i realised my zippo has ran out of gas alr -.- damn .


alright , bball-ed at amk area in the evening time ,

been long since i last played bball with those st gab peeps .

and so , kinda had fun ehs .

a short break from the reality and the fact that my wallet is freaking empty ,


trying my luck tmr on a few flyer distribution jobs .

i seriously need a job that gives me daily wage € , and this time its for real .

when u feel the pressure coming up ,

the desperate feeling comes as well .


and thinking of every thing that makes me lose more and more money , sian -.-


somehow , i kinda enjoy a struggled lifestyle .

but it ain't good afterall , especially to those close to me like someone .


i need cash !



i've treated you badly ,i'm sorry

12:16am 6thMarch

alright .

spent a day job-hunting targeting tampines new shopping malls .

and realised they are mass-hiring over 1000peeps ,

for constructing the whole building i guess ?. LOL

the building wasn't even ready yet -.- no comments ,


visited sim lim square and marina square soon after .

and yea , the bad economy proves that everywhere is not hiring ,

and maybe i shud just jolly well stay faithful to CJ -.-


ohwell ,

its time i visit geylang again , soon .

and i seriously need a flyer distributor job or wad to give me a daily or weekly income .

next week will be a hell of torture racks man .

hp bills due and my insurance , god-damnit.


if only a solution could be found .

1:30am 5thMarch

wahs damn sian today .

slightly much better today because i tried to rush everything out asap , lols


alright , tmr will be an off day for me .

but still busy busy also -.-

meeting feremy and derek at tampines area at ard 12 ,

and i wanna go out with someone ,

and i feel like meeting my old colleagues also at afternoon .

damn sian , i dunno wad to do nw , lols .


i miss someone

11:47pm 3rdMarch

argh fuck .

spent a rough 10hours at the dumb store again .

this time cashier , i cannot stop opening my mouth for ard 2hours during the dinner crowd .

fuck sia .

this job not meant for human one leh , zz

and i seriously dun feel like going tmr alr ,


ohwell ..


argh fuck again , money issues is driving me nuts and now i need to cancel my own happy celebrations with my friends because i'm left with $6 , how great ha .

damn sian , before school ends everyone say here gt job there gt job .

now when nothing to do liao not a single fucking soul comes and offer u a job ,cb .

fuck money !


because of money , everyone gets to enjoy except me , damn!

12:50am 3rdMarch

ohwell .

carl's junior sucks .

had a tiring day there -.-

despite its only 8hours .

stupid new staffs and probably my choice going back there is wrong -.-

another 2days of torture there for this week i guess , lols

tmr will be another torture i guess , though its 12-8 .

and wed would be the second round , 12-11 .

i'll just go later on wed , probably at 3 ? lols .

fuck sia , i can't believe after a few idiots left , a few more idiots took over their position -.-

and nw the whole part-time crew all smokers -.-

GG-ed .



god-damnit . i shud consider finding another job soon .

i can't work with a bunch of smokers for nuts , despite being one myself -.-

1 or 2 is fine .

imagine all 6-8 of them -.-

argh fuck .

i want to get a fucking new job !



money issues seriously sucks .

its killing me day by day .

thurs will be another torture my my wallet , and here comes the Great Depression again . :(


i hope the next 2days will not make me smoke more, seriously

12:06am 2ndMarch

alright , got introduced to networking again .

this time it managed to convince me , like 60% ?. lols

and yea ,

i might consider buying those products for my family , keyword is consider .

ohwell .


met up with someone again after that networking thingy .

and yea , went home quite soon after without doing much .

gave someone a huge shock also just nw , i'm sorry :(
tmr will be a long day working i guess .

and this process will continue for 3days , hahas

and yea , 1 more option to consider .


money is the root of all problems.