Saturday, March 21, 2009

1:10am 22ndMar

ohwell .

came to many thoughts today when i spent my time slacking at home the whole afternoon and night .


when my sister took out 2 lighters just nw ,

and being told that those lighter used to be a friend of my dad whom passed away few years back .

that uncle was definitely someone that , somehow gives me an example of how someone's life could be .

and yea , somehow was reminded of the way how he led his life ,

from his glorious moments , to his downfall and everything till he lies 7feet under the earth .


and i start to get the answer , the causes of all those piss-ed off feelings and the way i handle them .

probably , the main answer will be that , i'm not happy .

as in , i'm really not happy with the life i'm leading now .

i think , i'm a contented and good-tempered person .

but i dun understand why am i always venting anger on ppl , lols .

or maybe its when i can't express myself out to someone , then i won't feel like communicating with that someone , and thus , i end up being frustrated with the things that particular someone asks .

in short , perhaps the cause of those frustrations is created when the intended message doesn't get to that particular someone .

for now it seems quite true to me ,

and the level of frustration could also be directly affected by the importance of that message?



sometimes messages like this can't be delivered through words , but something else much more complicated than it , i guess ?


maybe its the cause of other problems also ?. i don't know ,

i dun have a guide on What Kind Of Person WY Actually Is ,

thus , i can't explain everything also , lols .




its not meant to be like this , and i'm sorry .

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