3:07am 1stJan

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS (:
and so , just came back from town after watching the dumb fireworks when i got blocked by some stupid chamber outside MS -.-

had steamboat for dinner too ,

but maybe it was abit the waste of money .

didn't eat much also -.- lols


sians la , i'm too tired to really blog nw actually .

i just wanna make my first 'o9 post .

maybe , i shall not have any resolutions this year (:



not getting closer

10:58pm 30thDec

and yup , the past 2 days sucked to the max .

my modem cocked-up and i can't use internet for days -.-

until i digged out a old dial-up modem , and unbelievably , it's working and running fast now (:


and ytd sucked since morning -.-

not to mention the long day itself , but seeing someone in the early morning just sucks .

seeing anyone related to that someone will just worsen my luck , everytime .


so yea ,

had those stupid flu syndromes once i entered the LT this morning .

or rather it got worse when i entered the LT , zz

and so , prolly tmr will be short day in school , den HomeSweetHome (:

anyway i'm working on new year's day .

a good way to save my money , hahahas



it's time i go off (:
i don't know what to do

1:30am 29thDec

yaa -.- i can't believe i need to actually post @ MAC in the middle of the night -.-

thanks to the dumb singnet which somehow screwed my internet -.-

thus , causing my not to blog for like 1day ?. and not surf the net as and when i WANT ! -.-


ok , and so , spent the day at orchard with ivan -.-

and watched a movie after so long , but somehow i forgot the name of it alr -.-


in the end , we still can't change the fact that school's re-opening agn tmr ,zz


its ok , school-ing is not a bad thing , sometimes .


it's been sometime,

2:51am 27thDec

and yup ,

had a day spent with my FM'o9 , still depressed abt the part when i gt sacked by Tottenham and got employed to manage a League2 team -.- wtf !


i doubt many would understand the previous part , but nvm (: there isn't a need for anyone to know .


just when i wanna get down and complete my part of the marketing plan ,

i felt like going out , lols


and so , moved out of house after dinner to visit the usuals .

mistook leisure park for skate park . LOL

and so , i went somerset instead of kallang -.-

lucky the bus16 saved my life , lols


and yup , went to geylang soon after for the beancurds . lol


and tmr comes to my mind nw , meeting at 3plus with group members -.-

nvm , i'll visit somewhere after it and maybe some mini shopping with the amount i have in my bank -.- less than $30 i guess ?. lol


here comes the GreatDepression , again -.-


perhaps i'm used to my life

3:56am 26thDec

and yup , its super late nw and i'm just back home -.-

chatted with some random indian uncle just nw with wg .

life stories of those old school gangsters (: nice . lols


but i'm supposed to return early and finish my task -.- zz



and so , had a fine Christmas eve but a not-so-merry Xmas .

was fun la , but the consequence sucked .

to summarise all

$400 on 2 piece of tissues ,and that shud be enuf , i guess ?. lols


ok , i shud end it early , and probably now -.-



missing it

12:52am 24thDec

lols , its CHRISTMAS eve ! again -.-


definitely not looking forward to this ,

cos i'm spending it the same way as last year -.-


sians lor .

nvm la ,

can save money also lor . lols

although i seriously feel like watching a movie -.- zz


and so , worked from 3-11 .

quite tiring and uber sian since most of my friends there ain't around .

but quite a number of chiobus around la , hahahas

anmd somehow i'm having itches around my arm and back since i reached home -.-


i hope it doesn't last long .

or i'll condemned myself and stay at home on a christmas eve . lol




but seriously , idk wad to do tmr . lols

the un-desired

1:55am 23rdDec

and so ,

spent the day with the usual group to WWW ,

and failed to spend time with those celebrating their birthdays and project group .


this time i'm really a bastard .

but ohwell ,

i was told much earlier , till the extent i almost forgot abt this outing -.-


its not that fun actually at WWW lor -.-

but nvm la , i least i've been there before alr (:

met jon after everything and learned some stuffs from him (:



ohya , visited the 'red house' at pasir ris .

but since its near evening , it isn't really scary .

tried to take a picture of it from the outside , but its abit unclear la ,

or maybe it's very -.- but i'll still post it (:








sometimes , i just don't feel it.

2:58am 22ndDec

and so ,

its the 250th post i made in this blog alr ! hahas !


and yup , i've just realised .

tmr will be equally hectic -.- seriously .


just when i thought , i could attend the group meeting ,

i was reminded that i had something on promised alr -.-


another day filled with fun (at WWW) and sadness (a great time to choke my wallet) then , zz

and i need to visit hougang again to collect my specs -.-



sians .

and tues , i'll start working agn .

while thurs will be a day off for me out with peeps agn .


i'm starting to feel ,

the 2weeks break ain't useful at all .

instead , its like popping Slim10 into my wallet .

if u all get wad it means -.-


and yup ,

today's 'tongzhi'

which means an end to the winter , i guess ?

and since my mum was too tired to make those 'tangyuan' that everyone's suppose to eat on this day according to chinese customs .

my dajiejie was kind enuf to draw this for me (:





lols , thanks den (: , appreciated ! .


time to end this i guess ?


it crossed my mind , again.

3:39am 21stDec

and so ,

visited the store and decided that i'm going back on tues (:


made my spectacles also before that .

and thus , i'm left with the fucking dumb MOE project and my hair -.-


sians lor .

the project will piss me off someday for sure .

and i just rmb-ed i've got other things to do also on monday . zz

shit sia , 2 outings and 1 meeting .


and the next day i'll need to worry abt will be ,

christmas eve ?.


sians la .

its time i need to think fast and come up with a plan soon .

my human processor is slacking too much . lol



against the negative flow

2:18am 20thDec

ohgosh !

its the 20th alr . lol

which means .

5days more to christmas and around 11days more before 'o8 fucks off (:


and so , one big holiday task completed .

met up with almost all of those i'm supposed to meet .

maybe it's time i recall my resolution for 2oo8 . lol


it'll take sometime , but i'm pretty sure 90% of those resolutions were not met .


but anyway .

11days more for me to fulfill those resolutions , even if i rmb them -.-


and yup , visited bugis not long ago to meetup with derrick and got my hairdye (:

as i'm pretty sure i won't have the money to go salon =x


and ya , finally rmb-ed to post the pic i had taken at some NationalGeographic shop located in Vivocity .

quite interesting la , esp this ->




hope it can be seen ah . lols


the last time i uploaded pics to my post was like a year plus ago when i visited some DnT shop -.-




tmr will be busy .

perhaps its time i put things in priority and not to my likings .



lonely-one & lovely-duo

how i wish ..

1:02am 19thDec

and yup ,

spent the day rotting at home .

went out alone ard the evening to collect some documents,

and visited saiful since i've met up with almost everyone that i haven't been contacting for sometime .

and nw i feel like going back PS and work agn .

yea , i'll consider it , hahas

anyway probably i won't need to go those bball trainings anymore (:

so yea , more time to work maybe ?


and so , was at kbox last night with ivan and joel .

wanted to just sing for awhile , and we left at 5.30 in the morning -.-

lucky i'm still able to speak today huh (:



sian sia ,

this short break seems to suffocate my wallet and me .

i wanna do alot of things lor .

like getting a nice frame ? and maybe getting a new color for my black hair when i'm seriously not used to seeing black hair .

or maybe just watch a freaking funny movie ?. lols .


sians lor .

in short ,

i need some of the most troublesome things in life , such as money.



the torture rack ;

3:14am 17thDec

ohwell .

and so , spent both days working at my dad's stall helping out .


and yup , visited zh's grandad wake ytd .

kinda sad sia , people pass and go in one's life .



went geylang with wandi just nw to have some supper .

had some chat and went home . lols

met weeguan soon after .


and he told me the news that he's moving away next monday . -.-


damn sian , more and more ppl leaving around me .

even though there's still times when we can meet .

but it won't be so convenient .

afterall , we've known each other since young .


and yup .

perhaps its time for me to take the fate's examination -.-



sians ,

i don't know what to do .

11:45pm 14thDec

and so , the time i woke up , was probably the time my aunt passed away .


10years ago , around this period of the year .

when i woke up , everyone i see gives a 'sad' expression .

i was like , wondering why ?. until i sat down beside my aunt .

and she said in chinese : 'wy , wai gong bu zai liao' ..

it meant , my grandad passed away .


weeks ago when we all knew of her disease .

i told my mum , maybe u wanna go visit ur sister 1 last time .

before u regret .

and she was mentioning about how busy she is helping my dad.

and i said , 'if u wan , maybe u can go on the 15th when my holiday starts . i'll just cover u for a few days .'

and yup , tmr's the 15th .


sometimes , things like this are just coincident.

when i heard she's willing to accept treatment .

i was thinking , perhaps i could still see her the very last time at CNY next month ?.


and ya .

when the news of her death arrived ,

i was thinking , i must go see her the very last time .

no matter how ugly she is , i just wanna look at her the last time .

but yea , since they said probably her face would be covered .

i see no point in going back too anyway .

sometimes , life is so unpredictable ,

for once when we all thought some 'bastard' finally died ,

the next thing we know , he's bringing my aunt along 7feet down under just weeks later .


maybe this was all planned for her .



when i used to thought the world is fine , with all sorts of normal people around,

but now , seeing what's around me ,

perhaps the world isn't right anymore.



the unexpected ; sad and pitiful

1:24am 14thDec

ohwell .

a day spent rotting at home . zz


and yup , training cancelled .

sians la .

i dunno wads the world coming to man .

good friends can betray one another .



and yup , just when i was thinking about a person's principles .

i'm forced to come out with one within days .


ohwell , i hate decision-making

even though i alr had one in mind .


its time i find what i have deep inside me .



and so , i'm running out of cash .

$5 left .


i'm lazy , yet i need money .



a step at a time , or 3 fatal-steps ?

1:49am 13thDec

ok , and so ,

its my dad's birthday now . lol


but nvm , it'll take forever before he can read happy birthday ! ,

so i'll just save it (:



had a great day with the usual peeps !

even though Escape sucks , and lucky enough to see some bunch of people that i really don't wish to see .


but nvm , the fun was enough to cover everything .

tmr will be a day filled with torture i guess .

ohwell then -.-



sians , its time to source for money again .

zz , i hate money to the core .


just a crash-ed crush .

3:00am 12thDec

and so .

another birthday celebration going on later -.-


nvm then , i'll have fun , i believe ?


happy belated birthday jacky !

happy birthday esther !


and yup , the paper sucks ,

sakae sushi buffet rocks (:


and so , visited jazz pub with the other classmates .

yup , usual stuffs then .



a happier life.

1:27am 11thDec

ohwell .

spent 2nights at zh's house .


tried to study for awhile ,

nvm then , since its alr the last paper .


and yup .

the papers i finished so far don't seem positive to me .

probably i shud worry about it after 2weeks of term break .


and yup ,

i'm alr thinking what shud i do during this holiday .

with the following scenarios :


December is a horrible month , with alot of birthdays !

Probably i'll need to handle many time-consuming activities , like looking for the agent which haven't call me since months ago , zz


probably , i shud not work .




somehow , the plan did worked out .

and it reminds me of logic gates , though Dfund's over alr .

its like , when u have 2 positive inputs .

the output shows a 'x' .

shall nt explain further then (:



thus , i gave up / -.-

12:46am 8thDec

and yup .

studied for awhile at KFC with wandi today .


was not that efficient due to the short time but ,

since i'm near to finishing , it doesn't matters .


somehow i sacrificed Dfund today .

when i'm supposed to do Dfund and Emaths today .


nvm then .

i'll need to find a proper place to study tmr .

a place good enuf for me to chiong everything .



sians lor ,

1 last day before maths paper .



i'm envious laaaa TT

1:30am 7thDec

and so , was woken up by some christians knocking on my door in the early afternoon.
lucky they gave me a loaf of bread .

if not the next thing they might probably receive from me is some negative stuffs . LOL

nah , that guy was a schoolmate of mine , but somehow i realise only 1minute after he left my doorstep , ohwell.


and so , went back to school and studied with the others .

was quite effective la . lols

at least i cleared some doubts lor .


and so , went to do some shopping ard TM since i didn't felt like going home at 5pm ? . lol

went huichen's hse after that to study a lil' bit more .

and my conclusion for today will be , give up on those problem solving questions .

and yup , i shud thank teacher huichen too (: , TerimaKasih.

i know ur reading this , hahahas


and probably , joining wandi to study tmr then . (:


yawns .


sometimes , its hard to convince oneself .

12:43am 6thDec

ok . a fine day (:


everything was kinda successful in school for today ,

probably cos i attended 2hours of lesson only ? . zz


probably the exciting part of the day will be , climbing up some rooftop around the sports complex -.-

in short , the ball just went up the roof somehow , and landed at the other side of the roof .



and yup , bballed for awhile with the usuals and got free sun-tanning and slightly overcook-ed. lols

time to study agn i guess ?



appeared and gone ; ohwell .

12:29am 5thDec

just days before term test for now .


and sad to say , i'm still not very motivated to start studying -.-

maybe , i've lost the eagerness to do well alr , lols


nvm then , if its supposed to come , it will .

i'll just force myself for the time being .


probably a bad night , losing 2 dota games in a row .

its time i tell myself , maybe -random ain't meant for me . lols


tmr will be a pretty short day . lols

so maybe i shud convince myself to go bball with the others despite the chances of raining is quite high -.-



by right , i shud be studying now ,

but since i touched dota , studying won't be efficient .

its time i tell myself , dota can wait , not the term test -.-


maybe , i shud go continue studying , since i'm full of energy now (had 2 bananas earlier on) =x



i gave up .

12:41am 4thDec

and so , a pretty long day today .

spent with my mum .


got a new SE phone .

somehow getting a new phone doesn't excite me anymore , unlike in the past .

when i can meddle with the phone whole day long ,

and probably its the very first time i let my new handset to charge for full 8 hours . lol


and so , i got a T700 .

its good enuf for me i believe .

and the bass thingy rocks !




my studying mood has yet to come , and its like just days before exams ? -.-


probably i won't do well this time .

too late to chiong anyway .

i know i won't be able to make it .. ohwell


and yup .

finally bought my deodorant perfume today ,

and also a uber random t-shirt . lols


in short , my wishlist for the other day was almost completed . lols


now , i just need 1 last thing , the motivation !


the motivation to start ,

11:59pm 2ndDec

and so , its a good and bad day .


good as in , misunderstandings being cleared .

bad as in , its a freaking long and tiring day .


and so , went golden mile with zh for his bus tickets .

visited bugis abit too late to check out the hp availiable .


i guess i've got a phone in mind alr , although it ain't very good , but good enuf for me (: , wahhahaas



hopefully , i'll get a new hp tmr (: hahahas .


and also maybe more ppl will sms me , hahahas !

ok,i'm thinking too much .


its time to give up ,

12:02am 2ndDec

ohwell .

another day passed .

filled with disgusted sights .


shall not elaborate more then .

and yup , just checked the prices online for those phones .

and seriously , i think that $100voucher is kinda useless .


i can't really get a phone that i want . lols

but nvm , its time i learn to get something practical .

perhaps it's time i change my wishlist too .


hahahahahas .




probably , i'll do badly for the 2 test(s) today . zz

somehow luck was with me during Dfund , but i hope it'll stay until all results for term test shown .

and so , i'm gonna screw up for tmr's CDS as well . zz


its time for me to not waste any more time .

gtg then (:



exposed =x ; wtf is the world coming to ?

12:50am 1stDec

out of nowhere , comes December -.-


and so , studying session wasn't that efficeint today , compared to SAT .

and i don't really understand Dfund anyway -.-


ohwell , 1 last weekend left then .



the day kinda sucked partly due to the lousy weather .

and maybe i was too tired -.-


i think , soon i'll not waste any more money on pub and all this .

at least for this week .

i dun feel right using money not of my own .

its time i remind myself things like this agn .


maybe its time i go (:


no.1 in the Hate-list !

12:18am 30thNov

lols , what a weekend spent -.- not very wisely . lols

k la , maybe it is , since term test will be less than 2weeks away .


ok , so a new place for studying will be Kallang (:

at least its convenient for me , except for the weather and some walking distance .


probably going back there to wrap up Dfund .

and maybe i shud consider maths also , maybe .



and so , financial crisis heading my way agn .

maybe , i'll start to restrict myself from having more than $15 in my wallet .


a result from last night ,

$2o plus in my wallet , 3hours later , $0


ok, no comments laa . lols


with the list of things i feel like buying , i need to save up , and probably start working -.-


DB deodorant , $11

BreatheRight , $9

a new handset , $200 atleast




for now at least -.-


and so , i'm gonna pity someone that needs to go thru the 18stagesOFhell since ytd and probably until next week , lols .




yawns * , maybe its time to go .



maybe i'm not suited for .

2:26am 29thNov

lols , just reached home not long ago .


ohwell , study time for tmr then (:

and probably that'll make my weekend . lol


and yup , had some exercise finally . lols


bball-ed in the afternoon , and went pub ,meanwhile pangseh-ed someone again, lol



lols , somehow i hurt someone's feelings on friday morning .

I'm sorry C.A.K ,

i dun mean it alright . ):


ohwell ,

i shud learn more about appreciation . lols


perhaps turning gay is one of those favourable choice of those being single for too long . random


somehow i just hate how things are going on now around me .

i've got nothing to say alr . zz


its not worth it , thats dumb .

12:34am 28thNov

and finally , its the end of the month , and the 2nd time i repost this -.-


ohwell , a short day i had i guess .


tmr will be fun , i hope .

i just hope it doesn't rains .


and yup , just returned home not long ago with those usual peeps .


miraculously , i passed maths . lol


after tmr , maybe its time to study .

time-table for termtests are out alr !

9th,10th and 11th .


2weeks break for me to maybe work ?.

or just slack around . lol

and soon i'll need to change a new phone ,

and hopefully i can bring someone along with me to the fireworks , but seriously not CAK . lols

nah , i dun mind going with friends .

its too late i guess .


time to go (:



thelaststand , your decision .

1:22am 27thNov

despite telling myself not to even give a damn about things around me , i can't seem to do so .

for once , i think the things happenning around me is getting ridiculous .

sometimes , maybe we shud really take a look at the price we paid for things we get back ,

is it worth that value ? , seriously .


ohwell , was enjoying myself at the pub agn . lols


and so , having this kind of life , i'm prepared to fail my term test .

lols ,


so , maybe i shud lead a not-so-happy life .


probably , given the rate of retarded-ness , i'd be affected as well soon .



ohwell , my surrounding sucks .

i'm full of complaints everyday , and i never get sick of complaining the same thing .

maybe its like the topic : Marketing .

that topic's big , to the extent there's actually a diploma for Marketing .

i'm trying to say , the reason why i dun get sick of complaining is , because the problem is always big and changes all the time , despite the problems falling under the same category .

morons !.


time to sleep (:


i hope my patience will grow ,

12:02am 26thNov

argh fuck ,

blogger sucks , and now i need to retype everything !


ohwell , in short .

i'm disappointed , or rather i regretted my decision

from what i'm seeing now and then


but nvm ,

its time for me to be more concerned about myself than someone else which i can't seem to bother at all usually .


yup , probably 2 more weekends before term test .

time to chiong , zz

probably too late la .


tmr sure kana fcuk by that maths tutor liao . lols

oh fuck , lucky blogger gt this autosave thing .

my internet just crashed agn -.- fuck

wads wrong with the connection man !


zzz , my internet just crashed AGAIN !


just let me finish this alright -.-



My Priority ; the FCMI(s)

12:06am 25thNov

sians laa ! .

of all times , one friend of mine came to sms abt see-ing my ex around . lols


maybe its a message telling me : serve you right for ditching someone who once appreciated ur existence , muahahahaha ! .


ok, thats dumb .


but yea , its 100% that someone won't go watch fireworks with me , for 2years in a row . ohwell


how i wish it'll be slightly different for this year , zz


omg , i just received a email good enuf for me to smile ((: .

finally , woots !


and yea , somehow it killed my idea of not being able to watch the fireworks with someone . ((:




and after tmr (: , i'll be even happier ,

cos it'll be the end of my CDS for the week ((:


alright then , perhaps its time for me to do a lil bit of stuffs before i sleep agn . lols


cyas peeps !



dumb and bitchy , yet so happy .

12:14am 24thNov

so fast , its nearing the end of Nov alr .


which means ,

its time to study ,

its time i start to plan wad to do for my 2weeks break ,




sian la , i'm uber sian nw , cos i rmb-ed that , i wanted someone to go watch fireworks with me this year .

and , its just 1month away TT .


somehow , leonard managed to break me some news which give me a (: for today .

thanks bro (:


and yup , i guess i'll need to wait until next year , or maybe years later before i can go watch fireworks with someone again. zz

sian1/2 lor .


ohwell , was sian to the extent , i installed gunbound in my laptop . lol



tmr's monday agn -.- and the day after it will suck , zz


nothing much to add on ,

for now i just wish that , someone will go fireworks with me this year .

someone which i had in mind of cos , lol



how i wish , those unwanted memories .

12:39am 23thNov

i'm feeling super duper sian since ytd night and for sure , nothing seems to help . lols


wasn't at home last night , missed last bus agn -.-

visited jazz pub agn . lols

with the usuals and doing the usual stuffs .

somehow i realised , my recent flu problem ain't caused by flu , but actually something else . lol



ohhwell , feeling kinda ~ now .

i dunno how to describe that feeling , but somehow , it sucks .

perhaps only one or two knew wads the cause of it , zz


sian la , now i've got the feeling like i just _e_lo_t_f_o_e .

ohwell , just when i feel like getting a change in my life , nvm then .


sians la , things like this just affects my mood ,

luckily someone else entertaining that DJJ . lol



sians . i've got no comments for my feelings nw . lols

and i dunno what else more to say .



and yea , reminds me of some idiots around me .

i wonder why , that person gotta be like ,

just when i'm trying my best to change my opinion of that bunch of idiots

another living soul watching tells me about the negative things agn , when i'm trying my best to close one eye .


and of cos , everything goes back to zero .

with those disappointing things i see around , ohwell .

soon , i'll just leave my hands off all this things that doesn't concern me and probably make myself someone happier ,

at least happier than i am nw , with the current bunch of e-diots .


i'm envious ; that helplessness

11:47pm 20thNov

seems that , thurs seems fine to me , for this week .


and yup , maths screwed .


after this week's training , its study time !


sian lo, my running nose ain't recovering .

and it was a torture during some lessons , when the room is uber cold -.- brainfreeze in short . lol



and yup , finally i'm feeling better for that long awaited feeling . lols

but i doubt it'll even work out , i'll see how things goes .


misunderstandings occurred on me for the day , but i managed to see through everything in awhile's time , and so , it made me know more about a person . lols


and so , was studying halfway , when i started doing my part-time online job again . lols
it was a great break , and probably i can study also meanwhile . lol


hopefully i've been a great help la Wandi ,

and maybe that DJJ also . lols



i hope , everything will be within my imagination

11:34pm 19thNov

i'm KO'd .


maybe too much FightNights and a hectic flu-ish week .


and yup , my flu hasn't recover , and i dunno how am i gonna do maths quiz tmr .


sians lor .

i can't even do maths properly now . lols



and so , the day was kinda short one , and a troublesome one ,

i got my atm card back , finally -.-


and so , tmr will be another troublesome day .

with all the dumb labs and so .


thats all for this boring post i guess ?. lol


ohya , not yet . lols


somehow , my feelings and thoughts for a particular matter changed again .

perhaps , it wasn't as complicated ?, but rather a simple thing that not many possesses .



my hopes were high , and its too late now .

8:55pm 18thNov

the flu virus seem to like me alot ,

and somehow it decided to walk back into me again .


yup , for once i thot i can concentrate on those quizzes from tonight onwards .


i'm screwed i guess ?. LOL


at least , the horrible monday and tuesday ended .



and so , today's kinda fine i guess .


except for the part we're marked late for that PSPS tutorial , shitty crap .



its time i buck up , and not let my things be affected .


thus i'll need a fine rest (: LOL


maybe after doing all my stuffs la . zz



how i wish , everything will be successful .

12:11am 18Nov

and so , another dreadful start to the week .


realised that , i've waste my weekends away .

its time to start studying for those uber-complicated things like Dfund and Air-con .


and i guess , its time to stop going saturday trainings .


at least for today , the usual monday blues were much suppressed ,

(:

at least ,i've updated my bankbook and put in the $20 which was part of operation S&S .


and i just rmb , i'm supposed to go shopping ytd ,

but lucky enuf , i'm borrowing a bag from zhihao to stand in awhile .

and probably a relieve to those heavy and inconvenient things i have with me all the time .


and also , its time i change to a proper sneaker also , so as to solve those sweatyfeet problems and all this .


well , i'll need to have a successful Operation S&S before i can get all this .


so ya , maybe christmas then . lol



if its meant to happen , it will

1:31am 17thNov

lols , just back from prata with another friend .


a good relaxation for me , after coming back from orchard and realise tmr's another dreadful start .



and yup , went around orchard today , with those usual clique .

somehow it made me rofl , whenever i'm with them . lols


perhaps this weekend ain't well-spent , missed training and wasted some money . zz


alright then , maybe i shud go collect my atm card early morning tmr . zz

sians lor , seeing situations around nw ,

it just disappoints me more and more .



forget it then , if its meant to be this way .



and someone will be taken over soon . lols

missed the tokcok session with that 'someone' agn , sians ~

no fate ,

1:05am 16thNov

and so , wasted another saturday .


missed the training also due to some very dumb reasons -.-

but ohwell , friday night was well-spent at the pub .

at least i didn't waste much of my time there .


and yup , stayed over at zhihao's place .

as i had no intention of going home alr . hahahas


sians la . sometimes when i think of how dumb a person can get .

i just feel like shaking my head ,

probably thats why my neck ain't feeling comfortable since last week


and i rmb saying 'this' last year too before my 'O's .

stupidity is overwhelming me !


and yup , grabbed a great opportunity today .

its up to me now if i cherish it or not .


alright , gtg i guess . lol



i'm aimless now

11:37pm 13thNov

and so , CCN day tmr .lols


hopefully we'll all see profit , hopefully . lols


kacang-puteh might be a good idea , but might not be a selling one .


and so , today kinda sucked , since the start of school ,

probably the worst thing that happened to me , was when i completed my CADS ,

somehow , i just went off awhile and that darn com went haywire ,

and just 1 click of un-do , i bid farewell to my 1hour plus effort ,


shud have expected it coming huh . lol

too bad then -



and so , another night not crapping with someone again , sians la .


hopefully , tmr will be a better day , and probably a luckier one for wandi (:



somehow , it affects me ,

but i'll still try my best to change my opinion .

1:49am 13thNov

and so , another day passed -.-


alright , a very slack-y wednesday for me at least (:


and so , decided to visit the pub with the rest of them ,

i guess , its time i find something to do at the pub . lol

if not , bad habits will start coming out again .


some new thoughts entered my head though , and i'm seriously thinking through .


perhaps , or probably , wad i had done is something wrong ,

sometimes , i just need to be more responsible .

and i'm becoming damn selfish by selling my personal thoughts or opinions to others .



thanks to the few that wakes me up about my own idea ,


and from now on , i should be more responsible in things i do or say .

and not think that , whatever i say or do , will not affect the others as its my own problem , not yours .





sians lor , failed to msn with someone agn la -.-


i hope its not too late , for me to set some examples .

10:57pm 11thNov

and so , finally the dreadful day ended , with the expected lousy endings of cos -.-


sians lor , lectures were as un-understandable as ever .

just visited that HeyGorgeous! website and laughed at some bhb ppl with that dajiejie . lols


saw 1 guy from my course one la . damn funny , 0votes . LOL


perhaps we shud stop laughing at ppl , but the 'chiobus' section kinda disappointing lahs , zz .

no comments for HeyGorgeous! anymore . lol


and yup , nothing much more to add alr i guess ?

hopefully , i'll get my contact lens tmr under my budget (: hopefully


and so , Operation S&S was a failure for today . zz

wasted much of my money on KFC meal . zz

time to go i guess (:

hoping that tmr will be a better day ,



rest well la you !

12:46am 11thNov

a special day i guess ? 11/11 . hahas


and yup , the day i dread the most to come for this week as well .


CDS tutorial will be killer for tmr i guess .

finding teammates in a class filled with the utmost impossible teammates , probably only that chiobu dajie reading this will understand -.-



and so , the day somehow sucked since the start ,

and luckily it lasted for like 1/3 of the day , i guess ?


soon after , the day became slightly better .


and that dajiejie , sick until cannot come online sia -.-

which probably forced me to watch the last episode of HotShot . lol

a dumb ending i guess -.-


but in short , not crapping with her just doesn't make my day .

but i rmb not crapping with her for like 4days in a row ? =x lol

hope she gets well soon yea !



probably its time i end this post ,

and not forgetting , the first day of Operation S&S was a huge success . (:

good start , but will it last ?. lol



i'll try my best to forgive everything ; everything u had done to my friend .

10:50pm 9thNov

and so , rotted another day away at home .

a good day for me to rest this restless soul of mine .

and a good day to cover up things that needs to be done by the week .




probably nothing much to elaborate abt how i spent my day at home right ?. lol

probably the only thing left undone is ,

finish downloading my animes and collecting my atm card .


operation scrimp and save will commence from tmr .

hopefully it'll be a success -.- at least enuf to cover up my $70/mth .


not forgetting that i'll be expecting a n81 by christmas -.-



or probably something around there ?


time to end this and start doing my things again i guess ?. hahas

its monday again , zz


perhaps , ?

2:34am 9thNov

lols , didn't blogged for days .


and so yea , the past few days had been some hateful one .


mainly due to some particular reasons that lies with a particular person la .

and nw , i'm trying to think why didn't i blog on thurs , but somehow i can't rmb , so forget it then -.-


went to some dumb bazaar that seriously turns me off .

perhaps , i can't have a girlfriends that goes shopping all the time , and very particular abt brands . zz




somehow , i managed to know more about others and maybe a lil more about myself thru certain incidents that involves 3 and affect over 10 .

some should get it .


its pretty dumb la , it actually lets me finish around 20 __g_ in 2 different days .


so , finally a physical workout for me today at training .

the attendance sucked , but well , i'm being tortured .

and i still believe , whatever that dun kills me , will only make me stronger (:



out of random-ness , i would like to give myself some space to start my little criticism about this new things i face in life .

especially since November comes


why must , everyone , or maybe some , put on a false front .

acting like as if its nothing , but tries to keep their cool and still ask .

why do stuffs , thats against people's will ?

why must , everything be so fake .?

i'd rather , every ugly things be shown to me , than seeing those ugly things with my own eyes , and seeing them at places i dun expect things like that to exist .

'what purpose or motive are u having in ur mind ?' , 'what are you going to do next ?'


these are probably what everyone's thinking .

at least for my case , its true .


and now i wonder , if there's such a need for things like this .

time changes things , and things changes over time .

its 2 different things .

i just hope , i'll not be forced to classify the things that i see now , as backstabbing .






and i miss you la ! . i'll talk to you asap k ?. hahas (:



uber-random

7:51pm 6thNov

everyone's down ,

soon it'll be me . lol


a big flu heading towards me now . lol


i guess , probably there goes the weekend .




school sucked as usual .

i think my perception since last night had changed again .


i'm not gonna say it here anyway , so

it's time i go off i guess (:


all this is so behind-the-scenes ,

1:43am 6thNov

ohwell ,

some brand new dramtic day i guess ?

no comments on the drama , and i just hope everything becomes normal again .


it hurts to see scenarios like that , seriously .

i know all of ur are reading this ,

i only wish to say ,

do whatever that pleases you , so long as you don't regret it .

yup , this applies to everyone , directly or indirectly



probably , i've just contradicted myself again .

i've regretted saying sorry for things i've done .


probably , if i didn't apologise , things would have been different , at the cost of me being the villian .


nothing much more for today .

hopefully everyone gets wad i'm driving to , hopefully .



fucking un-intelligent ; if only something gets it -

10:10pm 4thNov

and so , another horrible day passed -.-



was late again , but since it was the un-understandable lecture , i dun mind giving it a miss .


and yup , my hp's alarm clock failed me again -.-

probably , its time i find money to do my stuffs .


somehow i find money hard to save . lols

but i've come up with a new plan alr .

i shall call it :Plan Scrimp & Save . lol


reminds me of MOE .

seriously , i'll fail the subject horribly i guess -.- with those *normal* classmates of mine -.-

i doubt i'll be even willing to meet them up for group work or discussion -.- seriously .



somehow , i will need to choose my CDS properly the next semester .

zzz . i hate this to the core .



opinion changed , despite the lousy one i already had .

1:17am 4thNov

omg , i can finally blog after doing some last min slides

which really wasted my time as pauline covered them all when i was just ending one part , and she finished all alr -.-

damn zai lor -.-


and so , the day sucks .

lol . woke up late agn -.- and eventually missed that DFund lecture when i was only 15mins late , and the whole lecture hall was filled .

and i seriously had no intentions of sitting in front Arul .


and so , faced those horrible labs and tutorials .

soon its CADS again ! .

and somehow i'm sick of getting all those help alr .

i shall leave out my psp soon . seriously .


and yup , MOE lecture's boring but interesting .


tmr will yet be another long day , and thats all for my Life! .

Thanks for tuning in to Neon-Inc.BS.com ! Good Night ! (:


ok , a rather lame ending , nvm .

and so , dramatic things seem to happen around me all the time .

years ago it used to be me , and now its some other cases -.-


hopefully , no one and nobody will get affected .

and thats the very last thing i can wish for .


when things start to turn politics , u'll see all the true colours .


lols , missed my tokcok session with that DJJ laa -.- super sian


the monday blues.

10:42pm 2ndNov

and yup , rotted at home again due to the bad weather . lol


and yea , super bored la at home ,

feeling kinda sick also . zz


and yup , weekend coming to an end again -.-

just finished DFund tutorial just now .

and my conclusion is : arul will not help .


logic gates are just so chim , its beyond my current knowledge , lols


and yup , probably sem1.2 will be a killer ,

for me i guess ?. hahahas


even though Air-con and Hydraulics are all open book exams , understanding how the graph works alone is a headache -.-


and not talking abt CADS -.-


ohwell , i shall not remind myself of schoolwork anymore . lol


my aim now is to , save up .


seriously , i understand now why people wish for more days in a week .



and only until now , i've realised i'm insulting myself all along by telling others i had 2gf before .

from now on , it'll always be 1 .

an horrible insult to me , seriously .



what is this coming to?

3:09am 2ndNov

lols .

its Nov already !

and yup , 2ndNov is my younger bro's big day (:

Happy Birthday ! if u happen to chance upon this

and so , yaa

skipped training today .

seriously down with fatigue and i slept till late evening -.-


had quite some fun on Halloween's Eve in the pub .
had some great talks too

perhaps i shud visit there more often ? hahas




and so , took wandi's new bike to school .

with my precious laptop on my lap . lol

nice jerking experience i had . seriously .


but 1 bad thing probably will be that i can't afford to fall asleep on his bike -.-


and so , friday somehow sucked .




tmr's group meeting cancelled as well .

so probably i'll just stay at home and rot again cos i'm seriously broke nw

sians ,



and now , i'm still making some decisions though .

decisions that will make me give up my relaxing times and in exchange for horrible or boring times .

and the root of all problems , my dumb time-table .

ok , i shouldn't be complaining by now ./i can only adapt


worse comes to worse , i'll just sqeeze time , which i see it being possible .


sometimes , it just can't be shared no matter what.

8:43pm 30thOct

the earliest day i've ever blogged at .

feeling super weary now , in another words i'm just shag -.-

i can even fall asleep while sitting down at my own home . omg


and yup , i've gotta admit , thurs will be a more challenging day compared to any .

and probably easier if i can do CADS without any obstacles -.-


and yup , i'm even more tired without my atm card with me now ,

and my eyesight is failing me terribly .

its either , i get a proper spec and put it on for life .

or contact lens to give me proper eyesight at times only -.-


there's pros and cons for me getting both permanent and temporary solutions .

and probably one of the cons will be for me to look around at prettyfaces all the time .

but another good thing will be that , i won't need to worry if the person right in front of me is a friend or stranger , and also maybe not to worry which direction will the bball land when playing at night .

it'll save me many awkward occasions too .

but prolly no one will recognise me with my specs . lol


maybe its time for some suggestions since it'll be sometime before i'll go collect my atm card .


and so , a lecture-less thursday really sucks .

somehow everything seems retarded to me . lol


and soon the 2nd week will pass .

zz -.- that's neither fast nor slow .



tired and down

9:12pm 29thOct

ohwell .


received some bad news in the family .


shall not mention it here , but yea , i've got no comments but only the sorry emotions i have for those who were affected .



alright , and so , the day somehow sucked and bored me out .

for some reason which i dunno why , i didn't felt like going home .


perhaps i sensed the news alr ? -.-


tmr will be another day i dun expect to come , and also many others that will soon tag along day after .

and i believe more bad news will come one after another ?

i just hope it doesn't happens (: seriously
enough of lousy things for today's post then -



and so , perhaps the only good thing is that many pretty faces today around . lol



the unexpected ; if only it'll some positive stuffs ...

9:34pm 28thOct

hahas , i bet you've lost when u see this post , dajiejie ! , hahahas


alright , a pretty dumb start for a new post -.-

and yup , school still sucks cos ,

i overslept -.-

thus i had to rush like dog like last week -.-



and as usual ,i can't seem to understand that Dr. Ven -.-

he looks like the villian in Spiderman , i think Dr.Octo ? or something like that . lol


and yup , i'm considering to work at pizza hut at Wandi's area .


more convenient, and probably lesser things to do , hahahas !


and i need money too ,though the pay's lesser by around 15% ?

thus i won't be spending much time in bball anymore , as i realised money will be something more important than anything -.- seriously .


and yup , alot of schoolwork to be done as of today .

and somehow it sucks . zz

i've got no comments about all those craps , zz




this sucks

11:45pm 27thOct

and so , rotted another day away .

was asked to go out , but pangseh-ed people agn .

busy with my psp and hamsters (:


maybe every alternate week , the weekend shud be extended to 3days -.- lol


and ya , had the sudden urged to ask about something alr last night , but somehow my mission failed . lol


sians la , i somehow hate this feeling .

if there's like some clues to find that _y__a__y . i'll feel much better la ,

but i'm thinking too many steps ahead ,

and often end up in the drain as told by DJJ -.-


another long day tmr -.- shag .

and yup , i've came to a decision alr , i need to start working on sunday (:

my income is super low now ,
wadever thats given to me is never enuf -.- and i hate it .



and perhaps i made the wrong choice by going bball .

sians -.- another chance for backtrack



extra time , and extra chance

12:18am 27thOct

and so , another tiring day it is . zz

thanks to that torturous training ytd , my muscles are torturing me as well .

but somehow i like this teeth-gritting feeling . hahahahs


and so , met rafi for some shopping today .

finally bought a proper covered shoe for my lab , and prolly a shirt to go with my black skinny which i selfom find clothes to go with .


alright i continued from here again like 45mins later ?. lol

and ya , i just rmb-ed im blogging though . zz


and so , my mum broke me a news that my aunt's heartless husband passed away ,

had those mixed feelings as i was feeling kinda sad for my aunt and cousin , and i was like thinking , how can he get away with death when he did so many stuffs .

but perhaps dying alone ,at somehwere with no help like hospital , and somewhere with no one around like his own home .



and nw im competing with someone whether who finish blogging first , as usual . lols


and yup , happy DEEPAVALI tmr for peeps (:

and happy sleeping for me ((: X 2


lols , the following is not as of what one may think



i hate this feeling , seriously

1:44am 26thOct

lols , and here comes the end of the month .


had a bbq session with some classmates .

not bad lah , was very fun and made some friends .

and perhaps much more stuffs like those sharings and drinking made the bbq much better .

and ya , ended the bbq with many chicken wings and prawns left -.- wad a waste

but i spotted something (: _y__a__y - thats wad i found

too bad i've wasted it ):


and so , went home for a short sleep of 5-6 hours -.- and headed to hell

it was hell because .

-just when i stepped into the mrt , my stomach started growling , not hungry , but perhaps its caused by some semi-uncooked chicken chops -.-

-the cleanest toilet i can think of is at dhoby exchange -.- and thus i tahan-ed for like 6-10mins ?

-the training was torturous but somehow it didn't kill me (:


and ya , speaking of training -.-

i'm getting bored la , everytime got disputes one -.-

like scattered sand la . zz



and yea , the following will be complicated /


missed you

8:53pm 23rdOct

sians , there goes another day in school

and i'm terribly shag nw .


i'm sure i can't work anymore having this kind of shitty time-table .


the fatigue from monday and tuesday drags till wed .

when its one of the days i can actually work .

and if i dun rest properly on wed , all the fatigue gained will all be thrown to thurs , and i will only get to rest properly on fri .

however if i work on friday again ,

prolly i'll get too tired to even go training on saturday -.-


ok , wy's time-table sucks !


and ya , i'm super tired nw , thus im blogging alr at this time .


and so , friendly with pinoys postponed to next week (:

but training resumes ):

just when i thought i can go eat some nice food in the annual temple dinner -.- aww



i guess the only thing i enjoyed was jannah's dramatic holiday -.- seriously . lol


hahs , i won you !

11:54pm 22ndOct

ohwell , another day passed .

and so , school was boring~ as usual -.- zz



and so , was lucky enuf to go home with that dajiejie . lols

tyco shit -.-


and yup , it reminds me of all the wierd stuffs i encountered today .

shall not elaborate much , but those encounters were ,

a littleboy in bus and some stupid grins -.-


and luckily , the bbq was changed to friday instead of sat ((:

gonna have fun i guess . WOOTS !

however , tmr will be another boring and long day -.- aww .


sometimes i just can't explain the new things i'm experiencing since school starts like 3days ago -.-

and not even a week passed . zz


fated ? (:

10:02pm 21stOct

lols , im blogging kinda early today .

cos im kind atired alr , hahas



alright , and so i felt kinda better today .

overslept la -.- woke up at 9 lor .

dun even got time wax la . omg -.-


and then for once my mum bought me breakfast lor , and so must gorge my fav char kway teow mee .. zz

and then chiong to school to attend the dumb maths lecture conducted by that white indian lecturer -.-


i can't understand him for nuts -.- seriously .

and so , ya .

kinda screw-ed up alr since morning . lol


and not to mention many other new subjects i'm facing -.-

bunch of nightmares -.-

my CDS is the worst thing -.-

i shall not elaborate on those ppl i faced during the tutorials .

thank god that tutorial ended early . seriously -.-


and that marks the end of my day ((:



something will brighten up

10:30pm 20thOct

ohwell .

a new day with a bad start i guess . lol


a bad day for fere i guess , leonard broke his phone .

into like 2 piece ? zz


and so , lessons sucked .

DFund sounds so chim , thanks to those 'made-in-india' accent .

some computer subject which i had even forgotten the name of that subject , sounds uber chim -.-

and lastly MOE , my so called a non-engineering CDS in engine school -.- no comments .

the things shown to me just throws me off my seat .

thats what we call 'chimonology' i guess -.-



i'm affected .

11:14pm 19thOct

and so , the last day before my semester starts .

this feeling is so WTF !



and yup , i'm only looking forward to eating noodles with leonard -.- and nothing else .


sibei sian , i hope the first day dun rain .

even if rain , at least wait till i get a comfy spot in the bus so i can start sleeping again (:


sian la , intended to do some last min shopping today .

but due to the weather -.- ohwell .


and i'm hungry again -.- zz


and i seriously cannot describe how i dread school reopening , crap .




a division , awaiting for a new addition

2:32am 19thOct

ohwell , another day of trainings -.-


and thus , it marks the end of the holidays .

and hopefully a great start to a new semester -.-


so , 1 last week before meeting the pinoys .

and somehow , i guess i rmb-ed how i used to pull fast-breaks when i was in school team training and when i was playing outside .

and this probably means i'm getting back some form . ((:


and at least i heard some positive things today , hahahahs

but , perhaps too many internal problems in the team la -.-

things that i didn't expect will happen . ohwell -



and thus im blogging this early cos , im really tired nw . lols

but i've got many things to say lor today . lols

ya , that dajiejie got kicked out from MSN , so i can't really talk to her already i guess ?. hahas

cos prolly tmr we wouldn't see each other online . lol

and , when school reopens , worse -.-


and thus , i'll be giving up daily dota and tok-cok sessions with that dajiejie from monday onwards .


kinda bu she de but i guess bo bian la hor ?. lols


and i guess , i didn't accomplish many things during this holiday lor .

like visiting those unseen areas of Singapore with Rafi , JB trip with Rafi and maybe some K sessions with my secondary school friends and ex-colleagues .



too bad la , i rotted at home too much . lols


k la , perhaps its time i end this post . hahahas

and after finish watching Shippuden ep80 .

somehow , it means a new start to everything , since Asuma died ?. and the end of my holidays -.-


hahas , i'm too into anime -.-


a new start , to another season of my boring life

3:41am 18thOct

alright . just finished the tok-cok session with that dajiejie . lols

and also finished eating a pack of instant noodles =x .


and so , finally went shopping today , finally -.-


and yea , seen many interesting ppl along bugis too . lol

guess i got nothing much to elaborate also la ,

2 more days to the end of holidays -.- omg



and so , another torturous day tmr .

training -.- ohwell , whatever that does not kill me , will only make me stronger . (:

a good way to console myself . hahas


i just hope its the latter -.-

and i still hate my time-table , no comments



i'll miss your craps for sure

2:36am 17thOct

ohwell .

was awaken , see-ing some miss calls and sms .

and so as usual , i ignored those miss calls =x oops



yea , saw that dajiejie's sms -.-

pretty bad news for a late morning though


it regards the freaking new time-table -.-

and for once i thot its just some sort of prank or wad .

mon and tues end at 8pm (:

no comments.


and so , that means i won't be able to bball with those tp ppl anymore -.-

and that dajiejie , although her time-table less packed -.- but more screw-ed up ,

imagine she have to cut urself into 2 .

and attend 2 lectures at a go .

for a continuos period of ard 2hours . lol


and ya , we won't be able to meet in the morning too (:

when she starts at 9 , i'll start later ,

when i start at 9 , prolly she's sleeping at home -.-


wtf siol , i tot HTM supposed to be more hectic than IBT ?.


and for that dumb CDS thing , lucky angeline same CDS as me .

so i dun really have to find the way myself (: and thus able to sleepwalk



so in conclusion ,screw-ed up is the only term used to describe my time-table . zz



and yup , before i received the bad news -.- i had a very very sweet dream ((:

perhaps the better things come first ?

and ya , due to its over-dramatic scenario .

i shall keep the dream to myself and probably someone else who'll be reading this post in the day (: nobody will understand this . lol



how i wish the dream don't come true ..

2:25am 16thOct

and so ,

woke up in the morning for bball , finally . lol


and yup , met anson after so long .

watch-ed hua pi .


seriously i got nothing much to add on liao la . lols


my posts are getting more and more boring laa ~

sian lor , tmr prolly need to go down orchard again for those buffets .

and there goes my money -.- zz



shall see about it then -.-

and time-table will be out tmr . zzz

which means the thing that i dread the most will come again .

school re-opening -.-


i shall not elaborate on why i dread school . zz




the undescripable 'zzz's

2:44am 15thOct

ohwell . and so another day ended (:

2and1/2 months more to the end of year .

which is , pretty fast ?.

but its actually kinda slow though .


January till April was something like , pure rotting ?.

ok la , i was working at that point of time .

aiya dun care liao la , anyway it had already passed (:


and so , i guess , tmr will be another day spent with a secondary school classmate (:

and so , i can't avoid the fact that i'll need to spend money again in the following 3days . sian ~




somehow i'm reminded about , how i think about those lifeless Freindster user .

zz .


can someone tell me wads with the 'view and run' thingy ?. lol

it sometime seems to me like its 'hit-and-run' , when the person got crashed and died horribly , with the driver scot-free . no-link -.-

i've alr thot of some scenarios , when ppl get jeck-ed in their face when they give me such comments .


perhaps its a way , to give a good start , so that 'friends' will start talking to each other using the comments again =.= i guess ?



what is this ?

3:27am 14thOct

ohwell . another passed .

and almost 1/2 of October gone ,

and soon it'll be 25thOct . lols


i can't say i'm excited about that freindly match , cos its with those pinoys -.-

somehow my ball shrinks after facing those china-ass ytd, and of cos when i think of facing those pinoys .

cos so far in bball , i've avoided all dirty tricks .

and for once ytd , i tried to tank some .

and yea , i get the feeling of it alr -.-

and prolly those pinoys will be much -.- worse .


but i know i will get over it , one way or another (: i hope


anyway i doubt i'll be facing them for long laa (: i'll be spending time on the bench more often .

cos im pretty sure i'm not well-prepared enough for them ,



and yup , work was kinda boring actually , but somehow it ended like a daily , or rather weekly routine .

and still suffering from those terrible backaches .

anyway , after tmr .

i'll just take some breaks before the next hell training starts -.-

at least it'll be hell for me la .


ohwell .



i dun feel right , thus i feel left

12:41am 13thOct

ohwell .

another day passed .

with some ultra-shag trainings of cos . hahas

woke up at 6plus la , just to go lakeside and torture myself -.-


k la , like i've always said , whatever that cannot kill you , will only make you stronger . (:


but somehow i'm like half-dead la after i reach home -.-


i guess i kana too much elbow blows when playing match with some china-ass .


and so , rotted at home as usual .

and 1 last week to go before school starts -.-



alright then , im sleepy .


i believe , ?

12:53am 12thOct

alright , training ended early for some birthday celebration today -.-

so ya , wasn't that strenous afterall


so probably i'll go another training tmr -.-

so that i'll be dead beat thus able to be a normal human being again (:

and not some nocturnal kid -.-



alright , and so

perhaps i should sleep soon .

hahas .


and , 1 last weekend before school starts (:



shopping soon i guess ?.



a new haircut , $23plus . don't ask me why

1:08am 11thOct

ohwell , what has the world some to ?


sian lor , totally spoilt mood when bballing just nw la .

thanks to some old mates .


was damn distracted lor -.- zz

somehow even the easiest attack ever was missed -.-


sian laaa !


whats wrong with me ?! whats the world coming to ?!



somehow i expected all this since i walked around boon keng before going AMK ,

which started from the unexpected trips , missing a bus133 and injuring my 3fingers even before i warm-ed up properly -.-

and yea , so can say that it was all expected -.-

i can't believe i was like praying not to meet anybody i dun wish to see when i bball -.-

sadly it happened , ohwell , since it had passed , why think so much ehs ?



and so tmr will be another scary day -.-

training taking 1/3 of it due to that heavy defeat last week .

and 2/3 the celebration -.-

shall not elaborate much on it , u should know about it if u should (:


i hope tmr will end fast . and a new week comes ,

which means that exactly 1 last week for me to enjoy before the holidays end -.-


ohwell .




a new addition to my jealousy list ; accept the fate -

3:02am 10thOct

and so , finally payout (:

spent a night at orchard area (:

and watched a dumb movie which i had forgotten the name -.-


afterall , its been long since i last spent my money (:



and ,

something's bothering me really bad .



and thanks to that dajiejie -.- i was saved for once .


perhaps its karma ?. lol



hopefully , everything will be successful tmr -.-


and i'm starting to dread saturday . seriously



a new inclusion to my fear list ; arigato dajiejie .

3:58am 8thOct

ohwell , and so another day past , having me rot in the house (:


sians , nothing much to blog laa -.-


and that dajiejie so fast offline pangseh me -.-



zzz .

and i'm too broke to even celebrate birthday for pauline and jannah . lols

sorry , if ur reading this particular post =x


yawns .



rotting snesation

4:16am 7thOct

and so fast , a week past October .


perhaps a good start for a monday ehs ?

worked for awhile just nw to kill sometime . and got the info that the payout will be 3days later -.-

and that probably means i can't go any of those outings -.-


ohwell .


got nothing much to blog abt ehs ?. lol


Bleach seems something interesting to watch . lols ,

and so , chiong-ed 12episodes of it alr . hahas


perhaps it'll help kill time (:


guess its time i go wait for my DJmax to download finish . hahahs ,



i'll try my best to

1:29am 6thOct

ohwell , rotted a day at home -.-

with all the mucleaches all way way down from my ass .



and so , did some thinking while trying to complete vice city in my psp .

a conclusion came for the day , somehow i doubt that conclusion will actually last long enough until i come up with another conclusion .


and so , when i thot i'll be sleeping fine last night , again , i can't seem to sleep .


and so , a brand new week coming up , with many things on schedule of cos .

im working on mon n wed .

so , hopefully outings with my secondary school friends will land on tues ?. but its unlikely to happen . lol

and also , some birthday celebrations going on too -.-


holyshit ! time management !


and so , i guess i'll try to not work on wed (:

keyword : try


and now , i'm considering if i shud cut hair soon .

my fringe is killing me in dota ! zz

and soon , bball as well . lol


speaking of bball , i guess i need to go back to basics when it comes to passing -.-

proper passing as in .

that problem has been there for too long . seriously .


till the next bball session then ?


probably i shud end here , and try to sleep early ?. lol


alright then ,



i will prove my worth someday !

3:52am 5thOct

alright .

spent a whole day bballing .

and so , reached lakeside for the training at around 4 -.- late for 1 hour .

due to those overshots i made =.= to boonlay


and the friendly match sucked . lol

due to the constant cramps on my calf -.-

and so wasn't able to perform properly - useless in other words

that coach got nowhere to put me at too , just like the one in st gab


anyway lost to those fatass-es to over 50points . lol


but i heard that they're together for many years liao -.- and due to their sizes

even that controller is bigger than me -.-


and so yea .. zz


perhaps it'll be a good night to sleep (:

hoping that i won't wake up grabbing my legs -.-



and so , next week will be a busy one .

ohwell , we'll see how it goes then -.-




i'm so bored laa

3:25am 4thOct

ohwell .

there goes another day -.-


feeling super sian now .

i think fate is playing a prank on me -.- seriously .

playing a prank on my indecisive mind


just when i feel so , it doesn't seems that way anymore .

and thus , im less motivated to work now .

hopefully i can hang out with those peeps .




i guess its time i take a longggggg break -.-


and so , visited bugis area today (:

thanks to pauline -.- she woke me up with her 'EHHHHHH' .

alright , saw her at the mouth of bugis street -.-



and for once i was wondering , 'who isit now ?' . zz


guess i shud go sleep soon (:

hopefully someone will give me a call tmr .


and i guess ,without talking to that dajiejie .

this friday night feels so bored . lol


ohwell ..



i wan training !

3:29am 3rdOct

ohwell , rotted another day away (:



feeling super hungry now -.-



nothing much more to add ? . lols .

feeling kinda bored at home alr .

i wonder wads wrong with my parents today man .

and it'll go on for days then -.-


hais

and i wonder why am i suffering from insomnia -.-


i guess i rot too much ?



i want to ..

3:10am 2ndOct

lols ,

happy hari raya and children's day to all ((:

though i'm not eligible to celebrate any one of them -.-


and so , rotted another day at home .


i'm sorry if my posts are getting u bored , or rather it has been exceptionally boring in the past few days .


even blogging makes me *yawn* nowadays -.-

and yup , my tagboard had made me go LOL .



and so , found out many common but lame things with that dajiejie

generally , my sensor spoiled -.-

no one will understand this , so nvm . lol


guess its time for me to go sleep ?. hahas



spoilt sensors -.-

3:04am 1stOct

lols , exactly 1 month ago , i was blogging at this time also , wad coincidence .


ok , got affected by that dajiejie's lameness -.-


and so , rotted at home again .



guess when im not working , i feel like staying at home more , despite the noises and whatsoever .


and yea , enjoyed talking craps with that dajiejie . lols

an efficient way to kill time (:


lols , guess its time for me to watch HotShots . haha


happy hari raya peeps !


lols , u very difficult to jio hor -.-

3:53am 30thSep

alright . dajiejie failed . felt kinda sad for her lor -.-


yup , received a sms today .

telling me not to report for work for this week .

well , guess its time i leave my workplace ?


sians . rotted at home agn for the whole day .



thus , nothing much to add now in my post -.-


hope that zhihao will somehow get out of this deep shit soon -.-



i wanna bball !


alright , somehow i continued this post agn , as i realised i was rushing to someone's blog and didn't really gave my post a full-stop , so did she

somehow my mood was slightly affected , and i dunno why . hahahas


terrible bodyaches are stopping me from all those normal activities .


perhaps i got nothing much to add also -.-



ohwell , ?


could it be you?

2:25am 29thSep

ohwell . rested at home after 1day of training (:


which means , i failed to report for work .



i guess that manager of mine must be fucking pissed .

cos there wasn't even a single reply out of the 2 sms i sent .

good luck to me ehs -.-



alright . and so , sat at home and started rotting like usual .

hopefully i can go practice some orthodox layups tmr -.-

and kick that spinning habit of mine . i'm very sure if the coach see's that spinning from me , ohwell .

yup , i'm very stubborn in this , once i'm forced to kick the habit , it will come back soon , so long as i'm not trained under proper basketball . lol


sian la !

i need a bball i guess ?



perhaps i need to sleep earlier -.-


and yea ,

realised some things about myself during this holiday just by talking to that dajiejie . hahas

somehow it leads to many many questions in my head .


perhaps its been that long i'm trying to do something from the bottom of my heart .

or ?. ohwell , I don't know .




for you , by me (:

12:29am 28thSep

there goes the last weekend of this month (:

and ,

went for the first training today ,

if its heaven for just nw . i will be awaiting for hell i guess -.-


and im bound to get scoldings like always again . hahahas

i was nv a smart or fast learner .

and i will piss whoever who tries to teach me things . lol


and yea . learned one or two things that i've nv realise before all the while when im bballing .


and thus (: i shud go back next week to face the hell (:


wads there to fear when i've faced the scary-ious monsters in bball ?

hahahahahas , im talking like im some dumbass who went thru all sorts of hell before .


and anyway , one thing good and bad about me is .

i can and will accept scoldings -


ohwell ~

aiya , sian lo .

now i have alot of decisions to make again .

i think soon my hair will go grey -.-

im thinking far too ahead .

and it kills my braincells



how i wish there will be someone there to assure me , the choices i made will do me well .. how i wish



what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger .

1:02am 27thSep

ohwell . a day passed .


$70 flew away unknowingly .



what else can i add on ?

and yea , camped at home the whole day -.-


dota-ed

slept

eat

teevee

dota again -.-


this is what we call no life .

and i wonder why ppl doing those MLM just enjoy calling me and shortlisting me into their interview list -.-

when i not even slightly interested in it



sians . i want to go bball !


i want something new

3:23am 26thSep

alright (:

a great day passed , cos its the beginning of my 2days break (:


and now ,

im very very keen to play for that bball team .

mood-swing i guess ? .


alright , maybe 1 more day for consideration (:


but well , if i do join -

many things to worry about again , lol



and so . saved my $20 and joel's $50 today -.-

cos that great friend of mine transferred 50cents instead of $50 to my bank account . lol


ohwell . nothing much to add already huh ? .

lols




i want that passion'

3:26am 25thSep

lols .

watched 2episodes of HotShot alr (:



quite dumb la . lols

but a good way to kill time .


sians . resorted to borrow money from joel for that dumb $70 .


grr .



ohwell , a fine day at work .

scalded myself quite a few times while working at the fryer machine . lols

it just wakes me up -.-


and yep , i shall be a smarter kind of person to not work on this weekend (:

other than sunday , when there's no one to work -.-


nothing much to blog abt my dumb job also i guess .

dumb scenarios all the time .


guess the chances of me leaving that dumb job is very low nw .

cos i can't really be bothered to find one . -.-


unless they terminate me la . i got nothing to say but rejoice over it (:



ohwell , gtg i guess -.- meeting that insurer at 11.30 tmr -.-



soon i'll be left with $1 again

3:40am 24thSep

alright .

had a day off .


and so . spent half an afternoon ard far east (: .


super bored la .

and so chatted with some interesting ppl that came to sit around me . lol


perhaps, i shud be more open to friends ?


sians .

gotta start borrowing money agn .

$70 for that dumb prudential thing . wtf -.-


and yea . gtg i guess . pretty late -.-



fate

2:40am 23rdSep

ohwell .

school starting in a month's time (:


sians , the crossroads are getting more and more obvious to me as time goes .

now :


55%i will quit that darn job

10% on joining the bball thingy

25% i will get a new job

10% i will stay on . zz



due to this indecisive mind of WY .

ohwell -.-



and yup , another off day tmr .

another lonely day by myself again i guess (:


sian la .


how i wish :


i can go watch a movie with someone !

i can accompany a girlfriend to go shop around like some loving couple .




sian la . hated working in the dining area lor .

see SOOO~ many loving couples around .

and many things start to enter my mind .


happy memories i guess ?




sigh ~

no point brooding over it since its gone so long alr right ?

lols.




i need a compananion -

2:41am 22ndSep

ohwell . a week more to the end of september (:


and yea . 2 more months to a new year i guess .

and im still finding someone to go watch the fireworks with me (:


sian lo .

rotted at home agn today -.-

somehow staying at home with my psp can somehow kill time (:



can't be bothered with the crossroads anymore .

i'll just take wadever that comes and fight wadever as i go (:

been a long time since i had a proper dinner with my family .

guess i did accomplish something even though i stayed home the whole day ?. lol




and also ,

there's some that tried to tell me what's good for me .

i appreciate it . but i believe i still know what is got future and no future .


zz . i-diots


alright . time to go take a rest .

while i need to chiong for one last week . zz



hope i get a free set of newspaper tmr

and so i can start browsing classified ads (:




i know & i believe

2:35am 21stSep

ohwell . another passed (: peacefully ?



argh , fucking pissed at work .

i'm gonna quit that darn job soon .

ppl kana OT pay $10plus , my OT pay $6 ? .

ppl promote to senior staff -.- when i work longer than them .

managers got lousy organising qualities , and i often starve myself with anger (:


this job is getting worse for sure .

alright , probably after some thinking , i might consider quitting before the next payout (:



sian la . i lazy to adapt another environment lor .


ok , my indecisive mind is playing me agn (:



ohwell , offday tmr finally -.-

hiya !

how i hope someone can make all the right decisions for me -.-

sians , so many crossroads appearing in front of me .



however , if someone decides a route for me , i might not wanna take it willingly -.- and if i choose my own route , i fear facing failure .


ok . wad a joke .


yea , if u all realised i've been feeling very sian nowadays

all these confusions were the 'likely' causes (:


and here , i shall give a big THANKEW ! to all that tried to guide me (:

however it seems that everyone and myself , each has different kind of thinkings .

sian la !

i'm damn scared of making a choice lor , cos out of 10choices i make

usually 9 of them are wrong choices .


i guess thats when people approach jesus or buddha or wadsoever ? . right ?


or some will say 'follow your heart' ,


lols . win liao lor .



ok la . so now :


a ) quit this darn job

b ) stay for the sake of some nice colleagues

c ) go learn how to cook noodles (:

d ) bball !

e ) request for a better pay - not possible .

wad else ? .



ohwell -.-



i need to trust a person ,

whom i believe can guide me the right way


or perhaps the 'right way don't actually exist ? .

who knows ? .

2:48am 20thSep

ohwell .

spent a day at home (:

and so ,rejected everyone who asked me out .

feeling kinda sick -.-

which i dunno why ..

however my psp somehow cured me . lols


anyway .

completed:

house cleaning for my hamsters ! ((:




well , although i wanted to make it a day for me to think thru many things .

obviously i failed to do it .

like wad that dajiejie said , im not firm enuf . lol


sian la !

if this is part and parcel of one's life , then indeed life sucks .



alright , we shall look onto the brighter side of life everyone (:

lols , when i think about this it makes moi go ROFLLMAOLOL .


sians . another day of working . -.-

are holidays really something good ?



accept the fate , face the reality



sometimes when it comes to saying , its as easy as 123

when it comes to doing , its like gaussian elimination -.-

1:44am 19thSep

sians .

just got reminded by someone about the bball thing .

sian la !

how to play for that team ?.

i need to work !

i need to go those tiring trainings !

which one ? ~


if i keep my job ,

probably there goes the chance for me to improve more in bball !


if i join that team ,

i will have a very low income -.-

and of cos a risk in getting another elbow injury ,

which probably will take forever to heal -.-




keeping the job will make me a realistic person .

joining the team will probably fulfill my dream .

of joining a bball team (: at least i tried ? .




hiya . shall give myself some more time la .

although the training starts this sat -.-

but since i couldn't contact my friend . ohwell .


anyway tmr off day mah (:


hiya !

tons of things to do as well .

zz . reminds me of a dumb trip back to primary school today -.-


no comments on that -.- seriously


alright ,

today's work made me so sian that .

i felt like leaving . seriously


the managerial abilities of those people nowadays really CMI .

maybe soon i shud be less helpful and more selfish .



hiya . no comments la .

the more i think , the more choices i have to make -.-


alright ! , cyas peeps (:




i hope someone can guide me ,

if not just let me stay as a kid forever (:


factsheet !

the general happiness of a person will start falling from its peak at the average age of 7

3:03am 18thSep

ohwell . there goes another day -.-



and yep , got tortured by work due to not having much rest -.-


sians .

was like sleeping all the while till someone made me jump even after a short rest in the toilet -.-

i guess she woke me up (:

and soon , some bunch of horrible colleagues arrived , thus im like a deadman working -.-

no comments for the things i elaborated on top .



sian la . still considering about that bball team thing .

1 day i feel like going .

another day i don't -.-

aiya dunno la ~


ohwell ,

had a chat with some dajiejie just nw . lols

talk to her quite entertaining ehs .

leave it to fate then . hahas (:



alright , gtg work agn tmr

no comments .

zz



i want to go , nawt

like real .


ok lame .

12:53am 17thSep

lols . unknowingly , 1/2 the month had passed (:

and yep ,

celebrated angeline's birthday @ Sentosa (:

gave her that not-so-appealing present of mine (:

and not forgetting a slice of CHEESE sponsored by GAYBOY (:



and yea . lucky angeline huh ?.

i didn't even make anything for my gf before lor . i think ?

and yea . a day ended with some game of captains ball .

for once i think captains ball is not lame .

perhaps it somehow tested some reflexes ?.



and so . all went separate ways soon after dinner (:

and people start asking me strange things -.-


nvm (:



had a small chat with people today ,

and realised , perhaps things haven't change .

maybe it did , but a small one i guess ?



still wondering if i should go for the team's training . many factors to consider about man , zz



suggestions please people ?. if you happen to read the bold-ed sentence (:


so how ?

2:25am 15thSep

woots !

mid-autumn week ((:


ohwell . had an average day at work i guess .



sians .

and yea . saw that fag angmoh that screw-ed me .

as i was working in that darn kitchen

i made sure his bread was chaotah enough .

so that he won't make a scene again .

was kinda agaitated again that i wanted to spit on that darn burger .

but so . its often not my style to do such stuffs (:

and so , i treated him to some pickles and chilli strip sauce .

and from what i can see .

he was enjoying that burger .

i hope he's doing fine nw (:

i hope


yea . knew of a friend from ytd in friendster (:

we take the same bus almost everyday .

and we're from the same primary school .

and i dun recognise her at all -.-



lols . like what some classmates of mine have been telling me .

maybe i shud stop sleeping all the time . lols


and yep , still suffering from the GreatDepression .

it ain't getting better . for sure .


ohwell .

a headache for much more things up ahead ,

the nearest one , this coming tues -.-


wish me luck (:



sians . how ?

2:44am 14thSep

ohwell .

gonna start working in hours time . zz

guess i will find some excuse to leave early .

i wanna get some hamster's stuffs .



spent my afternoon at khatib on friday (: , a must-mention thing

had fun bballing with my colleagues .

woots !

damn good la to bball with tall people . (:

and quite a huge amount of chiobus . muahahahas

hope can go there soon . again (:

and yep , went amk for pool today .

sadly , full house -.-

went arcade looklook agn . hahas !

and yea. went home pretty early . no money =x


and so . walked around my area .

and went past that mrt .

saw that woman who promoted the policy thing to me . lols

somehow i think she's attractive . lol

as usual , i didn't look at her for too long , even though she said ' hi ' . lols

dao sia .zz


alright . nothing much to blog about i guess ?.

other than the fact that since EPL started , i had not won any bets -.-

LMAO



the more attractive you are ,

the more i won't look at you

2:48am 12thSep

ohwell .

a very tiring day i guess .

got fucked by some filipino that works in the main office within 5mins in store .


I'm damn tempted to like get another job la ~

and somehow i guess sunday would be a very boring one . since that AM will be on shift after 3pm .

sian sia .

need to face that idiot , directly or indirectly , i dunno yet .



sibei sian .

visited far east awhile in the afternoon to do some store-to-store delivery .

and yea. the cab fare is like $12plus ? from PS to far east .

lol

damn paiseh la . i got like $10 only ?.

and so . borrowed $2plus from far east . lol



ohwell . continues that darn losing spree in dota ,

i got no comments for that -.-





sians .

3:04am 11thSep

lols .

around 5or6 years ago ?.

this day . World Trade Center in NewYork was attacked by 2 hijacked planes . (:

ok . a good reminder to many that were still young kids like i was back then




alright . missed gym session today .

overslept -.-

and yea . dota-ed all the way to evening .

and went for a haircut . zz

not as good though -.- sians


and yea. visited bugis again .

no chiobus -.- but hit 800 for the first time in that bball machine . hahas


came back and dota-ed awhile more .

i wonder what caused my hot-temperament .

probably the losing spree -.- I'm a sore loser (:


ohya . results out today .

sibei sian . GPA 3.1 ONLY !

waliew ~

and ppl start telling me not bad alr . even when they get like 3.3 ?. or even 3.8 for rafi's case ,

zz


alright .

i shall try my best to enjoy work .

i shall make this holiday a fun one .

i shall start finding my partner soon so that someone will watch the fireworks with me EOY !

ohwell .




screw-ed-up

3:17am 10thSep

ohwell .

a better day i guess (:

but kinda stressed up at work for a new 2nd day .


if i had seen wandi's message at my tagboard earlier , it might have totally changed my mood . hahahas .

anyway . that manager went to other store today .

so , felt better i guess .

hopefully i won't see him even on thurs and sunday (:

but since he's the fucking assistant manager . ohwell .


yupyup . as i said . a better day , at work (:

i left the stall @ 8 on the dot to throw some stuffs.

in case all craps happen again .


so left at 8.30 (:


and so . wandered around my area to see if my friends are around .

wanted to get some stuffs too .



luckily . met a few pals , and had to borrow money again -.-


ohwell .

off day tmr . probably for gym ?

and so . gtg soon i guess .


thanks wankidal (:



theGreatDepression